After so long, you still leave me thinking that the choice we made was probably the best for both of us. It was you who tried to end it, it wasn't me. Letting go was my only option back then, and I'm just so glad that I did let go. When now you're the one trying to cling on to something that's of the past, I can just happily look you in the eye and say, "girl, its over already, there's no turning back."
I used to think it would never end. Our dreams, what we wanted for ourselves back then, when things didn't matter. When we just thought the world is perfect as long as we were together. Now, that is over. There are a lot of things that keep me away from you, that made it so that the thought of us being together again never ever crossed my mind. But there's just one thing, or rather one person in my mind right now that's keeping me away from all these. I didn't even want to show up, I didn't even want to go comfort you. As if I already knew what you would do, what you would say. But I still went, for I looked upon you as if you are my sister. For me, its more of doing something good for you after you have done so many things to hurt me in the past. The chinese saying of yi de bao yuan, I guess that's what I would use to describe why I'm doing these things for you.
No matter, I'm not gonna dwell on all those past ramblings. When drinking milk and talking stuff at night used to be my favourite past-time, it no longer is anymore. It just does not feel right with you anymore. And I only wished that the person I sent home just now was not you, but someone else instead. Perhaps its heaven playing a joke on me. So many times that such "accidents" had happened, that made it impossible for me to go back with her. So many times, that its made it impossible for me to give her a present that's overdue by almost 2 months. SO, I hope you get my point.
Argh, could I be more obvious.
