4th song

4 songs now..this is the 4th..


#4 : living on, moving on, without you


But


#Chorus:


I'm living on
and moving on
and doing this
all without you


life goes on now
like a river
like an ocean
never ending


I'm living on
and moving on
and doing this
all without you


and life goes on
i'm all alone


here i am
all alone out there
there you are
breaking my broken heart


looking back
at all the things i've done for you
and all of these
are just my love for you


it's raining
but not out there
it's raining
right here in my heart


it's breaking
not that glass over there
it's breaking
right here it's my heart


#Chorus


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alrite..this shld be final..lest i add in a rap or a verse 2..this song kinda special..cuz start with chorus..the chorus ends at the "and life goes on i'm all alone"..

missi

missing u alr..haiz


siannn..i very tired now..but i still wanna play play play..this wk most prob gonna be muh last wk playing le..then after that return to like b4 bt2..piah studies..this time needta piah 2 times more cuz it's prelims..summore got new topics..then still got lessons..PIAH

stuck

"if only"..that's my fave phrase..


i noe i can't turn back time..i noe i shld move on..but i can't..


i'm stuck in the past..seeing the past, feeling the past..yet..i noe it's all gone and i'm living in the present..


my naiveness?mebbe..or perhaps i'm juz unable to accept the fact tat u left..if i can..i wldn't cry..i'm juz feeling weak..


perhaps i've done something wrong..by letting go by someone who loved me..i always thot it's always better to let someone love me more than i love her..afterall, i've been thru so many times that i loved her more than she loved me..so y did i give up?perhaps, i'm juz better when i love someone more than she loves me..i juz can't accept the fact that i can't give her wad she gave me..so i gave up..


when i started writing the song, "living on, moving on, without you"..i was able to write it out..as in..ideas come to my mind..cuz at that time, i realli wanted to move on without L..but then came erhemx..i was too happy to actualli write that song..so i stopped writing..cuz ideas didn't come..it's a sad song eh?then it became a roller coaster ride..tears were shed..by her..and after a while, when evrything seemed juz fine..somehow that stupid chat log appeared..and i read it..fark it..so i gave up..and decided to live in the past..and of cuz, how can i be able to write that song animore..so haiz..dammit..too bad..


i..argh..i dunno..

if i can..

i juz can't put the past behind me, that's y i have to let go of the present..i noe it's wrong to kip on staying in the past..trying to relive my dreams..but i'm sure that's happier than now..that's y..i did something..perhaps i'll regret for the rest of my life..but i juz dun wanna prolong any pain for now..so sorry..


but all these happened cuz becuz i was reading this chat log..and i realised..i can't put it behind..trying to stay together when i can't forget the past is simply not gonna work out..k..here's juz a small abstract from the chat log..


=[my mind is full of one person]= says:
when i did not c u 4 a day,do i feel strange..
=[my mind is full of one person]= says:
do i feel lyk seein u immediately..
=[my mind is full of one person]= says:
when i feel down,r u e firz person i wanna share my gan3 shou4 izit u..


her ans was yes..she was asked this by my gd fren..the u in the chat is me..haha..so that's like wad happened 2 years back..


it might feel nothing to aniwan else reading this..but it means all to me..in the past..and even till now..it still means alot..it is one of the few happiness i had so far..this chat..


i'm sure it's not juz me missing the past..it's more than that..i realli wanna be with her..even if these 2 years has changed her, i noe that my love has nver changed..i'm juz asking her for her understanding for wadeva happened 2 years ago..


to the other one : sorry, i didn't want this..but it's inevitable..i juz can't bring myself to be with someone when i noe there's someone out that that i love even more..and i'll only wanna love her..

when u're alone

wad happens when these 2 situations happen :


Situation 1 : when u realise that the one and only girl u love and like so much will not be the one you will spend the rest of ur life with.


Situation 2 : when u're left with nothing but ur body, mind and soul.


Answer? this is wad i realised


Situation 1 : well, u can only cry and live on..cuz all u can do is to live on, move on, without her.


