omg

for a moment, dunno y, my heart juz stopped. felt hot, then suddenly cold again. a sudden surge of happiness, mixed with sadness, blasted with excitement. dunno, suddenly, juz felt so, so, dunno howta describe. surprised? when unexpected things happen, i juz get stunned. hmmm, but i dun wanna put my expectations high. the higher they get, the worse the disappointment wld be if there were to be one. like wad 童嘉蒂 said, 希望越大, 失望就越深, 所以我宁可不要抱有任何希望, 这样至少不会受伤.

well, with that said, though it included some of my own feelings in it. i mean, all of it weren't wad she said. some things added la. so, in conclusion, i guess i shld juz let things go naturally. juz treat it normally, not to haf any expectations, or to tell myself cannot make it. juz let it happen.