sad or happy

i noe i'll be hurt, but i still wanna hold on. so long u're happy, i'm fine with it. even tho i might not be the one happy, but at least i once tried for my own happiness.

ff7 CC

omg, ff7 CC real nice. haven rly finish the game yet. guess i'm halfway thru, but my lvl is enuff to clear the rest of the game tho, if the forums are true. if ppl can beat at lvl 37 with normal materia, i guess my lvl 65 with hp +580% and str +40 wld be enuff to get me thru. but i wanna complete 100% at firz try. haha. and i saw the ending on u tube. wasn't as impressive as i tot it wld be tho. zack juz dies liddat? and a noob cloud juz staggers away with the buster sword. yes, at some point of time u'll feel like crying for zack, cuz afterall as u play thru the game, u'll get attached to zack cuz of his farni character. hmmm, but overall, not a real sad ending. and to those ppl out there who think that there'll be a ff7 remake or sequel to it. sry, i guess it ends here. the thing at the end, to be continued.. on final fantasy VII. it's juz telling you to go play the original game la. that the story is continued on final fantasy VII. not that there's gonna be a remake coming up on ps3. tho there are rumours abt endless crisis on ps3, but up till now, Tokyo Games Show still does not have any latest info on that rumoured ff7 title. seriously i hope it wun end here. that there wld be a remake that actualli links up cc and original ff7. cuz i still dun get it why cloud actualli thot of himself as zack, a firz class soldier. yes, it's the mako energy. but how the heck. and why is cloud so strong in ff7. lols. ok, i'm too into the game le. lol.

aiya, i oso dunno wad to do now. perhaps i tot too much. looking too deep into things. in the end i'm still back at square 1, that is to believe in myself, believe tt i'm the only one who can do this. the only one that can make her happy. and at least thinking liddat, i wun be tt stressed up. omg, pls dun look too much into certain things, dun think too much and evrything wld be juz fine, hopefully.

my goals are becoming much more simpler. perhaps u haf made me into wad i am now. u changed the way i look at life. to live life happy. i wanna be like u, to be happy. and i want u to stay happy. i dun wanna c u sad, i dun wanna c a single emo blog post on ur blog animore. all i want is to see that smile on ur blog, tt's good enuff for me. as long as u're happy. i dun expect u to c how much effort i've put in for u. i want u to find it out urself. if u're not able to c it, then nvm. but at least i hope that u feel that there's someone out there who's constantly trying to make u happy. i will not stop trying. n i promise i'll be there for u, always. even if u do not do the same to u, it's juz wad i wanna do for u.

omg

for a moment, dunno y, my heart juz stopped. felt hot, then suddenly cold again. a sudden surge of happiness, mixed with sadness, blasted with excitement. dunno, suddenly, juz felt so, so, dunno howta describe. surprised? when unexpected things happen, i juz get stunned. hmmm, but i dun wanna put my expectations high. the higher they get, the worse the disappointment wld be if there were to be one. like wad 童嘉蒂 said, 希望越大, 失望就越深, 所以我宁可不要抱有任何希望, 这样至少不会受伤.

well, with that said, though it included some of my own feelings in it. i mean, all of it weren't wad she said. some things added la. so, in conclusion, i guess i shld juz let things go naturally. juz treat it normally, not to haf any expectations, or to tell myself cannot make it. juz let it happen.

nothing much to say

i dunno wad to say, only these words cld describe my feelings then.

看到你, 我竟然忘了怎样呼吸, 甚至忘了怎样跟你说话, 忘了我想要说的一切.

i dunno wad to say, rly dunno. y up till now, still liddat. and only one person can make me feel this way, y? tell me why.

PASSED

i passed my drivin test! firz attempt!! haha. very shiok now, evryday half day. hopefully la. then gd news that my sir gave us off on 21st. haha, at least dunnit rush back to camp on thur nite. happy happy. nearly failed the test tho. cuz i go quarrel with the tester. but the tester gd guy. and i was saying in a jokingly manner too. so no prob la. HAHA!! shiok laaaaaaa. happy happy happy now!

wad happened?

hmm. wad's happening to me? a change of perception perhaps? now to me, i juz wanna live a simple life. that million dollars doesn't seem that impt to me anymore. yes, it's a great goal to look forward to, to work towards. but, i juz want a simple life. dunno y. i guess it has its pros and cons. wad i want now, is juz, to set up a small, simple shop. dunno y. ha. doesn't need to earn much money. juz enuff to support me and my future family. ice cream? not a bad idea. but dunno howta make. can sell anithing. juz wanna spend time with her. i dun want a busy life, i juz want her in my life. fill up the pages, wun u? i hope u will.

argh. doesn't matter. i juz wanna be simple.

perfect irony

wad irony. my instructor kip saying i very careless when i drive, that's y i fail hsp and parking. WTF la. i fail parkin cuz i too careful k? WADEVA! my carelessness in drivin has nothing to do with my failure in parkin. wad the heck la. kip comin down to chck, u call that careless? i call that TOO CAREFUL!!! CAFU!!! ZzZz

sometimes putting in 100% effort doesn't mean u'll get wadeva u want. puttin in too much effort doesn't help either. to me, u're impt, but to u, i might not be. wad i wish, is for us to use the word "we" instead of " u and i". to be part of each other's life. for us to fill each and evry chapter of our life. to share the same story for the rest of our life, till afterlife, if there is.

i can't stop thinking. thinking abt u.