Saturday, June 21, 2008
hmmm
ha, i saw her fren at lot 1 this afternoon when i was jus walking aimlessly there in my no.4..when i saw her fren, the only thing that i tot of was..hmmm..mebbe she's here oso..AND!!!knn!!!MY BRO IS SLPING ON MY BED RIGHT NOW!!!ok..nvm..he rolled on onto the floor alr..lol..aniwaes..continuing..the moment the possiblity of her being there oso realli stunned me..i realli dunno wad to say to her if i really saw her..cuz seriously, we haf not talked to each other ever since we broke up..and the last time i saw her was..i think j1, when i wld occasionally see her on the mrt..but we nvr realli talked..except sayin hi..but yea, hell was i surprised to see her fren there..even though a part of me was realli nervous as to wad i wld do i, the other part was hoping to see her..haiz..i guess that's all..match starting..so that's it..and if u're reading this..pls go read my previous post..
Monday, June 16, 2008
what if
now the question comes back again..was stunned when this fren of mine whom i nvr tokked to for a long time asked me these qsns..
what if, u can live any second/minute/hour/day/week/month/yr of ur life again, countless times, as long as u want it?
or ur whole life?
well, i was basically stunned..i knew the answers, but i didn't tell her..since she oso dunno alot of things abt my life, so i guess there was no point answering her..
well, so i answering it here..lols..so here it goes..i'll start from second..
the second..hmmm..i guess it's the moment i looked at her in the eyes, it's the kind of moment when u can sense the love u haf for each other..but that was rather long ago..hmmm..still can rmm even after 4 yrs ba..
well, for the minute..it's the minute, when she agreed to be together with me..though it was only for a month, i noe i was happy..that minute, i guess, was the best minute in my life..
the hour, of cuz it's the hour when i confessed to her and she took like an hour to reply..we knew the answer already..jus that she was stuck at her grandma's hse..and somehow the internet connection sux and in the end had to settle it thru sms..and that, was really sweet..can see how nervous she was although it was jus a msg..the moment when she msged and said..wad u think leh?the moment i confessed to her, was rather funny actually..cuz we alr knew wad was in each other's minds..but i guess we rushed it abit too fast..end up, we rushed into the relationship without really knowing that much abt each other..without me sure abt the feelings i have for her..only to realise in the end when we were about to break up, that i love her, more than i loved the first..it was then that i realised..i dun love the firz anymore, the only one i loved during that period of time, was just her, and my mom, dad, and siblings..but she jus had to misunderstand me b4 i cld actually tell her how much i love her..all was too late..hmmm..guess i wandered a bit too far from the "hour"
well, movin on, the day..of cuz it's 6thMarch2004..the only date in my life other than my bday, her bday, my family members' bday that wld matter so much to me in my life that up to this date i still can't forget abt it..that i even wrote a song abt it.. can go www.fallenreasonsongs.blogspot.com if u wanna look at the lyrics..lols..that day, when the hour, the minute is all in the same day..i jus wanna live it all over again..
the month..hmmm..i'll be greedy abit and make it 2 months..and it'll start from 7thFeb to 7thApr2004..why?firz of all..it includes the day, hour, minute and second..secondly, 7thFeb..when i firz knew she existed..yes, i've seen her alot of times..but didn't really took notice of her..that day..i knew how fun a person she was..alot of things happened that night..became her papa..lols..msged her alot..lols..jus happy..cuz that time..my relationship with the firz was already going down the hill..i shld haf known, but i chose to ignore it..until 14thFeb when evrything i thot wld happen really did happen..basically all bad stuff..all was going fine except for the fact that i didn't c my firz the whole day, didn't talk to her the whole day..and it was valentine's day..at 11pm that night, when i tot i cld slp..an email came from her..i was happy, afterall, didn't talk the whole day..and guess wad, it wasn't realli an email that cld make me happy..it made me cry..and the firz person i told, was my second..within that 7 days..i told her so much that evrything that happened between me and my firz for the past 3 yrs..she knew it all..and she was there to talk to me..and thruout the month, all the way until that day..it was basically picking myself up, healing my wounds by talking to her..then i realised she can make me happy and that the feelings were mutual, not jus one sided..so i told her on that day..that one month of dating that followed..very few things happened but was still happy..until she broke up ba..
