second sad song from 斗牛·要不要. very nice. the whole ost actualli makes the show even better. HAHA. but damn sad la. hai. i only need one person to understand. but the one that understands how i'm feeling ain't the one that i want her to understand. ha. i guess a fren is always better than u. but u're the only one i want.
歌手：林宥嘉 歌曲：背影
三公分阳光 三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情
剩下只有脚印
一直向前走 走不完距离
一直向后 退不出回忆
很高兴有心事
帮我困住自己
你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光 蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近
感谢我不可以 住进你的眼睛
所以才能 拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾 用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以 拥抱你的背影
所以才能 变成你的背影
躲在安静角落 不用你回头看
不用珍惜
(躲在安静角落 如果你回头看
不用在意)
我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事 蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你
Monday, December 31, 2007
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
all of a sudden
all of a sudden, i dunno wad happened. a realisation? y do ppl only seriously tok to me when they need my help. when they want me to get something for them, when they got some prob with them and they noe i'm the only one who wun haf a prob with them. sacrificin myself for the happiness of others. wad's the point. ppl sad i go an1 wei4. but when i was sad, who was there for me. NO FUCKING PERSON! FUCK YOU! no, i'm jus pissed. i'm not a realli good person, i realli ain't a good guy. if i'm realli a good guy, ppl wun make use of me. ppl wun treat me as the almighty only when they have something they want from me. all those stuff for wad? i dun get it. did so many things that a simple thank you ain't enuff to cover up all those shit i've done in order to get u to jus say a THANK YOU? alrite, thanks. but that's not wad i realli needed. all i wanted was someone there. no one. and no one can ever feel how lonely i am. yea, wadeva. no matter how happy i might appear, well, i tell u the truth now, most of the time, say 75% of the time i wasn't. even if i was, when i look back at it, i wld juz think, shld i realli be happy abt all that? all these stuff, not even worth a single effort from me. but i still do, cuz i dun want anyone to be sad, except only for me? i care too much. that's the prob. care too much abt other ppl, ppl that no longer mattered in my life, yet i care. i'm juz that kinda person. 就算分手过或被拒绝过, 我还是希望妳们能够幸福快乐, 所以我不能不在乎妳们现在是否快乐. 已经付出的心是很难要回来的, 那份心意只是被时间与悲伤埋葬于心里深处. that's me, i jus can't dun care. but ain't that supposed to be liddat? when u like or love someone, ain't u juz supposed to wish for her happiness? even after they haf left u, wad u feel shld still be the same. want feel jealous? so be it. i dun think i'm wrong. doing all these jus show how these relationships mattered to me. but at the end of the day, you are the only one that realli matters, yet u're the one that doesn't even care. 3 words, enuff to say it all. I love u.
F O!
F O!
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
鬥牛,要不要?
WAAhh! VERY NICE! 鬥牛.要不要! i think very nice. a little bit like why why love. but got a bit difference ba. this, alot more action. hahas. watch until like 3rd ep on youtube le. youtube only got up to 6th. hahas. the box come out i sure go buy. hahas. though the stunts they do very exaggerated but still nice. haha. BUT MOST LAME ONE IS! 一手双灌!!! very LAME! and i mean it! haha. i mean ya, got ppl can do it la. as in dunk with right hand, then after that while hanging, grab hold of the ball with the left hand and dunk with the left hand again! and that, is considered as 2 POINTS! woah! say i 井底之蛙 or wadeva, but this is the firz time i've seen such a thing. and they play bball dunnit to clear the ball de. got rebound, he wanna dunk. then kenna elbow. ball in mid air, suddenly got one guy from opposing team jump from behind dunk in. you call that a point meh? wierd la. taiwanese style? mebbe lo. haha. make me wanna play bball. and seriously very long nvr play le. =D
kk. F O!
kk. F O!
I am legend?
