haiz

it's subconsciousness that makes me do such things..listening to the same song over again and again..not getting sick of it..singing it even when i'm not listening to it..wad is happening..haiz..is my subconsciousness telling me that i haven forgotten her yet..well..it's not as if i want to..i am forced..forced to say yes to the qsn that went "can we just be frenz?"..wadeva happened 2 yrs back..it's still haunting me..cuz i still have feelings for her..


i've realised i'm missing alot of things..in the past..we can tok for like any wild topic in the world online..but now..i try to tok to her..wrecking my brains to think abt how to tok to her..and ya..sometimes she wld reply alot..but most of the time..it's juz one or two words answer..tell me..how am i supposed to live on like this..to tok to one person u've loved so much b4 and still loving yet she does not even care abt how u feel..ignoring u..i can't blame her for ignoring me..afterall..i wldn't be surprised if she still think it's my fault for the break-up 2 yrs back..of all i did..wadeva i did..that made her think i 2-timer..wondering which part of me made her tot i wld be a 2-timer..


looking at the conversation box now..putting my nick in such a way taht maybe she'll get a hint or something..but nah..she doesn't care and doesn't even seem to care..i doubt an email on 6thmarch wldn't be of any help either..no matter how hard i explained..they say..if she wld have forgiven me..it wld have been 2 yrs back..and not now..since i've alr explained it to her 2 yrs back..


haiz..but i juz think..i shld juz tell her how i feel abt her..even after 2 yrs..that i still have feelings for her..yea..we may have drifted..we may have changed.but i believe the part in u that i've loved so much is still inside u..and the part of me that made u like me still exists in me as well..i believe..yes..ppl change..but some things juz don't..yea..u can say i can't accept the fact..but is it truly that i can't accept the fact?no..i've accepted the fact..but i juz dun want our relationship to end juz becuz of this..becuz of a misunderstanding 2 yrs back..i..haiz..


hiakX..no matter how much i say..i still dun haf confidence..in winning u back..cuz i noe it's almost impossible..and probably a rare case..which implies that it might juz follow a poisson distribution or perhaps a geometric distrubution with probability of 0.001..


i am sure abt my feelings..but will u accept my heart again?or mebbe i have no more heart..cuz u took it 2 yrs back and threw it away..