the difference

been looking at alot of other ppl's blogs lately, and somehow, u can see when the person who is blogging is happy. it's shown in the blog, the way he/she types, the way he/she looks at life. shld i be glad, or shld i not. glad that she has found the way she wanted to live, or not glad that i can't even be part of her life. i'm not sad, juz not happy.

give up, i've done that. but i'm still trying hard to forget, and i guess that's the hardest part of this. put an end to this 3 yr loneliness, at least, forget about her, forget that u even once loved her, which i personally think i still do. u noe it when it's still there. ppl might tell u no it's not, but u're not me, so u wun noe how true i think this is.

dun like a sad song, cuz u noe u're happy when u're listening to it. ridiculous, how can u be happy when u listen to a song that's supposed to be sad. u're juz plainly insulting the song. like it, becuz it brings about a same sense of unhappiness, a sense of loss in u, when u hear the song. do not insult a sad song. coral sea is a sad song, if u think it's a happy song, u can jolly well go touch up on ur own feelings, cuz it's a little bit messed up.

random thoughts?nah, juz some things that i've thot about for a very very long time. and if she's realli together with him, i only got one song for them, wang2 ba1 dan4..to think that i tot u were a good fren and told u all abt me and my feelings for her. i feel cheated for 3 yrs, even if it didn't started 3 yrs ago.

say, i can't accept it, wadeva, so wad..i'm a sore loser, mebbe?but i'm getting over it, and seriously, i hope this is the last time i blog abt her le..

going to change blogskin, get out of this angel look, cuz wad i want is a devil. angel wings, nah, i look forward to devil wings.

POP

Pass out from bmt le, and many ppl are going in now. good luck to them. nothing much to talk about pop..the happiness of pop has somehow died down, cuz this block leave is somehow filled with boredom..

somethings are better left unknown. and i finally know why. i shldn't even have bothered to go look at her blog, to find things that i dun wanna see and know. some things are gone, but the pain lingers. it's too late to turn back and i noe it myself, 3 yrs, too much have happened..she's no longer the same person, but i'm still here. time to move on..i muz learn and indeed, it'll be hard, but i have to perservere, even without her.

and i've also ran out of ideas for songs, somehow..for dunno how many months, i've not written any songs..mebbe this block leave i'll come up with a few more..and i've never really started on the rap i wanted to write..songs, i'll make it my life.

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finally can blog le..am i happy now?no

seriously..wad can i be happy about..my abb?below my expectations..seriously..haiz..

but haiz..the main pt is still 6thMarch..coming soon..again..the third yr without her..shld i make a move..or shld i juz gif up this yr again..i realli dunno..yes, i love her..but i'm juz scared of her not tokking to me animore..