ZZZ. not a good movie. haha. ending quite lame. sorry to kyaw for not being able to get the tix. haiz. asked a fren help me go get the tix but she say she dun wanna go cine. so nvm lo. hmmm, taka to cine, ok la. quite far la. but if ppl ask me to i wun mind la. i guess diff ppl got diff degree of mafan. can't realli blame her too la. I NOT BLAMING ANYONE. just blaming myself for not being able to get tix for kyaw. but hey! i guess that was something right. kyaw dunnit spend some $9.50 on some so-so movie. i wld say 3.5 stars only.
xmas, not feeling that good. 3 guys, nothing to do, walk along orchard, squeezing thru the crowd of inconsiderate ppl that make me into an inconsiderate person. HA! but saw ppl i noe though. sunday nite saw pri sch fren charmaine who apparently didn't remember me so i didn't even bother to say hi. haha. then jus now saw yeling. haha. but was in a hurry to get back home so juz wave and she said hello then i zhao liao. i so dao. haha. nvm.
tml still needta book in check stores. waste of time. after that mebbe go get some stuff then go home le ba. i hate it when pub hols fall on tue. meaning chuangyi wun haf any publications for that week. CUZ IT'S PUBLIC HOLIDAYS AAANNNDDD PPL DUNNIT TO WORK!!! wadeva, why ppl dunnit to work i still needta go back camp! argh.
end of yr le. didn't feel much this yr. crappy yr i wld say. one more yr to ord. actualli less than a year. but this one yr is gonna feel so long. at least that's wad i think. hai. hang on ba. ORD le go look for job save up for some overseas trip. c whether ppl wanna go lo. ppl want go then GO LO!!! haha. F O!
xmas, not feeling that good. 3 guys, nothing to do, walk along orchard, squeezing thru the crowd of inconsiderate ppl that make me into an inconsiderate person. HA! but saw ppl i noe though. sunday nite saw pri sch fren charmaine who apparently didn't remember me so i didn't even bother to say hi. haha. then jus now saw yeling. haha. but was in a hurry to get back home so juz wave and she said hello then i zhao liao. i so dao. haha. nvm.
tml still needta book in check stores. waste of time. after that mebbe go get some stuff then go home le ba. i hate it when pub hols fall on tue. meaning chuangyi wun haf any publications for that week. CUZ IT'S PUBLIC HOLIDAYS AAANNNDDD PPL DUNNIT TO WORK!!! wadeva, why ppl dunnit to work i still needta go back camp! argh.
end of yr le. didn't feel much this yr. crappy yr i wld say. one more yr to ord. actualli less than a year. but this one yr is gonna feel so long. at least that's wad i think. hai. hang on ba. ORD le go look for job save up for some overseas trip. c whether ppl wanna go lo. ppl want go then GO LO!!! haha. F O!
Friday, December 07, 2007
ha
haven been going out recently. but this sat, hopefully evryone can make it! hopefully la. whole lot pang seh again i got nothing to say. most of the time they no time, but i think this wkend shld be ok ba. whole lot go eat and after that go roy's hse watch soccer. best. hahas.
very sian. like to play with words nowadays. tho not here but the previous post was obviously one. cuz it wasn't even meant to say anithing la. not even wad i realli feel. hahas. k la. that's it. F O!
very sian. like to play with words nowadays. tho not here but the previous post was obviously one. cuz it wasn't even meant to say anithing la. not even wad i realli feel. hahas. k la. that's it. F O!
Thursday, November 29, 2007
proof of existence
seems that being unable to run for the stand chart marathon really affected me alot. firz of all, i dun even noe why i was pulled out. perhaps the pc interview led to the decision of captain edward to pull me out. but hey! i juz mentioned that my knee sometimes hurt. well, for the training though, most of the time it seriously hurt and led to fall outs. but hey! wad were all those trainin for siah. not able to run, juz doesn't seem right. not fair? i dun even noe why i was pulled out. when i was pulled out. why i did all those training. no reason, not at all. i always thot this stand chart wld mean a hell lot to me. a chance to show myself that hey, i can do something. i can actually run 42km. well, if not run, at least walk, jog, run. but now, all that's gone! nxt year? wld i even haf the same drive i had when i decided not to pull out from the run when i had a chance to where captain edward asked us to write a 500 word essay if we wanna pull out. i doubt so. somemore, nxt yr, who noes wad's gonna happen to me. i'm startin to lose motivation in life. things have been going wrong, not the way i want i guess. trying to pull myself up. but hey! stop pushing me down! get it!? hell no! darn!
wad i've been tryin to do, seems to get me no results. the consequences, are juz dire. not the way i want it to be. you were all that i thot was meaningful in life, but hell no! i realised, you were but another person that's gonna juz leave a scar in me. it has not happened yet, but i guess it's gonna be soon. at least that's wad my experience's telling me. "trust no one but yourself". how true is that. and how true are you. YOU are but a passerby! i guess?
