LOL

k la..mong..i let u hear wad u wanna hear..our tastes are the same la..happy??LOL..


crush can..HAHA..


k la..i realli dunno wad i'm thinking now..and i dun wanna think too much..juz let nature take its own course on me..some things lost are juz lost..i shall juz leave it now..leave my past..looking forward..to perhaps a peaceful day..

why shld i be happy??

seriously..why shld i be happy?


i can find a hundred reasons why i shld be sad with my life..but i find it hard even to find ONE single reason to be happy with my life..tell me WHY..WTF..


when i have time..i'll juz list out the 100 reasons..if aniwan can gimme 10 good reasons that i can accept abt why i shld be happy..perhaps i wld be happy..but now..NO..i'm not happy..i shld be sad..


F u chee bai lan jiao arsehole ppl who live in this fuck-up world with fuck-up chee bai lan jiao kah jiao-ing ur live like dunno wad fuck-up shit when all u want is juz to live a fuckin peaceful life..so knnbccb la..FUCK-UP..kpkb..


lol..i''m back..seriously..back to my old self..vulgar me..mugger me..trust-no-one me..promises are made to be broken..and seriously i shall juz do that..since no one has so far fullfilled their promises to me..and i say NO ONE..promosing u to help u find certain thing..but when u ask him/her for it..he/she wld juz ignore u..FUCK-UP la..kpkb..


promising u to be there..but when u need them..they're not there for u..fuck-up world..


the only way i can hide this fuck-up feelings inside me is thru studies and perhaps some occasional bball..old me..thirteen-yr-old me..vulgar me..mugger me..


and ya..i've realised my taste is quite the same as liang mong..at firz sight la..but after much observation..it wld move more towards patrick's kinda taste..LOL


one sad thing..after 2 yrs..tho not exactly 2 yrs yet..u're the only one who i can rmm the date that we started..6thMarch..can u like..tell me y??..and it ended on 12thApril..cuz it's significant?cuz i still have feelings for u??i do not noe..but u wld nvr noe..u wld nvr look back again..i guess if i ask u the same qsn like i've asked 2 yrs ago on 12thApril, ur answer wld still be the same..and ur answer will still be no..but i realli wanna ask u the qsn again..and i hope the answer wld be yes and that u wld hint me again by saying that u're listening to that song again..shuo ai ni..it juz means so much to me..but i doubt u wld ever noe..and now i noe y i fail in the relationships so far..cuz i still can't forget u..my heart can't accomodate another one when u're still takin up that place..when will i truly forget..when..i was 16 then..but i'm 18 now..my thinking has matured..but my feelings for u are still true and present..even till now..i realli hope that i have the chance to explain wad exactly happened 2 yrs back..and that i've nvr like wad u've said..jio-ing other gals when i say i like one gal..it's not true..but wld u ever believe me??after 2 yrs..will u still believe me..the one that u've once trusted..the one u've once called "ing ing" or papa b4 6thMarch..will u..haiz..i tot i've forgotten u but evrytime i kenna rejection by gal..i'll realise..i still have feelings for u..and i noe that is my true feeling..and the feeling i have for other gals is juz a false impression i'm trying to have so that i wld make myself believe that i've forgotten u when in actual fact..i haven't..i didn't do anithing to u in these 2 yrs..didn't tell u al these..cuz i'm scared..that my heart wld be once again broken..i realli dun dare..i dun dare to hear u say no again to me..perhaps i've broken ur heart 2 yrs back..or mebbe i didn't..but i always tot our feelings for each other was true then and i've nvr doubted it..at least for that one month..it was mutual..i'll ask this qsn again..if u happen to be reading this..will u gimme a chance again?


but i guess ur ans wld be "no, and never in the future.." like wad u've said 2 yrs back..that's y i dun dare to ask..realli dun dare..u shld noe who u are..if u happen to read this..cuz it's the song "shuo ai ni" that made me dare tell u..i realli..dunno wad to do..haiz..