well, for the yr, there was nvr a single yr that i was happy thruout..so i guess i'll jus make it 2004, cuz basically..it was the yr alot of happy things happened..but oso the saddest things in my life oso happened this yr..but was meaningful for me..and that yr..after the breakup, it was jus endless regrets and sadness..
as for the lifetime..i wld rather not live it again..but if i can change one thing, i will nvr let u leave me..nvr, ever..cuz after 4 yrs..i still love u..
i'm not emo, jus that the qsns made me think alot..and made me decide to write all this down on the blog..
what if, u can live any second/minute/hour/day/week/month/yr of ur life again, countless times, as long as u want it?
or ur whole life?
well, i was basically stunned..i knew the answers, but i didn't tell her..since she oso dunno alot of things abt my life, so i guess there was no point answering her..
well, so i answering it here..lols..so here it goes..i'll start from second..
the second..hmmm..i guess it's the moment i looked at her in the eyes, it's the kind of moment when u can sense the love u haf for each other..but that was rather long ago..hmmm..still can rmm even after 4 yrs ba..
well, for the minute..it's the minute, when she agreed to be together with me..though it was only for a month, i noe i was happy..that minute, i guess, was the best minute in my life..
the hour, of cuz it's the hour when i confessed to her and she took like an hour to reply..we knew the answer already..jus that she was stuck at her grandma's hse..and somehow the internet connection sux and in the end had to settle it thru sms..and that, was really sweet..can see how nervous she was although it was jus a msg..the moment when she msged and said..wad u think leh?the moment i confessed to her, was rather funny actually..cuz we alr knew wad was in each other's minds..but i guess we rushed it abit too fast..end up, we rushed into the relationship without really knowing that much abt each other..without me sure abt the feelings i have for her..only to realise in the end when we were about to break up, that i love her, more than i loved the first..it was then that i realised..i dun love the firz anymore, the only one i loved during that period of time, was just her, and my mom, dad, and siblings..but she jus had to misunderstand me b4 i cld actually tell her how much i love her..all was too late..hmmm..guess i wandered a bit too far from the "hour"
well, movin on, the day..of cuz it's 6thMarch2004..the only date in my life other than my bday, her bday, my family members' bday that wld matter so much to me in my life that up to this date i still can't forget abt it..that i even wrote a song abt it.. can go www.fallenreasonsongs.blogspot.com if u wanna look at the lyrics..lols..that day, when the hour, the minute is all in the same day..i jus wanna live it all over again..
the month..hmmm..i'll be greedy abit and make it 2 months..and it'll start from 7thFeb to 7thApr2004..why?firz of all..it includes the day, hour, minute and second..secondly, 7thFeb..when i firz knew she existed..yes, i've seen her alot of times..but didn't really took notice of her..that day..i knew how fun a person she was..alot of things happened that night..became her papa..lols..msged her alot..lols..jus happy..cuz that time..my relationship with the firz was already going down the hill..i shld haf known, but i chose to ignore it..until 14thFeb when evrything i thot wld happen really did happen..basically all bad stuff..all was going fine except for the fact that i didn't c my firz the whole day, didn't talk to her the whole day..and it was valentine's day..at 11pm that night, when i tot i cld slp..an email came from her..i was happy, afterall, didn't talk the whole day..and guess wad, it wasn't realli an email that cld make me happy..it made me cry..and the firz person i told, was my second..within that 7 days..i told her so much that evrything that happened between me and my firz for the past 3 yrs..she knew it all..and she was there to talk to me..and thruout the month, all the way until that day..it was basically picking myself up, healing my wounds by talking to her..then i realised she can make me happy and that the feelings were mutual, not jus one sided..so i told her on that day..that one month of dating that followed..very few things happened but was still happy..until she broke up ba..
well, for the yr, there was nvr a single yr that i was happy thruout..so i guess i'll jus make it 2004, cuz basically..it was the yr alot of happy things happened..but oso the saddest things in my life oso happened this yr..but was meaningful for me..and that yr..after the breakup, it was jus endless regrets and sadness..
as for the lifetime..i wld rather not live it again..but if i can change one thing, i will nvr let u leave me..nvr, ever..cuz after 4 yrs..i still love u..
i'm not emo, jus that the qsns made me think alot..and made me decide to write all this down on the blog..
