make haste

Yes, you're special to me, that's all you need to know. But as long as i'm not special to you, what i think about you doesn't really matter. I don't know. I'm lost, again.

Put a smile on my face,
thousand miles to lonely days.
Not worth a thought,
lost in nights that are hot.

Try to make me smile, you know you can't.

Thevenin and Norton, Fourier and Taylor.
As Euler appears in every other module except for computing.

mr nice guy?

some things really soften ppl's hearts. back to being nice again. hopefully my being helpful again will make my life better. Past experiences tell me that i'm probably being too nice. BAH~ dun care.

Wish upon a star, for one that will heal your scars.
No one knows for sure, whether it will hear.

She probably made me realise what it is to like someone all over again, but she might just be another one that makes me realise how painful it is to love. I've put down my past, I'm looking to the future. My only wish, is for you to be the one, and I will do my best for that to happen.

Hmm, so where do I start?

Ok, so went to peninsula plaza, saw this red predator boots. OMG, so nice! its like the one i have now, which is a white one with black adidas stripes. But this red boots, its in a class of its own! bright red, with a tinge of orange and black stripes! Pure class. But, it doesn't have the indoor soccer boots edition yet. Hiaks! I want! hahaha. And saw some nice liverpool t-shirts too. woohoo!

Should I hold a bday party?hmmm

i seem to write crap when i'm drunk.

But, you're just a bother to me, can't u just live your own LIFE! stop bothering me. you're not worth forgiving.

Reason's theory of conservation of love & hatred

Ok, and so i was walking home today, dunno y, suddenly started thinking about those stuff again. Thought i've already put it behind me, but sometimes it jus has to surface, sometimes.

Ok, and so, this theory came up to me. And, i call it the reason's theory of conservation of love and hatred. LOL. Maybe because physics now teaching conservation of energy. Wells, basically its about the same. A person's feelings towards another person is a constant that consists of love and hatred. When there is more love, there is less hatred, ie, you like the person, but there are some things that u still dun like about that person. Same applies the other way. And when there's absolutely no hatred for that person whatsoever, that is love. But when you lose this love at too fast a rate, for example, a sudden break up without any hatred towards the other party, the only possible way of losing love in such a short amount of time is to quickly change all this love to hatred. This is due to the fact that the love-hatred relationship has to obey the reason's theory of conservation of love and hatred.

Every right to hate, you apologised too late.
All the pain i loathe, you do not deserve my love.
Rot together with earth, and witness hatred's birth.
For you will hear bells, that lead your soul to hell.

Awaken to your destiny, for you will realise you're so lucky.
Born to hate, loved too late, promises ate, i'm not your lovely date.
Awaken to your destiny, get down on your kness.
Pray for forgiveness, for giving me loneliness.

Never changed, I am still the man I did not want to be.
Words so strange, I did not understand my destiny.
If my destiny was to hate, then did I love too late?
If I was to love, then would you be the one I chose?

No, the answer is no!
I will never love, one that showed me how to break promises!
I will never hate, one that showed me how to love!
For the only one I will ever choose, this song is for you.
I once loved you, but now I hate you!
This is my love, and I'm throwing it away now!
Down the drain! Down the sewers! Down the sea!
Into a fish's mouth! Turns to Shit!

For you, did not deserve my love!
I loved you so hard, you never replied!
You broke so many things!
Your promises, my heart, our love, our future!
You, don't deserve my LOVE!!!

This, is the song of hatred!
A song of how much I hate the one that I once loved so much!
Your name is to be forgotten!
I told myself to move on! But I'll do that while hating!
Hating the one that I loved so much, I do not love you anymore!

I don't really call this a song, more of a rap. I dun really hate anymore, but this is what i wrote a long time ago. Every writing deserves a chance to be read, so might as well post it here. Erm. Dunno what to do nowadays. Tutorials at this rate should be able to complete by monday, needta read up on some engin stuff and physics stuff though. Still got one 00 gundam to be completed, which i set the deadline as my bday. LOL! hmmm. tomorrow busy day, soccer, then come home, mebbe go out again, then come home do tutorials. LOL. then sunday go play bball! very long nvr play le..hahaha

Never changed, i'm still the guy i did not want to be.

What was I hoping for, all these false hopes, leading to nothing but disappointment and void.

Love, ya right, empty promises.

It doesn't matter, not anymore, i can't care, i don't care, i don't give a damn.

So be it.

Scared of it. All it brought to me was pain, who's gonna make sure that no pain's gonna come again. No one. So might as well just don't go for anything. No matter how cute i think she is, she's just another possible source of hurt, pain, hatred.