hatred

ok..firz things firz, i changed my blogskin..why?cuz i dun want my life to be like a movie anymore, cuz it never was..movies always have expected endings, dun they..as for why sephiroth, i guess he's jus one of the characters from ff that i like most..esp his sword..blah!

ok..nxt, 21km..fun run i wld say. came back under 2hrs45mins. controlled my pace so didn't really tire myself out that much, and the thing that kept me running? i guess it was hearing about liverpool's win over boro from soohuey. lols. the fighting spirit that liverpool showed probably kept me running, telling me not to stop no matter how hard it wld be..THANKS LIVERPOOL! and thanks soohuey for livescores!!! LIVERPOOL ROX!!! after the run was lunch at sizzlers..the food was superb! aniwaes, went home..wanted to slp, but saw usa vs esp on tv..so stayed up and watch..as expected, usa won..superb feeling to see them win..somehow, u knew they wld..SO, in the end, i didn't slp at all and continued watchin olympics on tv until closin ceremony!

in the end, it was only a 10 hrs slp. and i woke up without feelin pain at all, guess i realli did control my pace eh?hahas..

now to the title of this post, hatred.

dun ask me why, but i jus hate this world, for its flaws. for the flaws of human beings. it was a beautiful world, until all these stupid ppl did stupid things to make my world plunge into darkness. all becuz of their stupid mistakes.. this world doesn't look as beautiful anymore. stupid humans, destroyin the stupid nature. nothing can stop this anymore. no one can stop this world from the destination it's bound for, that is, destruction. humans are jus destroyin the world they live in. all those crap, i juz can't stand it. hypocrites all around the world. i juz can't stand feeling disgusted by all these flaws. i muz admit, i am a human too, who has flaws. but i chose to tolerate it. jus like i chose to tolerate the flaws of my family and her. these are ppl that i dun hate, cuz they're precious to me. well, i guess i hate myself. afterall, i guess i muz be responsible for some of the things that happened to me in life. but main point is i hate almost evrything. i didn't want to be like this, it's those ppl that made me into this. who cares..

i dunno why, but u're the only one that can make me happy..strange....

NDP IS OVER!!!

finally, the NDP is over..phew..the sweeps were long and draggy..AND STUPID!!!but nvm..it's all over..the waitin for sweeps, the waitin for going back to camp, the waitin for going back home..all over..

well, as soon as i got home, i settled down and slept thru the afternoon..at night watched some games, like community shield and china vs usa..then went back to slp at arnd 1..and wtf, i woke up at 1.30 this afternoon!poof!bball gone..but nvm..slack at home..zz

ya..last week went to get stuff for myself, spending the remainder of my pay for the month of july and guess wad, i still have more than half left..woots!my pay didn't increase but my spending ability went down..nvm..hahas..so got myself a liverpool bag..together with a liv shoe bag at only 72 bucks! wtf..hahas..i ask the guy no discount meh?cuz he said the bag was 72..nxt thing i noe, he took out a shoe bag and said free gift..dude, that was cool!the shoe bag i saw at another shop was 25 bucks man..woots!hahas..

i noe nus is still like 1 yr away but have been thinkin of which clubs to join..mebbe shld juz join a slackin club, but dunno la..go in then c how..tho i've been thinkin alot abt co..those days when i enjoyed myself by playin those drums..those concerts. blah! hahas..but too hectic and sometimes borin ba..dunno..go in then c how..

WTF is that stupid girl singin on tv siah!lols..she sux..hahas..BLAH! so random..