Friday, June 13, 2008
why
Why - Ayaka
Lyrics
hitomi no oku ga boyake te mie nai
kokoro no soko no kimochi wa aru no ?
sekai no subete wo te ni shi ta toshite mo
sore ga anata no shiawase na no ?
Why kodoku na sora wo miageru no ?
Why waratte mise te yo
kotoba ni suru no ga heta na
anata no seikaku wakaru kara
tooi mukashi ni nani ga atta no ?
shisen wo sorasu anata no hitomi ni
hitori de samishii yoru ni dakishime rareru
sonna atataka sa shitteru ?
Why doushite katachi ni kodawaru no ?
Why kokoro wo hirai teo
okina nimotsu wo seotta
anata wo ukeire rareru chikara
aru wa shinji te mi te ?
Ohh..Yeaahh
jiyuu na hito wa bukiyou de ?
jiyuu na hito wa fuan de ?
Why kodoku na sora wo miageru no ?
Why waratte mise te yo
kotoba ni suru no ga heta na
anata no seikaku wakaru kara
shinji te mi te
Translations
Your inner eye has clouded over so much that it’s impossible for you to see.
Does any emotion still reside within the depths of your heart?
Having the entire world at your fingertips,
Is that what you consider happiness?
Why? Why do look up into the lonely heavens?
Why? Can’t you laugh a little?
I understand this character of yours –
This disposition that is incapable of putting anything into words.
What was it that came to be in your sequestered past?
These eyes of yours, they refuse to meet the world.
All alone with only the lonely night to cradle you,
Is this the warmth that you have come to know?
Why? Why are you so concerned with the way you look?
Why? Can you not open up your heart a little?
You’ve been taxed by this heavy burden for so long,
It’s time that you learn to accept yourself.
Have more faith in yourself...
It is those who are free that are stumbling...
It is those who are free that are insecure...
Why? Why do you look up at the lonely sky?
Why? Can you not laugh, even slightly?
I can appreciate
This reticent character of yours.
You only have to try to believe...
Why...?
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crisis core theme song~ superb! basically it trys to look at zack thru this song..how he wishes for freedom..the loneliness of being a soldier..alot of stuff..nice song la..hahahas..
yest night got pretty drunk, although didn't drink a lot..somemore it was at home so pretty good..hahas..was watching ger vs cro on comp at that time..then on msn..basically was doing alot of stupid stuff with my personal msg..then this morning see..hmmm, might be really true..and i jus kept talking with her..oso dunno y..why?hahas..wadeva la..after 4 yrs le, wad can i do, wad can i say..
Lyrics
hitomi no oku ga boyake te mie nai
kokoro no soko no kimochi wa aru no ?
sekai no subete wo te ni shi ta toshite mo
sore ga anata no shiawase na no ?
Why kodoku na sora wo miageru no ?
Why waratte mise te yo
kotoba ni suru no ga heta na
anata no seikaku wakaru kara
tooi mukashi ni nani ga atta no ?
shisen wo sorasu anata no hitomi ni
hitori de samishii yoru ni dakishime rareru
sonna atataka sa shitteru ?
Why doushite katachi ni kodawaru no ?
Why kokoro wo hirai teo
okina nimotsu wo seotta
anata wo ukeire rareru chikara
aru wa shinji te mi te ?
Ohh..Yeaahh
jiyuu na hito wa bukiyou de ?
jiyuu na hito wa fuan de ?
Why kodoku na sora wo miageru no ?
Why waratte mise te yo
kotoba ni suru no ga heta na
anata no seikaku wakaru kara
shinji te mi te
Translations
Your inner eye has clouded over so much that it’s impossible for you to see.
Does any emotion still reside within the depths of your heart?
