I was really in a good mood the whole day, well, of cuz apart from the slight disappointment in the morning that ended up with only 3 ppl playing bball. The whole day went very well! Indeed, it was better than I expected. (:
Anyway, sorry to huiru for making u sit in front! And i really hope the car ride didn't take longer than it would if you had taken a train instead la. So sorry!
But ya, main point is, everything was fine until I reached gwen's place. =/ SPRAINED MY LEFT ANKLE AGAIN!!! )): 2 times in 2 days!? And this time its like real bad, its very much swollen now. I think i'll wake up to a super swollen ankle. Couldn't even walk properly. =/ AND cannot run tml liao!!! i damn saddd! ): tot tml night after running then can join jiewei they all for supper, but seems like its not gonna be wad i wanted it to be.
Haiz, totally ruined my mood. ): but the mooncakes were nice! and the company was great! thanks gwen for inviting us over!!!
I think its better that i get some slp, my legs need it. =/
Friday, September 24, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
shrugh shrug shrug
can't stand webcastings anymore. Hari K is really damn fail. he spend so many lectures just to explain gaussian distribution when ms chan only needed a few mins to explain what normal distribution was back during sa times. Ah, somehow, i miss SA days. flinging the tie to the back, slacking in sch, playing bball, playing mahjong in co room, the dai dee sessions i had with mok everytime b4 co, the time b4 sajc at potong pasir was opened, when me mok and mong went there to stayover in an empty sch. EXCITING! Not to say that life in uni is boring, but it seems to lack the flair and fun I used to have back in JC. Everyone putting sch work as a priority, no one willing to go out when u ask them to. =/ I really dunno. Is this what uni is about? study study and study? No one is willing to take time out to relax and have fun? -shrug-
And stop asking me to do something that you know its not in my nature to do so. I don't like to take photos, if ppl dun ask me to take with them, i'll never ask them to take with me. That's me. Simple.
-shrug-
sometimes, i just need to be more confident, be it in my songs, or in the way i carry myself.
Perhaps, all i need to do, is to say it out loud.
Perhaps, all i need to do, is to tell you how much you mean to me.
All these perhaps, so what am i waiting for? the right moment? when will it ever come? A moment will never come if I dun even try, so why would a right moment come when there will never be a moment. Ay, what am I saying? I'm just confusing myself and everyone around me.
AND I WANT TO WRITE MORE SONGS!!! alot of lyrics coming in, but no tunes, which is really bad. and worse still, songs without titles. =/ what is this? overflowing of creativity? Or lack of it?
I'll sing you a song, not a love song
but one to describe you
Your beauty
how you stand out from the crowd
And i wanna reserve this last section for a love that has stayed with me for so many years. Not for someone, but for the club I love so much. I love liverpool. Not for the trophies they have won, not because of the pride that we have as the most successful english club the world has ever seen. But because of how the fans still stand behind the club despite us not winning the epl for the past 20 years. A club, is not about how many trophies you win, its about how the club carries itself. How it feels like a family whenever I see players like Gerrard, Carra, Dalgish turning up at hillsborough memorial. All the stories I've read about hillsborough, this is more than a club, its a family. Like Gerrard said before, "this is more than a club crest, its a family crest". Liverbird upon my chest, hillsborough flames by the side, You'll Never Walk Alone. How many times have I relied on YNWA to pull me thru my down times, how many times have I looked at Liverpool players score and cried tears of joy. This is certainly more than a club, and Liverpool is what I'm proud of. I'm proud of being a Liverpool fan.
And stop asking me to do something that you know its not in my nature to do so. I don't like to take photos, if ppl dun ask me to take with them, i'll never ask them to take with me. That's me. Simple.
-shrug-
sometimes, i just need to be more confident, be it in my songs, or in the way i carry myself.
Perhaps, all i need to do, is to say it out loud.
Perhaps, all i need to do, is to tell you how much you mean to me.
All these perhaps, so what am i waiting for? the right moment? when will it ever come? A moment will never come if I dun even try, so why would a right moment come when there will never be a moment. Ay, what am I saying? I'm just confusing myself and everyone around me.
