chance

i was nvr given a chance to do it for u. and i guess, i'm not gonna do it for anyone anymore. my heart is still and my mind is clear. i noe wad is good for me. good bye. my love for u doesn't end. but it ended with u.

cool

cool leh, listening to the song on my blog and on window media player at the same time. sounds good..lols..lamoe..oo..i'm back to myself..all those 2 dots coming back..lols..

i'm stil lost la..

zz

zz. call me mr-no-luck-with-love. argh, wadeva la. let it be, juz let it stay this way. i guess i'll be happier with myself. bye to u. let's juz be frenz. zz.

inevitable

i noe this is inevitible. but wad can i do? i guess i'll juz hafta revert to my old self. but b4 that, i guess i shld juz try for the last time. to tell her that i love her. no matter whether it's gonna work or not, at least i noe i tried. at least

我想我只能做你的背影.

tt's all. i realli dunno wad to do le. i'm lost. if wad she said was real, then this muz be it. but i muz noe, whether it's the truth. hai. thx ah, at this kinda time, u tell me all these. make me wonder even more whether i shld say. rly demoralised la. kaoz. mebbe i shld haf done more things earlier. mebbe it's too late. no one is wrong, juz the timing.

liewz. rly very pain AH! dammit.

woohoo!

second sad song from 斗牛·要不要. very nice. the whole ost actualli makes the show even better. HAHA. but damn sad la. hai. i only need one person to understand. but the one that understands how i'm feeling ain't the one that i want her to understand. ha. i guess a fren is always better than u. but u're the only one i want.


歌手：林宥嘉 歌曲：背影
三公分阳光 三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情
剩下只有脚印

一直向前走 走不完距离
一直向后 退不出回忆
很高兴有心事
帮我困住自己

你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光 蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近

感谢我不可以 住进你的眼睛
所以才能 拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾 用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽

感谢我不可以 拥抱你的背影
所以才能 变成你的背影
躲在安静角落 不用你回头看
不用珍惜
(躲在安静角落 如果你回头看
不用在意)

我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事 蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你

sad song for a sad life

this, is a very sad song. haiz.

F O!

all of a sudden

all of a sudden, i dunno wad happened. a realisation? y do ppl only seriously tok to me when they need my help. when they want me to get something for them, when they got some prob with them and they noe i'm the only one who wun haf a prob with them. sacrificin myself for the happiness of others. wad's the point. ppl sad i go an1 wei4. but when i was sad, who was there for me. NO FUCKING PERSON! FUCK YOU! no, i'm jus pissed. i'm not a realli good person, i realli ain't a good guy. if i'm realli a good guy, ppl wun make use of me. ppl wun treat me as the almighty only when they have something they want from me. all those stuff for wad? i dun get it. did so many things that a simple thank you ain't enuff to cover up all those shit i've done in order to get u to jus say a THANK YOU? alrite, thanks. but that's not wad i realli needed. all i wanted was someone there. no one. and no one can ever feel how lonely i am. yea, wadeva. no matter how happy i might appear, well, i tell u the truth now, most of the time, say 75% of the time i wasn't. even if i was, when i look back at it, i wld juz think, shld i realli be happy abt all that? all these stuff, not even worth a single effort from me. but i still do, cuz i dun want anyone to be sad, except only for me? i care too much. that's the prob. care too much abt other ppl, ppl that no longer mattered in my life, yet i care. i'm juz that kinda person. 就算分手过或被拒绝过, 我还是希望妳们能够幸福快乐, 所以我不能不在乎妳们现在是否快乐. 已经付出的心是很难要回来的, 那份心意只是被时间与悲伤埋葬于心里深处. that's me, i jus can't dun care. but ain't that supposed to be liddat? when u like or love someone, ain't u juz supposed to wish for her happiness? even after they haf left u, wad u feel shld still be the same. want feel jealous? so be it. i dun think i'm wrong. doing all these jus show how these relationships mattered to me. but at the end of the day, you are the only one that realli matters, yet u're the one that doesn't even care. 3 words, enuff to say it all. I love u.

F O!