k..this is the third time i'm editing this firz para..perhaps it's that many thots that are running thru my mind..guess i'm juz too tired from pw stuff and work..making my thots run wild and my sub-consciousness confusing me for one day..that is, yesterday..so now..back to normal thots..haha..an eye candy is an eye candy..juz for ur eyes to look..not for ur heart to taste..so can't take it seriously..the christmas bells are still ringing i guess..ha..
and depression is setting in..perhaps i'm thinking too much..when one looks back on his past and sees that he's feeling sad abt the same old freakin' things again and again..he'll juz scold that f word and point the finger that is directly in the middle and say :"sad life.."..if u can't help it but keep on making the same mistakes i guess it'll juz carry on foreva..making the same mistakes again and again..putting in effort for evrything doesn't necessary pay off..perhaps i shld save a replay or something to prove it??wtf..
the more effort u put in..the more u fall when u have failed..perhaps i shld juz dun put effort into anithing at all..mebbe if i dun put in effort at all i mite juz live a better life..and i tell myself :"ya..like real.."..so it's like..evrytime i tell myself that..wadeva..juz put in effort and one day it mite juz pay off..perhaps..that one day will nv come..or it mite..but wadeva..i guess i'll juz live life like it is now..making the same old mistakes again and again..mistakes that will break my heart..mistakes that i noe i'm already making yet i still wanna try to make it into a better ending..but seems like it's totally impossible for me..
aniwae..end of this crappy entry..dun even noe why i'm typing this..
1 comment:
yea, sometimes i also feel like this, when i am super busy... and i feel as if i cannot cope with everything..... just pray that all ends well.
Making same mistake could be out of habit.... anyway, just be open and optimistic ;p
tc
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