woots

haven been blogging for quite long on this pub one..cuz for the past few weeks had been occupied with too much private stuff coupled with studies. =.=

so shall talk a bit more since today is my relac day. =D

past few weeks had been dealing with stuff in the past, things that i really shouldn't get involved in. But as a fren, u just can't leave everything alone when u feel that you can help out. hmmm. talk more in private..not here ba.. haha

then kept going back to sch to study. efficiency so much more higher there than studying at home. Of cuz there're sometimes stuff that make u can't concentrate as much, like fb-ing, talking cock. but that's part and parcel of life. And all these dun make you that stressed anymore. =D I'm glad I have these ppl around me, making studies seem so much more interesting. Andrew, jason, zaiyi, tan li, chubbs, geraldine, yiyan, rachel, jenni.

then had physics paper today. I probably got owned..didn't noe how to do most of the qsns in part 2 except for the thermo dynamics. nvm, its over. Shall not think about it. =D relac relac for tonite then chiong tml and monday lo. =D

after physics was supposed to go to this party..but was too demoralised. =.= and got scolded saying i pang seh..haiz

If i was given a wish that would definitely be granted, I would wish that I am the one that can make you happy. But, there are no genies in this world.

It helps when you have nothing to fall back on, because of this fact, you know you can't let urself down, you noe you have to keep jumping. But, at least i have my frens around.

小丑魚

Nice song, and this time round, it really depicted my feelings. And i'm surprised, that somehow still knows how I feel so well. hmmm, o wells. ya, details? Maybe in private? hahaha

小丑魚

我在你身边游来游去
我不敢出声看着他亲吻你
眼不能闭

看你的唇印还在那里
你隔着玻璃所以听不见
我在叹息

说不出口的秘密
永远活在小小的世界里
仅存一点稀薄的氧气
是否够我继续撑下去

这件脱不下来的外衣
还是你喜欢的橘
我不能确定
是否你曾经注意
我的眼泪流在透明的水里

lady lady one more try
再试着了解我的爱
发不出声音的感慨
选择作朋友的无奈

lady lady one more try
提醒我何时该走开
只要你偶尔想起来
我就住在那片海

等我转过身看你眼神
才知道自己想得太过天真
伤得太深

爱来的时候划破沉闷
我早该知道你终究不是我
该爱的人

黑暗中两眼无神
夜里不再为我开盏灯
始终不敢将爱说出口
当然没有资格去竞争

恋爱和失恋同时发生
怪自己枉费青春
我输得彻底把脸深埋在水里面
却还要演好这一场戏

lady lady one more try
再试着了解我的爱
发不出声音的感慨
选择作朋友的无奈

lady lady one more try
提醒我何时该走开
只要你偶尔想起来
我就住在那片海

那片海眼看就要让我愈来愈远回不来
从此你的不愉快那么遥远谁听你埋怨
再说一遍说一遍 ya...
我在你身边给你一点点愉快就
会心甘情愿回到大海

lady lady one more try
再试着了解我的爱
发不出声音的感慨
选择作朋友的无奈

lady lady one more try
提醒我何时该走开
只要你偶尔想起来
我就住在那片海那片海

interesting

woah woah. Today was a very tiring day. Woke up then realised how pain my back, groin and thigh were. Nvm, since already promised to play bball. Just went to play. The pain in the legs were probably due to soccer yest. The nice goal i scored. hehe. The more i think about it, the more i thought, how the hell did i do it. Scoring from right side, so tight angle, clipped the top right hand post and went in. WOots! was that me? or was i possessed by some soccer spirit. HAHA. and that was probably when i overstretched my muscles. Cuz was running so hard just to get to the ball.