Situation 2 : you're all alone..in this fuck-up world.


san1 yue4 liu4 ri4, a day i'll always remember..


L is for love..but we're not born juz to love.

life plays tricks

life plays it's tricks on ppl..and it juz seem to always do it on me..


seems like in the past..when i wanted it so much..it never came..but when it did came..i didn't want it that much animore..but i have no choice but to accept the fact..in order, not to make myself happy, but not to make others sad..get wad i mean?coz y?coz i can't stop thinking abt certain ppl/person..i c them..i start thinking..wad if(s)..yea..and then i stop thinking..cuz i noe these kinda thots wld juz make some1 cry..


so wad is happiness..i have no more definitions for it..can't even seem to find it in my dictionary..perhaps i shld type that in the wikipedia and check it out..LOL..mebbe it's juz me making her happy..but somehow..it feels empty..

pissed

pissed off..by wad?my randomness~~argh

stepdown

hmm..today co stepdown..dunno leh..c ppl so sad i oso feel a little bit sad..but the tears wun fall..i noe it..lately..tears juz dun fall anymore..guess i'm used to it..well..nvm..guess it's realli like wad they say..there's a diff between comm and member..the way u feel for co is definitely different..if i was still a member..who noes..mebbe i wldn't even have attended co today..


to love is to perservere..to love is to c the truth..to love is to feel for you..to love is to...wadeva..i'm tired..lemme rest..

hmmm

realisation comes with dreams dashed..i dashed her dreams..realising my folly..realising my love..realising the sadness..


6/3/2004..gone..missing..i'm once again..down here..reminiscing wad is gone..hmmm..i hope that's how u spell that..but wadeva..missing the good old days..understanding..hey~that's love, but it's gone...


i can't move on..cuz i do not understand..after all these 2 years..i still haven figured out wad realli happened..that's y i'm stuck back 2 years..u made me happy, u made me sad..u gave me love..u took it away..i dun understand..i can nvr understand if u dun gimme a good explaination..


ya..i dashed someone's dreams..i know i shldn't have..when i can't put down something back there..i shldn't have done that..doing things i shldn't have done..how stupid i am..she says she understands..that's y she broke last time..and she'll not hold on..but she'll wait..i'm surprised by her..i'm realli..i realli hope i can get over with the past..but rite now i juz can't..i dun wish to hurt anyone..but including myself as well..i..i..juz dunno wad's going thru my mind now..such confusing thots..


when i'm enjoying it..the fact that she can make me happy..i noe i can't do the same..cuz i still have 6/3/04 right there in my heart..


WTF IS THIS!?!?!?!?

am i satisfied?

am i satisfied?with this results..i dun think so..the papers were mostly ez..i guess..27 marks from my goal..juz 27 more marks for physics i cld haf done it and achieved my goals..but nvm..still have prelims..get an aab then and peak during a's...get a triple A..still got gp..hiakX..hopefully get quite good..hahaha.

?

we are but humans..there are bound to be emotional changes..


dun say u love me, u dun even noe me..LOL..M2M..haha


but..realli..even if u noe me real well, wld that be love..or izzit better to stay as it is..juz 2 good frenz..hmmm..dunno la..i juz wanna concentrate now..realli..i need time alone..that's y i say it's bez to be single..mebbe nxt yr u'll noe le..cuz u wld face the same stress too..things can wait..and needta go ns..ARGH!!!

o fuck

fuck it..wadeva..brasil's outta world cup..argentina's outta world cup..dammit..wth is this..south american clubs outta the tournament..match-fixing by fifa?possible..only european teams remain..wadeva..stupid..world cup is becoming boring..i guess it's down to germany and portugal in the finals..ha ha..


hope portugal will win..they're the only team out of the 4 in semi-finals that haven't won the cup so far..go portugal

wad is this

hmmm..izzit becuz i'm runnin out of ideas or wad?the song juz stopped there..didn't go on..


or izzit becuz i'm too tired from all those tests that i can't be bothered with the song..


or izzit becuz i'm currently in a wrong mood that is so different from that song..hmmm..


u were my super woman..how abt now?haha