AND I WANT TO WRITE MORE SONGS!!! alot of lyrics coming in, but no tunes, which is really bad. and worse still, songs without titles. =/ what is this? overflowing of creativity? Or lack of it?
I'll sing you a song, not a love song
but one to describe you
Your beauty
how you stand out from the crowd
And i wanna reserve this last section for a love that has stayed with me for so many years. Not for someone, but for the club I love so much. I love liverpool. Not for the trophies they have won, not because of the pride that we have as the most successful english club the world has ever seen. But because of how the fans still stand behind the club despite us not winning the epl for the past 20 years. A club, is not about how many trophies you win, its about how the club carries itself. How it feels like a family whenever I see players like Gerrard, Carra, Dalgish turning up at hillsborough memorial. All the stories I've read about hillsborough, this is more than a club, its a family. Like Gerrard said before, "this is more than a club crest, its a family crest". Liverbird upon my chest, hillsborough flames by the side, You'll Never Walk Alone. How many times have I relied on YNWA to pull me thru my down times, how many times have I looked at Liverpool players score and cried tears of joy. This is certainly more than a club, and Liverpool is what I'm proud of. I'm proud of being a Liverpool fan.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
okay
So i noticed i posted the last post on my private one accidentally, but it doesn't really matter anyways. Not many ppl are reading this blog anyway. hahaha
And heck, i'm suddenly in songwriting mode, -shrugs- dunno why. Just the lyrics coming in like a tsunami, though the tune's not there yet. But i'll just make do with the lyrics.
Oh why, your precious face I won't make you cry
why won't you sing me a lullaby
I know why, everytime I see you I go shy
I don't lie, cuz my feelings ain't gonna lie
I don't know what it means to you
But to me, you mean everything in the world to me
So tell me what you think
So baby hold my hands
I'll sing you this song of mine
that says my love for you ain't nigh
I, i'll be the one
to make you smile
I'll be the one to
hold you tight
to tell you everything's gonna be alright
cuz i will be here for you tonight
i'll just tell you
this one last time
cuz this is what will
hold for life
To tell you that I love you
and this will never die
for this is true
Ok, that's all for this song! haha. and while writing the lyrics out, i managed to get a tune in as well!! woohoo~ so proud of myself. hahaha. But i can't think of a title for it yet. hmmm, just wondering, this song sounds better than the one that i had written previously for her. hmmm. i wonder whether i shld use this song instead. bah!
On a side note, tonight's run made me feel more confident of breaking the 5km barrier sooner. Maybe cuz it was just 3km today but i didn't really feel any pain. So perhaps, i shld just heck care wad the doctor says and go for it? haha. o well, -shrug shrug- And sat's run was bad, real bad! i literally hantataki for one minute on the spot at this petrol kiosk entrance cuz there were so many cars going in!! Worse still, there was this family blocking my way after the petrol kiosk. arghhh, totally bad for my knees cuz i was doing too much jogging on the spot. Hope my shin gets better soon!!! i really wanna run mizuno one! but, hai, 10/10/10 leh! such a nice date to have a run. ): maybe, perhaps, i shld just go for it.
And heck, i'm suddenly in songwriting mode, -shrugs- dunno why. Just the lyrics coming in like a tsunami, though the tune's not there yet. But i'll just make do with the lyrics.
Oh why, your precious face I won't make you cry
why won't you sing me a lullaby
I know why, everytime I see you I go shy
I don't lie, cuz my feelings ain't gonna lie
I don't know what it means to you
But to me, you mean everything in the world to me
So tell me what you think
So baby hold my hands
I'll sing you this song of mine
that says my love for you ain't nigh
I, i'll be the one
to make you smile
I'll be the one to
hold you tight
to tell you everything's gonna be alright
cuz i will be here for you tonight
i'll just tell you
this one last time
cuz this is what will
hold for life
To tell you that I love you
and this will never die
for this is true
Ok, that's all for this song! haha. and while writing the lyrics out, i managed to get a tune in as well!! woohoo~ so proud of myself. hahaha. But i can't think of a title for it yet. hmmm, just wondering, this song sounds better than the one that i had written previously for her. hmmm. i wonder whether i shld use this song instead. bah!