telling myself not to think too much, but wad the f use is that. no body gives a f damn abt wad u think. they juz carry on with their own world, carry on to do things that cld result in gd things for them. hell! wad the f do they think they're doing. and what the f am i doing, with the thot that hey! i'm doing this for you, so that u wld be happy! but guess wad? all these, at the expense of my own f happiness. then suddenly i realised, i might not be ur happiness. as least not the best for you. perhaps i do not deserve you. only the things i did made it seem like i deserve to haf u in my life. but hey! others can do that i guess? mebbe we're juz passerbys in each other's life.
I'M THINKING TOO MUCH! but i still wanna think.
i seriously dunno wad is goin on anymore. doin all these things, juz to see u dao-ing me for almost a week. hey! and guess wad? you said u were busy! alrite! fine! as if u're the only one who's BUSY!!! evryone's busy workin, and so BE IT! dammit. when i needed someone to tok to, u juz chose to slp! k fine! perhaps i shldn't be angry with u at all, u're not obliged to listen to me. you're you, i'm me. we were never we. GET IT!? and i guess it never will be! the finger was shown, the gates were open, the path was shown, the rings were thrown. we never were, and never will be, the ones that we thot we wld be.
eh? gettin poetic ain't i? kinda random. but whatever! i guess i'm juz pissed, depressed. press ctrl+z. undo, return back to square 1. i'm back where i was. whatever that describes, loneliness, anger, sadness. all that that feels dark, but not a single thing that shows me the light. i tend to forget what there is left to remember. and that is why, i chose to forget whatever that was happy. while this sadness is constant. even if i forget, it'll juz come back. we were once there, but all of these are juz memories now. memories of nobody.
argh! f it! juz hope that things will get better. and i guess i'll be workin on lyrics. seems that when i'm back to wad i was, the lyrics juz keep pourin in. guess that'll be wad it shall be for the nxt yr until i ord. till then, F O!
wad i've been tryin to do, seems to get me no results. the consequences, are juz dire. not the way i want it to be. you were all that i thot was meaningful in life, but hell no! i realised, you were but another person that's gonna juz leave a scar in me. it has not happened yet, but i guess it's gonna be soon. at least that's wad my experience's telling me. "trust no one but yourself". how true is that. and how true are you. YOU are but a passerby! i guess?
telling myself not to think too much, but wad the f use is that. no body gives a f damn abt wad u think. they juz carry on with their own world, carry on to do things that cld result in gd things for them. hell! wad the f do they think they're doing. and what the f am i doing, with the thot that hey! i'm doing this for you, so that u wld be happy! but guess wad? all these, at the expense of my own f happiness. then suddenly i realised, i might not be ur happiness. as least not the best for you. perhaps i do not deserve you. only the things i did made it seem like i deserve to haf u in my life. but hey! others can do that i guess? mebbe we're juz passerbys in each other's life.
I'M THINKING TOO MUCH! but i still wanna think.
i seriously dunno wad is goin on anymore. doin all these things, juz to see u dao-ing me for almost a week. hey! and guess wad? you said u were busy! alrite! fine! as if u're the only one who's BUSY!!! evryone's busy workin, and so BE IT! dammit. when i needed someone to tok to, u juz chose to slp! k fine! perhaps i shldn't be angry with u at all, u're not obliged to listen to me. you're you, i'm me. we were never we. GET IT!? and i guess it never will be! the finger was shown, the gates were open, the path was shown, the rings were thrown. we never were, and never will be, the ones that we thot we wld be.
eh? gettin poetic ain't i? kinda random. but whatever! i guess i'm juz pissed, depressed. press ctrl+z. undo, return back to square 1. i'm back where i was. whatever that describes, loneliness, anger, sadness. all that that feels dark, but not a single thing that shows me the light. i tend to forget what there is left to remember. and that is why, i chose to forget whatever that was happy. while this sadness is constant. even if i forget, it'll juz come back. we were once there, but all of these are juz memories now. memories of nobody.
argh! f it! juz hope that things will get better. and i guess i'll be workin on lyrics. seems that when i'm back to wad i was, the lyrics juz keep pourin in. guess that'll be wad it shall be for the nxt yr until i ord. till then, F O!
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