burning

This is what differentiates liverpool fans from other teams, standing behind liverpool even though the results are not going their way. Perhaps its because of going thru tough times together with the team, that's why liverpool fans are so affectionate to the team. Almost cried when dirk kuyt's header didn't go in, could see the disappointment on his face. Felt really affected by it. But once again, like i've always said, you'll never walk alone.

Kenneth was asking if rafa ain't the manager anymore, would i still support liverpool? seriously, i can't see myself supporting any other team other than liverpool. It's not about the manager, its not about the players, its not about glory or anything, its just, the team, the spirit. Going against all odds, the never say die attitude. You'll Never Walk Alone, justice to 96, belief 19. In liverpool, i place my belief, and may God bless liverpool.

And like wad i was told, good things happen when u least expect it, so hopefully, that is true ya. =) You'll Never Walk Alone. Walk on, with hope in your heart.

說謊

林宥嘉-說謊
曲：李雙飛 詞：施人誠 編曲：呂紹淳

是有過幾個不錯對象
說起來并不寂寞孤單
可能我浪盪　讓人家不安
才會結果都陣亡

我沒有什麼陰影魔掌　
你千萬不要放在心上
我又不脆弱　何況那算什麼傷
反正愛情不就都這樣

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
你懂我的　我對你從來就不會假裝
我哪有說謊　請別以為你有多難忘
消失　真的不是我逞強

我好久沒來這間餐廳　
沒想到已經換了裝潢
角落那窗口　聞得到玫瑰花香　
被你一說是有些影響

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
你知道的　我缺點之一就是很健忘
我哪有說謊　是很感謝今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不習慣

我沒有說謊　我何必說謊
愛一個人沒愛到難道就會怎麼樣
別說我說謊　人生已經如此的艱難
有些事情就不要拆穿

我沒有說謊　是愛情說謊
它帶你來　騙我說　可我　沒有可能有希望
我沒有說謊　祝你做個幸福的新娘
我的心事請你全遺忘

less talk

Decided to talk less, to stop telling ppl so much. To once again, stop showing ppl wad i really think on my pub blog. Most of the stuff will go into the private blog. I too, wish to protect myself. Realised i was a happier guy when i didn't open up, for opening up only brought about more misunderstandings than i wished there would be. =)

clearer mind

How long has it been? Since I sat down in deep thought, thinking of the what I have done, from the past till the present. Man, am I glad that I was able to put down my past. The future presents no light, yet, i'm not feeling lost. Its just the feeling you get, that you are able to handle all sorts of troubles/problems coming your way. For that, I probably have grown stronger, as a person, in character, in the willingness to take on problems as they come by. I do not want to escape from anything, for there is no use in running, the problems will just come chasing after you. So the only way, is to confront these problems, in the face, and give it a good bash-up.

Flaws? Perhaps, its still my inability to control my temper, letting my temper flow as if its that kfc at jurong east during secondary school days, ie, free flow. Somehow, the wall just crumbles when I'm tired, and troubled emotionally. Taking it out on others, who were just commenting as anyone would haf done so. For that, I have to apologise to zaiyi.

There are some points in life where you just wish to be alone. There are some times in life, when u think, hmmm, what's wrong with being single. Other times, you just yearn to have someone by your side. But, for now, I can only say, all I want, is to have friends around me. Given a chance, of cuz I would like to get back into those days when there will always be something to wake up to, the smile. But that, I have long forgotten the feeling, for it is the past, no matter how sweet it ever was, it is not to be anymore. This is all about putting down the past, learning from mistakes and making sure that they're not to be done again.

idealist vs realist? hah. realist? It is but the weakness of humans who keep saying that life brings nothing good for them, yet they do nothing to make their lives better, let alone making others' lives better. Simply put, selfish people who love only themselves. These are the people who keep saying, to love others, they have to learn to love themselves first, but eventually end up loving no one but themselves. Ok, maybe i'm stereotyping ppl, yeah, but these are just what some people are like.