On a side note, tonight's run made me feel more confident of breaking the 5km barrier sooner. Maybe cuz it was just 3km today but i didn't really feel any pain. So perhaps, i shld just heck care wad the doctor says and go for it? haha. o well, -shrug shrug- And sat's run was bad, real bad! i literally hantataki for one minute on the spot at this petrol kiosk entrance cuz there were so many cars going in!! Worse still, there was this family blocking my way after the petrol kiosk. arghhh, totally bad for my knees cuz i was doing too much jogging on the spot. Hope my shin gets better soon!!! i really wanna run mizuno one! but, hai, 10/10/10 leh! such a nice date to have a run. ): maybe, perhaps, i shld just go for it.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
life sucks
I feel like a footballer who got very badly injured. Just when I found my passion for running back, the injury came. Life sucks, when the doctor says you can at most run 5km for the next one month, anything more than that, my leg will only get worse.
But 5km training for one month, means by end of october, my max would only be 16km at most. And by dec, i have to be running a full marathon. 16 to 32 in one month? have to try the style that I read about liao. train till 32km, cuz in an actual marathon, only the first 32km requires training, the remaining 10km is all down to will power. Will power, hmmm, i must find some motivation. =/
Still, the first hurdle would be nike human race. 1 week to get to 10km from 5km once i can start running again. Hai, or perhaps i should just find someone to run in my place.
recess week starts, and i'm slacking for the first 3 days, everything going according to plan when i slack. haha. Had a rather okay gym session just now. This ang moh kid, doing bicep curls with his water bottle when he saw me doing it with dumb bells, and he gave me that "so what, I can do it too" look. Really wanted to tell him, "try doing it with 8kg dumb bells la"
And i'm getting real bored staying at home on saturdays. haizzz
But 5km training for one month, means by end of october, my max would only be 16km at most. And by dec, i have to be running a full marathon. 16 to 32 in one month? have to try the style that I read about liao. train till 32km, cuz in an actual marathon, only the first 32km requires training, the remaining 10km is all down to will power. Will power, hmmm, i must find some motivation. =/
Still, the first hurdle would be nike human race. 1 week to get to 10km from 5km once i can start running again. Hai, or perhaps i should just find someone to run in my place.
recess week starts, and i'm slacking for the first 3 days, everything going according to plan when i slack. haha. Had a rather okay gym session just now. This ang moh kid, doing bicep curls with his water bottle when he saw me doing it with dumb bells, and he gave me that "so what, I can do it too" look. Really wanted to tell him, "try doing it with 8kg dumb bells la"
And i'm getting real bored staying at home on saturdays. haizzz
Friday, September 17, 2010
INJURED
argh, something is terribly wrong with my leg. When i started running today, i thought something was going to go wrong already. The shoes didn't feel right, unlike monday when it was in perfect condition. Landing felt wrong. And when the step came, i was totally unprepared. landed very heavily on my left leg. =/ pulsating pain, felt just like the hairline crack injury I had before. Doesn't feel good. Still aching now, but, hopefully its nothing. ):
Hopefully, doc analysis says its nothing and i can go for mizuno run. =/
And yeah, I'm damn tired nowadays, dunno why. And I haven't been doing alot of sch work, more of toning up my body for the runs coming up. Maybe this injury can give me more time to concentrate on my sch work, work on the surprise i wanna give, wokr on my core muscles. Hmmm, recess week, hopefully its enough for all these. Hopefully.
Hopefully, doc analysis says its nothing and i can go for mizuno run. =/
And yeah, I'm damn tired nowadays, dunno why. And I haven't been doing alot of sch work, more of toning up my body for the runs coming up. Maybe this injury can give me more time to concentrate on my sch work, work on the surprise i wanna give, wokr on my core muscles. Hmmm, recess week, hopefully its enough for all these. Hopefully.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
was not
This wasn't a break I really needed.
