haiz

valetine's coming in approximately 1 wk's time..haiz..am i happy?mebbe..cuz i noe wad is true sadness..and i'm not to the extent of truly sad yet..so i guess i'm happy..but the other way round is that i'm sad..cuz i noe wad true happiness is..but wad i have now is not that..so mebbe i'm sad..k..optimistic and pessimistic view..and i'm more to the latter one..


aiya..not gonna write the valentine song alr..haha..one wk siah..haha..


tokkin abt valentine's day..stil remember when we were in rv..we wld go west mall one wk b4 to buy presents..haha..like help zhou peng write card..all those stuff..that time..we were a happy bunch..but that's the wk b4 valentine..valentine's day always end up a lonely and sad day for me..2004 was sad..but it made me closer to 6thMarch..that nite i told her so many things..still rmm her telling me to be happy..smilez4eva..but ever since she came back frm her sec3 adventure camp..i guess it became smileznomore..haiz..


heckx..shall not tok abt sad things le..k..this valentine's gonna be lonely again..and i'm sure of it..no miracles or wadsoeva..i dun care abt wad others think abt me..no point..when the one i truly loved misunderstands me..wad others think and misunderstandings of me matters no more to me..i tried to explain to her 2 yrs back..but somehow i failed..and i've actualli waited 2 yrs and realised that..i can't forget her..stupid me..after 2 yrs..i feel like explaining to her again..but wld it be of any use..wld she come back to me?i do not noe..haiz..


no point..some told me..mebbe it is..


u wun noe till u try..most told me..but i'm a pessimistic person..this is an optimistic sentence..


haiz..wad can i do?