O wells, aniwaes, bball was fun. 3v2 i was always in the 3 ppl team. haha. Got melvin, yichao, ying cong and this 30+ guy who used to live in yew tee. HAHA. the uncle damn pro can. tall and skillful, i had no chance against him. hahaha. And after that, he was telling us about things in life. LOL. like the kind of pc talk we used to have during army days. And ya, he was a regular officer. =X ok la, then he was telling us how we should concentrate on our strengths. Know what you do best, and just concentrate on that. I did ok? haha, i know my strengths. My strength being able to utilise my short bursts of stamina when playing sports. Sudden acceleration. But thing is, my stamina doesn't last very long anymore. Last time all the training in army gone to waste. Now you ask me run 10km again, i will probably run 5, jog 3, walk 2. HAHA. Good thing about my short bursts of speed is that i can recover that stamina pretty fast. =D But i also realised how tiring it is to my legs ba. The reason behind my injuries. =X

ok, then he was telling us about his experiences in life. And it made me think about alot of things. What we want in life? hmmm, i wonder. And the second qsn he asked us. Have you ever thought of setting up a family? hmmm, i wonder. First question, what i want in life. O wells, i've always said that all i want to do is to satisfy my needs in life. But, that's not wad life is about. If i just do enuff to satisfy my needs, i'll never be able to achieve anything. We fight for our beliefs. We fight for what we want. Second question. Yes, i've thought about it. But it doesn't really matter now. Not yet. Its not a question that i should tie myself down with for now.

And one thing he said was so true. And its what i've been trying to do. That is, to think about what you want to do once u graduate while u still have free time in uni. Once you get out there, there's too little time for you to think about anything else. U'll be trapped in the vortex of work, competition and office politics. Be my own boss. I have my fate in my own hands. I'll do what I like to do. OK! so, i'll hafta think of some business ideas after the exams. XD

seriously, tiime to pick up the pace

I seriously think its time to pick up the pace. Is one chapter per day enough? I seriously doubt so. Moreover, this one chapter per day thing is only grasping the concepts and not really practicing.

Enough of gaming, yuan ing. Leave those games till after EXAMS! hahaha, shit. But..winning eleven is so fun. Back to its best. At least for me, the challenge is there. The want to come back from behind to win. =) The computer is no longer letting in goals at like 10-0? Played one game today against barca 5-star level. Woots! damn fun. hahaha, they came back from 2-0 to 2-3 then managed to score 2 last min goals. =D and the players are so realistic!

SHIT! NO! no more games!!!hahaha, time to disconnect my ps3. After this weekend. HAHAHA

Life's been pretty good to me so far. Learning to look at things in an optimistic way. I really dun wanna go back to those emo days le. No, that's y, nvm. Details, in private.

HAHA. back to PLAY!

life

today, celebrated jansen's bday and jenny's. Felt really bad, when they did that to jenny! hahaha, though in the end she was very happy and surprised. But you could see how she was holding back her tears when we were celebrating for jansen ba. hahaha, nvm. Wad a great surprise it was for them! hahaha

o wells, then before that, met up with some guy. Talked a bit, realised some stuff, but nothing really changed. HAHA! nvm, details, in private.

then also went to jp before the surprise to get the cake. =.= LOL, and someone was so blurr. =.= can't believe how requiem can forget about asking where's bengawan solo is after getting the food. LOL! damn blur can? hahaha. And ya, its pretty exciting to plan surprises! =D hahaha

o wells, tml sit-in. SHIT! haven had time to do anything real productive. And i'm feeling kinda lazy now. Guess tml i'll do it in sch ba. Got the whole day afterall. HAHA

tiring

世界末日

词曲:周杰伦

想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头承认自己会怕黑
我只求能借一点的时间来陪
你却连同情都不给

想哭来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界好像只有我疲惫
无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰会不会让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑梦违背难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁也许事与愿违

累不累睡不睡单影无人相依偎
夜越黑梦违背有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁或许颓废也是一种美

this song always had a special meaning in my life, ever since the first time I hear it. Somehow, when I emo, this song will always start looping itself in my mind. Life might just come to a stop when all the studies end. Will suddenly haf nothing to occupy my life with, then i might go crazy ba. haha, but then, there's still gaming, i guess.

And i was trying to highlight the words that meant something, then somehow, almost the whole song applied to my life. HAHA. ok, this, is truly, a song that is significant to me ba. No matter where I go, it'll be a song that follow me, through my life's up and downs.

Kinda getting used to it, this kind of feeling. I'm just content with this state ba.

Though i'm kinda tired, but, somehow, there's something that makes me want to move on. Studies?Games?Music? The want to do something significant in my life. I guess, humans need a want in their life to keep them moving on. And i'm still human, after all. I'll die one day, but what I do in life is proof that i've lived before, and i'll make it significant. Make my life significant. That, I promise myself.