Literally spent the whole day doing nothing. Slept till 11am, played thru the afternoon, slept till evening, dinner, watched tv and manga-ed until now.
What a waste.
And this void of knowledge flowing in and lack of stress once again allowed emo-ness to flow in.
I'm getting more and more confused, by wad I know, and what I shouldn't know.
Everything, everyone, is just leaving me in shambles.
Pieces, that I do not which to be broken down into.
I feel weak.
Maybe becuz I didn't study today.
Maybe becuz I haven't been gyming since monday.
Maybe becuz I have only ran 9km for the entire week despite wanting to clock at least 20.
No, I'm just weak, not becuz of all that above, but becuz of who I am.
My experiences made me weak.
Vulnerable to emotions, too vulnerable for my liking.
But seriously, what's there to feel emotional about?
I really do not know.
Is it becuz of the fact that I feel lost?
Is it becuz of how much I want to talk with you, yet I'm afraid whatever I ask would make you angry?
It is becuz I care too much about how you would feel, that I fail to satisfy my own wants and needs.
I do not think for myself when it comes to you.
I feel like I'm a complete opposite of you.
You only think about yourself.
You don't care about what others are doing nor how they look at you.
You don't care about my feelings.
I only think about you.
I care about what others are doing and how they look at me.
I care about your feelings.
We are 2 different people.
Very different people.
But all I want is to understand you better.
I have questions I want to ask.
I need you to talk.
I want communication between us.
I want to know you better.
I want to love you with all I have.
I like you alot, so much so that if I don't drown myself in studies, all I can think about is you.
Your name, its short and sweet, just like who you are, and how you speak.
Literally spent the whole day doing nothing. Slept till 11am, played thru the afternoon, slept till evening, dinner, watched tv and manga-ed until now.
What a waste.
And this void of knowledge flowing in and lack of stress once again allowed emo-ness to flow in.
I'm getting more and more confused, by wad I know, and what I shouldn't know.
Everything, everyone, is just leaving me in shambles.
Pieces, that I do not which to be broken down into.
I feel weak.
Maybe becuz I didn't study today.
Maybe becuz I haven't been gyming since monday.
Maybe becuz I have only ran 9km for the entire week despite wanting to clock at least 20.
No, I'm just weak, not becuz of all that above, but becuz of who I am.
My experiences made me weak.
Vulnerable to emotions, too vulnerable for my liking.
But seriously, what's there to feel emotional about?
I really do not know.
Is it becuz of the fact that I feel lost?
Is it becuz of how much I want to talk with you, yet I'm afraid whatever I ask would make you angry?
It is becuz I care too much about how you would feel, that I fail to satisfy my own wants and needs.
I do not think for myself when it comes to you.
I feel like I'm a complete opposite of you.
You only think about yourself.
You don't care about what others are doing nor how they look at you.
You don't care about my feelings.
I only think about you.
I care about what others are doing and how they look at me.
I care about your feelings.
We are 2 different people.
Very different people.
But all I want is to understand you better.
I have questions I want to ask.
I need you to talk.
I want communication between us.
I want to know you better.
I want to love you with all I have.
I like you alot, so much so that if I don't drown myself in studies, all I can think about is you.
Your name, its short and sweet, just like who you are, and how you speak.
Thursday, September 09, 2010
stare
i stared hard.
At the sky.
At the com.
At my notes.
At my phone.
and I came to a conclusion.
Why did I even bother? This world full of lies. Why did I even bother trying to open my heart towards it. Why did I even dream about making this world a better place. Its not worth my effort, its not worth my time. I'll just let this world die, for we'll all die one day, and what's the point of saving a dying world, void of honesty, void of truth, full of lies, full of deception.