zzzz

zzzz..nothing much to say..juz that..i've realised something..evrytime patrick toks abt a gal..it wld make us realise how true it is..haha..

keke

i've been thinking..wad if i stayed in nj..if i gotten 9 instead of 10..wondering..


hmmmz..firz of all..i wld most probably take back my combi of double maths physics com sci..ending up in the same class as alan, wei guang, yi hang, de wei, fang jian, darren..hmmz..did i miss out aniwan?..hopefully not..k..i'll be mugging non-stop i guess..still in co, it club..and probably joining pa as well..shld have passed my promos since if i am in nj..i wld be mugging..non-stop


i wldn't be playing dota so often if i'm in nj..ehh..mebbe more of mahjong since darren lives nearby..haiz..


eh..i wldn't have known liang mong, marvin..meaning i wldn't be workin at taka for the school hols..and probably not workin for the sch hols at all..cuz most prob gonna be in sch for cca..and mugging for j2..lol..wldn't have gone thru this much..but most prob..wad happened on 2nd jan wld still happen..


if only..if only..hmmmz..heckX..wad's happened has alr happened..no point thinkin abt it i guess..but y am i still havin regrets of leavin nj..y..i'm juz..haiz..wad's done cannot be undone..that's so true..but the pain is there..and time does not seem to heal it..perhaps i shld have stayed in nj arts..heckx..

100th hour anniversary?

haha..missed it..the 100..but nvm..hee..


eh..friday huh..haha..finalli..lol..


haha..k la..shall not tok abt wadeva that happened in sch today..nothing much aniwaes..haha


my color for the month is a color called fuchsia..accordin to teenage magazine..or was it teens..heckx..it's actualli some kinda pink..LOL..pink siah..lol..and it's pronounced as "fuck siah"..accordin to cheng han la..cuz dunno which day he used this color as his font..then he was saying it's pronounced as that..and i was like..wtf..pink..and to think that it's my lucky color for the month.."fuck siah"..haha..=p..can't criticise pink..later ppl bash me up..hahax..=x..

haha..wadeva

borin..went home immediately after sch..so tired..didn't noe got co til mong called me..but alr on bus le..ha..


haiz..didn't go aniwhere special today..didn't do anithing special today..and it's 80.5 le..ha..reaching hundred soon..


sch is starting to get more fun..fun making fun of lydon..fun during fma and fmb..where the 2 rather middle-aged tchers can suan u like dunno wad siaoz..then mr khoo as good as ever..letting us go home cuz it was raining and j1s were using the track to play games..haha..bez tcher gonna be mr khoo manz..and ya..ms soh too..haha..funny as ever..nice as ever..well..most sa tchers are good ba..i guess.lol


zzzz..wp and marv keep on saying yang cheng lin..aka rainie is chio..k la..she's chio la..but got hebe chio meh?haha..mebbe different ppl different tastes ba..but hebe is chio..haha..better than rainie..to me la..at least..haha..but hor..muz say selina is chio-er than hebe lahx..else someone angry..=pPp..


yea..new blogskin..ninja.ha

70

70 hrs..diaoX..eh..today k la..got cca..zzzz..co..zzzz..not that i dun like co..but..zzzz..juz very tired la..haha..


well..co ended rather early today at 5.30..but still late to get to there alr..so sorry..haha..so decided to go walk walk..went comics connection at toa payoh..ehh..saw this ff7ac collectibles..the casing was the one u wld c at ff7ac website..the cloud and sephiroth one..inside..there's this sword that cloud uses in ac..a ring with the head thing that can be seen on cloud's clothes in the movie..and a necklace that was nv seen b4 in the movie..and u call that a collectible series..i wld rather have cloud's swords..haha..13.90 la..for these 3 things..so duh..didn't buy in the end..haha..but it rekindled my ff7ac flame..haha..gonna go arnd looking for cloud's swords when i have time le..haha..ff7ac juz rox..lol..get it for me la k?haha..j/k j/k