Having the entire world at your fingertips,
Is that what you consider happiness?
Why? Why do look up into the lonely heavens?
Why? Can’t you laugh a little?
I understand this character of yours –
This disposition that is incapable of putting anything into words.
What was it that came to be in your sequestered past?
These eyes of yours, they refuse to meet the world.
All alone with only the lonely night to cradle you,
Is this the warmth that you have come to know?
Why? Why are you so concerned with the way you look?
Why? Can you not open up your heart a little?
You’ve been taxed by this heavy burden for so long,
It’s time that you learn to accept yourself.
Have more faith in yourself...
It is those who are free that are stumbling...
It is those who are free that are insecure...
Why? Why do you look up at the lonely sky?
Why? Can you not laugh, even slightly?
I can appreciate
This reticent character of yours.
You only have to try to believe...
Why...?
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crisis core theme song~ superb! basically it trys to look at zack thru this song..how he wishes for freedom..the loneliness of being a soldier..alot of stuff..nice song la..hahahas..
yest night got pretty drunk, although didn't drink a lot..somemore it was at home so pretty good..hahas..was watching ger vs cro on comp at that time..then on msn..basically was doing alot of stupid stuff with my personal msg..then this morning see..hmmm, might be really true..and i jus kept talking with her..oso dunno y..why?hahas..wadeva la..after 4 yrs le, wad can i do, wad can i say..
Monday, June 02, 2008
BLOOD & katana
the main point is..katana..blood is wad comes after! lols!
nah..not bloodthirsty..but mebbe!
hahas..no la..swords are nice ma..seriously..the art of making a katana..pretty interesting..from finding the best metal, to folding it the firz time all the way until it's final fold..the control of the flame, the technique of folding. jap katana jus simply rocks..pretty much better than english swords..now u noe why sephiroth's katana is so strong..XP
hahas..high morale but dunno why..lols!
mebbe a little too high..
yea, kinda dying down liaoz..the main reason why i blogging cuz it's very boring..haiz..
ok..but now i see felicia chin on the tv! XD.. honour and passion..lols
haiya..i jus can't forget..but i guess it's time for me to move on..i'm trying hard already..seriously..4 yrs le..it might seem to anyone that i'm not even trying, but the fact that these 4 yrs i try my best to avoid u, to not talk to u..that's a gd sign that i'm trying very hard le..haiz..wad am i talking abt..
hmmm, wldn't it be nice if this world is void of guns..jus kill using KATANA la!!!XD
jus kiddin..but i becoming a 110% sephiroth fan le..XD
change of song
changed the song..hahas..this song..few lyrics..but nice..well, one of those sad songs again..
those who dislike jay chou, i only got one thing to say..u dun understand music..cuz he's one of few who's very talented in taiwan..
and farking boring..haiz..我为什么还爱妳
nah..not bloodthirsty..but mebbe!
hahas..no la..swords are nice ma..seriously..the art of making a katana..pretty interesting..from finding the best metal, to folding it the firz time all the way until it's final fold..the control of the flame, the technique of folding. jap katana jus simply rocks..pretty much better than english swords..now u noe why sephiroth's katana is so strong..XP
hahas..high morale but dunno why..lols!
mebbe a little too high..
yea, kinda dying down liaoz..the main reason why i blogging cuz it's very boring..haiz..
ok..but now i see felicia chin on the tv! XD.. honour and passion..lols
haiya..i jus can't forget..but i guess it's time for me to move on..i'm trying hard already..seriously..4 yrs le..it might seem to anyone that i'm not even trying, but the fact that these 4 yrs i try my best to avoid u, to not talk to u..that's a gd sign that i'm trying very hard le..haiz..wad am i talking abt..
hmmm, wldn't it be nice if this world is void of guns..jus kill using KATANA la!!!XD
jus kiddin..but i becoming a 110% sephiroth fan le..XD
change of song
changed the song..hahas..this song..few lyrics..but nice..well, one of those sad songs again..
those who dislike jay chou, i only got one thing to say..u dun understand music..cuz he's one of few who's very talented in taiwan..
and farking boring..haiz..我为什么还爱妳
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