My mistake? fuck, it sure is.
and before i carry on, i dun give a fuck anymore. let the profanities enter my blog, it ain't gonna make a diff.
continuing, yeah. I made mistakes. Mistake of trusting people. Mistake of putting this one thing that I have left for myself into the hands of others. Opening my heart, trusting these so-called "friends", only to realise, nah, these people are just living for themselves. They only call you "friends", "buddies", "brothers", "sisters" when they need your help. When they're done with you, they shove you aside, and carry on with their lives, not responding to your calls when you're looking for help. Not giving a damn when you need someone there. No fucking body cares. Not like I give a fuck anymore. If everyone just wants to live for themselves, so be it. I'll be selfish once more. I won't care. I won't help. I won't trust. I won't believe. Every man for himself. I'll do everything for myself now.
Cuz you're not worth.
This world full of lies, its not worth me staying up all night.
At the sky.
At the com.
At my notes.
At my phone.
and I came to a conclusion.
Why did I even bother? This world full of lies. Why did I even bother trying to open my heart towards it. Why did I even dream about making this world a better place. Its not worth my effort, its not worth my time. I'll just let this world die, for we'll all die one day, and what's the point of saving a dying world, void of honesty, void of truth, full of lies, full of deception.
My mistake? fuck, it sure is.
and before i carry on, i dun give a fuck anymore. let the profanities enter my blog, it ain't gonna make a diff.
continuing, yeah. I made mistakes. Mistake of trusting people. Mistake of putting this one thing that I have left for myself into the hands of others. Opening my heart, trusting these so-called "friends", only to realise, nah, these people are just living for themselves. They only call you "friends", "buddies", "brothers", "sisters" when they need your help. When they're done with you, they shove you aside, and carry on with their lives, not responding to your calls when you're looking for help. Not giving a damn when you need someone there. No fucking body cares. Not like I give a fuck anymore. If everyone just wants to live for themselves, so be it. I'll be selfish once more. I won't care. I won't help. I won't trust. I won't believe. Every man for himself. I'll do everything for myself now.
Cuz you're not worth.
This world full of lies, its not worth me staying up all night.
Monday, September 06, 2010
痛
原来寂寞会让伤痛倍增。
让自己的心封闭起来，其实是保护自己的最好方法。
我曾经无数次地封闭了自己的心，却因为让自己对真爱所抱有的幻想蒙蔽，一次又一次的打开这不堪一击的心门。
付出了真心，换来的只是一次又一次的伤痛。
把自己的心摊开来让我喜欢的人践踏。
受了伤，才知道自己一开始就不应该对爱情有所期待。
别人在爱情里所受的伤害或许只有一两次，他们要去爱，敢去爱，这些都与我无关，但，我就是无法让自己不被这无数次的伤痛影响到我对爱情的憧憬。
我想爱你。
我想对你坦白。
我想让你看到真实的我。
但你却什么话也不说。
感觉上就好像是在敷衍我罢了。
你每一次感到悲伤或想找人家解闷时，我总是让自己站在最前线。
当你需要我的时候，我总是第一时间赶到。
当你说你很闷时，我就放下我在做的事情，陪你聊天，帮你解闷。
但你呢?
当我觉得悲伤不已，想要对你说时，你却只懂得对我说些客套话，好似一点也不关心我心里的感受。
就好像我是在浪费你的时间。
我不明白，为什么我愿意为你做这么多，但当我最需要你的时候，你却说一句话就走。
朋友也是一样嘛。
当你在哭，当你对我哭诉你的不满，我愿意在旁听你诉苦。
但当我已哭了好多天，你却象是人间蒸发似的，不见踪影。
爱情嘛，百分之九十九是假的，那一份真的嘛，就是痛。
只有痛是最真实不虚假的。
真爱，真的有那么真实吗?
那，为什么你就不愿意相信我的真心呢?
pain, is extrapolated by loneliness.
Goodnight world, you're not worth me staying up for.