Then, it comes to the idealist, ppl who believe that there is goodness in ppl's hearts. Foruntuately, or perhaps unfortunately, i belong to this category. Believing that if everyone tries to do their best, be it a little, or alot, eventually, there'll still come a time when everyone is happy with the state they're in. It might not be achievable, but at least its worth trying. Instead of being selfish the whole life, why not just care more about the people around us, not just the people we like, people we love, family, but everyone, who deserves to be loved. For humans deserve it, and the best, its reserved for the ones that deserve it most.

Equilibrium, a state hard to achieve, but what's wrong in trying to work hard for that. There is no right or wrong. It is only whether you are willing to do anything to make everyone's lives better.

At the same time, I've also realised, i've been letting my emotions get affected by people i care for. Perhaps, its time, to stop caring so much for people. To let the care stop at a certain level, to limit what I do for others. Everything needs a limit. Once that limit is broken, everything goes haywire. Out of control. It is time, to care less, to spend my time on other stuff, on things that will bear fruit once i try hard enough. Less play, more work. I just can't wait to get started on school stuff.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
James 1:2-4

Yan sent me this, how true, and how wise these words are. The difficulties in life only make us stronger, for if we can persevere, then we shall get pass these difficulties as stronger men, for then, would we have known how to deal with such difficulties if the do arise once more.

Yeah, so was in malaysia for the past 3 days, laughter and tears, that's how I would summarise the trip. Laughter for it was a joyous occasion, the marriage of my sister. Tears for the sadness that came about when I saw how old and weak my grandma has become. For 3 years, I've not went back to penang, to visit my relatives. And well, people do change fast, and 3 years have been indeed a long time for things to happen. People grow old, people grow weak, hearts may grow stronger, but at last, it is something that we must learn to let go at times. For no one can be there forever, and eventually everyone has to return to their resting place. It is at times like this that I couldn't forgive myself for not being able to let my grandparents see me grow up. Being jealous of how people could live with their grandparents.

ah well, i'm tired, shall blog more about the emo stuff when I dun feel that tired.

And yeah, it has been long since I had lunch with her, and i'm glad we're still friends, after all that has happened. And I'm happy too, that you've learnt to let go, for there was nothing to hold on to in the first place.

After that, went to meet up with yi yan to pick up my rock band from her house. Cui, got lost, when I was trying to get to parkway parade from ecp. Ended up at bedok reservoir road. hahaha, cui. Then picked her up at parkway parade, parents not home yet, so we decided to go to library. AND~ we found ourselves in changi area. HAHA. cui, someone was so confident when i asked her if she was sure. "I'm sure that its this way" attitude. hahaha. Cui, then yea, so made our way back to jurong east, slowly, haha. Then yeah, borrowed some books, 2 more tolkien books to read! =D and jane eyre by charlotte bronte thanks to yan's recommendations. hahaha. So after that went back to her place to wait for her mom to come back.

and yeah, now i'm back home, reading "Children of hurin" by tolkien! =D super nice. hahah. ok, shall continue reading then..

I have so much to say, but so little time to blog. =.=, shall blog more when i come back from penang. To cut the long story short, thank you yiyan for letting us enjoy a wonderful countdown cum steamboat @ your place. Really enjoyed it, and you're a very safe driver, hahaha, no worries! =D just drive like you always do and everything will be fine. Just, rest more k? hahaha. @qitong, glad you liked the surprises. hahaha, must take care of the z monster k? =))

Although the whole year was full of up and downs, it ended on a high, and i'm glad and happy. One of the best countdowns I ever had. =)) although not really a countdown. hahaha. okies, and YAN! let's sing more nxt time. hahaha. ur singing rocks! XD, really, u sing very well..hahaha

There was one thing though, that I'm still unable to let go of the chocolate thingy, but i'll try my best, really.

Thank you everyone who had helped made 2009 an enjoyable year for me, and I hope you all can continue to bless me with your kindness and happiness, for I feel fortunate to have friends such as you all. And a wonderful family too. May 2010 be a great year ahead for all of us too. Thank you! Goodbye! cya all on 4th JAN!!! =)