让自己的心封闭起来，其实是保护自己的最好方法。
我曾经无数次地封闭了自己的心，却因为让自己对真爱所抱有的幻想蒙蔽，一次又一次的打开这不堪一击的心门。
付出了真心，换来的只是一次又一次的伤痛。
把自己的心摊开来让我喜欢的人践踏。
受了伤，才知道自己一开始就不应该对爱情有所期待。
别人在爱情里所受的伤害或许只有一两次，他们要去爱，敢去爱，这些都与我无关，但，我就是无法让自己不被这无数次的伤痛影响到我对爱情的憧憬。
我想爱你。
我想对你坦白。
我想让你看到真实的我。
但你却什么话也不说。
感觉上就好像是在敷衍我罢了。
你每一次感到悲伤或想找人家解闷时，我总是让自己站在最前线。
当你需要我的时候，我总是第一时间赶到。
当你说你很闷时，我就放下我在做的事情，陪你聊天，帮你解闷。
但你呢?
当我觉得悲伤不已，想要对你说时，你却只懂得对我说些客套话，好似一点也不关心我心里的感受。
就好像我是在浪费你的时间。
我不明白，为什么我愿意为你做这么多，但当我最需要你的时候，你却说一句话就走。
朋友也是一样嘛。
当你在哭，当你对我哭诉你的不满，我愿意在旁听你诉苦。
但当我已哭了好多天，你却象是人间蒸发似的，不见踪影。
爱情嘛，百分之九十九是假的，那一份真的嘛，就是痛。
只有痛是最真实不虚假的。
真爱，真的有那么真实吗?
那，为什么你就不愿意相信我的真心呢?
pain, is extrapolated by loneliness.
Goodnight world, you're not worth me staying up for.
Sunday, September 05, 2010
Addiction
Addicted!
Spent the whole of sat and almost the whole of sunday watching drama!!! ahahaha. I like these kind of shows ba. The way I can laugh and emo at the same time.
I guess its just me ba. I always feel like crying whenever the main character is giving his all to get the love of the girl he likes. Something that i've always wanted to do, but seems that i might never get a chance to do it.
我只不过是想谈一段单纯的爱情，但为什么老天却要把它弄得如此复杂?
all i ever asked for is a chance to prove my love. Will u gimme that?
你想真心爱一个人，却没有办法向她证明。
So tell me how, how do i prove to you? People ask me why? I couldn't really tell.
喜欢一个人有时候连自己都不知道为什么。
Its like giving you all, only to realise, it didn't mean anything to her at all.
我不懂，为什么真心换来的是谎言，付出换来的是伤害。
Perhaps, i've been hurt too much, to want to fall in love again, thus the hesitant nature whenever it comes to love. No matter how much I've told myself that she really matters to me, and that I really really do like her alot. When it comes to the deciding moment, i usually fall short. Its not because i'm not sure of my feelings, its just something, a wall, preventing me from going forward. It might be your wall, but it might be my own wall as well, I do not know. So tell me, should i move forward?
我不需要全世界的人在乎我，我只需要我喜欢的人在乎我就够了。
i really dun need anyone to care about me. I don't care who reads this post, the only thing i know is, you're probably not reading this. Its funny, how I have so much to say, so much to emo about after what happened today, all the quarrels and stuff. But, the only person i want to talk to about it is you. But all you could do, is to not talk to me at all. Or rather, I tried talking, but I was asked to do other stuff. =/
All I really need, is you.
Shall end off with a song I really like, cuz it really depicts my feelings now.
我喜欢你的眼
看着我的眼
我喜欢你的脸
贴着我的脸
世界在改变
我不会改变
因为我很爱你
不想要你放弃
爱情这种默契得来不易
我爱你
真的是很爱你
所以想把整个世界都给你
Spent the whole of sat and almost the whole of sunday watching drama!!! ahahaha. I like these kind of shows ba. The way I can laugh and emo at the same time.
I guess its just me ba. I always feel like crying whenever the main character is giving his all to get the love of the girl he likes. Something that i've always wanted to do, but seems that i might never get a chance to do it.
我只不过是想谈一段单纯的爱情，但为什么老天却要把它弄得如此复杂?
all i ever asked for is a chance to prove my love. Will u gimme that?
你想真心爱一个人，却没有办法向她证明。
So tell me how, how do i prove to you? People ask me why? I couldn't really tell.
喜欢一个人有时候连自己都不知道为什么。
Its like giving you all, only to realise, it didn't mean anything to her at all.
我不懂，为什么真心换来的是谎言，付出换来的是伤害。
Perhaps, i've been hurt too much, to want to fall in love again, thus the hesitant nature whenever it comes to love. No matter how much I've told myself that she really matters to me, and that I really really do like her alot. When it comes to the deciding moment, i usually fall short. Its not because i'm not sure of my feelings, its just something, a wall, preventing me from going forward. It might be your wall, but it might be my own wall as well, I do not know. So tell me, should i move forward?
我不需要全世界的人在乎我，我只需要我喜欢的人在乎我就够了。
i really dun need anyone to care about me. I don't care who reads this post, the only thing i know is, you're probably not reading this. Its funny, how I have so much to say, so much to emo about after what happened today, all the quarrels and stuff. But, the only person i want to talk to about it is you. But all you could do, is to not talk to me at all. Or rather, I tried talking, but I was asked to do other stuff. =/
All I really need, is you.
Shall end off with a song I really like, cuz it really depicts my feelings now.
我喜欢你的眼
看着我的眼
我喜欢你的脸
贴着我的脸
世界在改变
我不会改变
因为我很爱你
不想要你放弃
爱情这种默契得来不易
我爱你
真的是很爱你
所以想把整个世界都给你
Small little things
Sometimes, in life, its those small little things that make you realise what is most important to you. Its those small little moments that make me realise why I fell in love with her in the first place. Its just how different you feel from other ppl, its just the feel-good factor when i'm around you, when i'm talking to you. How much I treasure every word you say to me, cuz I never know when the next time you would talk as much to me again.
As if I should have ever doubted my feelings. Now, everything seems clear. There's only you in my heart now. It might take some time, but I really hope that I can have a place in your heart too. I sincerely do.
Maybe its all the lovey dovey dramas i've been watching lately, that makes me wanna fall in love again. But, there's just something about you, that makes me wanna be with you. There's something, that tells me I might regret it if I dun do anything for you. There's this thing about you, that makes me want to try to make you happy with all I have.
Coupled with the fact that somehow, I will just suddenly have this feeling that you're feeling down or unwell. Been having it 3 times le, just a sudden sense, that something's wrong. =/ Though the first one on july 29th i'm not really sure about it, but the other 2 times that I dared to ask about, well, they really were. What is this? Destiny? Fate? Unknown connection? I have no idea. What I know is, you must really mean something for me to make me feel so much for you.
Its scary, but somehow, i just feel happy whenever i'm correct about all these. When it comes to you, everything just feels different.
I like you, _____.
(:
As if I should have ever doubted my feelings. Now, everything seems clear. There's only you in my heart now. It might take some time, but I really hope that I can have a place in your heart too. I sincerely do.
Maybe its all the lovey dovey dramas i've been watching lately, that makes me wanna fall in love again. But, there's just something about you, that makes me wanna be with you. There's something, that tells me I might regret it if I dun do anything for you. There's this thing about you, that makes me want to try to make you happy with all I have.
Coupled with the fact that somehow, I will just suddenly have this feeling that you're feeling down or unwell. Been having it 3 times le, just a sudden sense, that something's wrong. =/ Though the first one on july 29th i'm not really sure about it, but the other 2 times that I dared to ask about, well, they really were. What is this? Destiny? Fate? Unknown connection? I have no idea. What I know is, you must really mean something for me to make me feel so much for you.
Its scary, but somehow, i just feel happy whenever i'm correct about all these. When it comes to you, everything just feels different.
I like you, _____.
(:
Saturday, September 04, 2010
wad the..
EH! wad's wrong!? why did i wake up thinking that someone is not feeling well. =/
maybe its i xiang tai duo again, but..its just the feeling that someone is not feeling well? ahhhh.
HELP HELP!
maybe its i xiang tai duo again, but..its just the feeling that someone is not feeling well? ahhhh.
HELP HELP!
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
Talk
Yay! i was feeling so bored after trying to catch insects on the wall that I wrote this song. Call this boredom all my true feelings, I do not know. I wanna sing this song to her, cuz the front part really describes how I feel right now while the chorus is all that I wanna say to her.
Was feeling very very down after gym session today. Realised how bad my running has deteriorated(is that how u spell it? bah). Used to be able to run 7km non-stop, AT LEAST. but just one month of not doing more than 5km and after one week of non-exercise due to stuff and flu and stuff and flu and.. ah, u get wad i mean. Now I'm having problem trying to keep to the 11km/h pace for 2km. wth. Could be becuz of the blocked nose and the coughing. BUT! 2kM only leh! walau. Other than that, gym was fine la.
But mostly was emo-ing cuz of her. Sometimes, I'll just think that, maybe its not worth the time and effort to talk to her. But, after what I've seen, what I've read, and what I think the real her is, I always end up telling myself, its just her to be like that. Its what makes her her. In a way, I kinda feel for her, cuz I used to be like that, or rather, i might still be like that. Refusing to open up to new ppl and stuff. I guess, all it needs is time. But how much time do we have? I'm really feeling sian by the fact that there's no one to talk to when I feel so down. There might be ppl who want to talk, but there's only a select few that I wanna talk to. Well, she's one of them, but I don't even know how to start talking.
Maybe, I should just close myself up, and stop talking to anyone but her. To let her know, how special she is to me.
But anyway, here's the song, with the title ___ ___ __. Try catching the rhymes, and maybe u'll guess the title. To be revealed, in less than 50 days. (hopefully)
#18 ___ ___ __
Just like I thought we would be
In your heart there never was a part of me
I thought you'll finally see
Every part of me that wants to be with ya
Baby, talk to me
Ask of me
What I would do for you to make you mine
Baby, answer me
why won't ya
Open your eyes and see that I care
Chorus:
Oh, 1, 2, 3
I looked into your eyes
and I said
I, love, thee
you are everything
that makes me
want to live
Hold my hands right now
cuz it is
all you need
And all you need is me
Oh, love's like flu
catches you when you
least expect
I love you
and that's all I e-
ver wanna
say to you
Please stay with me
Cuz I am here for you
Oh, ___ ___ __.
Was feeling very very down after gym session today. Realised how bad my running has deteriorated(is that how u spell it? bah). Used to be able to run 7km non-stop, AT LEAST. but just one month of not doing more than 5km and after one week of non-exercise due to stuff and flu and stuff and flu and.. ah, u get wad i mean. Now I'm having problem trying to keep to the 11km/h pace for 2km. wth. Could be becuz of the blocked nose and the coughing. BUT! 2kM only leh! walau. Other than that, gym was fine la.
But mostly was emo-ing cuz of her. Sometimes, I'll just think that, maybe its not worth the time and effort to talk to her. But, after what I've seen, what I've read, and what I think the real her is, I always end up telling myself, its just her to be like that. Its what makes her her. In a way, I kinda feel for her, cuz I used to be like that, or rather, i might still be like that. Refusing to open up to new ppl and stuff. I guess, all it needs is time. But how much time do we have? I'm really feeling sian by the fact that there's no one to talk to when I feel so down. There might be ppl who want to talk, but there's only a select few that I wanna talk to. Well, she's one of them, but I don't even know how to start talking.
Maybe, I should just close myself up, and stop talking to anyone but her. To let her know, how special she is to me.
But anyway, here's the song, with the title ___ ___ __. Try catching the rhymes, and maybe u'll guess the title. To be revealed, in less than 50 days. (hopefully)
#18 ___ ___ __
Just like I thought we would be
In your heart there never was a part of me
I thought you'll finally see
Every part of me that wants to be with ya
Baby, talk to me
Ask of me
What I would do for you to make you mine
Baby, answer me
why won't ya
Open your eyes and see that I care
Chorus:
Oh, 1, 2, 3
I looked into your eyes
and I said
I, love, thee
you are everything
that makes me
want to live
Hold my hands right now
cuz it is
all you need
And all you need is me
Oh, love's like flu
catches you when you
least expect
I love you
and that's all I e-
ver wanna
say to you
Please stay with me
Cuz I am here for you
Oh, ___ ___ __.
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