ok fine

ok fine..i admit it..so wad..i can't deny the fact that my heart still lies there..u noe..when u still miss someone..the kinda feeling..u can nver get rid of it..but 2 yrs..my feelings have not changed..but i guess ppl do change..we might not be the 2 that were in love back then animore..


did i not persevere..yes i did..i held on to it..but repeated "no"s juz demoralized me..


unable to express my feelings again..nvm..dunnit ppl to understand..afterall, the one who i wish would understand me most failed to do so..


but aniwaes..prelims coming up..no stress?bad sign..but it's still a's that matter..yes..i want ocs but i guess..even without it..it'll juz be something that i'll haf to face in life..losses..


jay album coming out..ya..another distraction..and to think "hu die ji" is a demo..juz comes to say how gd jay is..when a demo can sound better than the real song..


k..if u realised..there's no "lol" in this post..there u go..but that does not mean i'm happy..


i laugh to hide..to hide..is to laugh


my life, my song, my story..


if u realised..all my songs..are not happy..

hhahaha

k..this is my 192th post..moving into 200..LOL..but kinda slowing down on blogging..feelin sick..cuz i realised all sad things..almost all ba..outta 192, i think got 100 posts on sad things?ha..wadeva..well, u're right, this is gonna be a sad post too.


sometimes when i try to sleep, i'll think..when i watch tv i'll oso think..end up, i think too much..


was watching xi guan da shao final episode..hmmm..happy ending eh?but somehow, felt sad within..y?cuz i realised it's but a story..it's not real life..things as such, they dun realli happen in real life. and i realised it's not gonna happen to me la..no matter how much i hope i wish, she wun come back to me..not like shuang xi go back to tian ci liddat..no..cuz that's but a story..


quote from the show " i wish i might, i wish i may"


juz thot it's kinda meaningful..if u get it..


and a quote from myself


life is like a story, it has it's happiness and sadness, just that u have to omit the happy endings


ok..getting emotional..but i shall not tok old stories again..i guess, i juz have to live on..cuz it's not PokIng animore..6thMarch

not mugging?

dunno..seems like i'm not mugging yet..somehow..i noe prelims coming by those calender dates..28th Sept GP..but GP nothing much to study..wad's nxt sub?i oso dunno..no time table..so i dunno where to start..perhaps physics?but i wanna wait for the whole syllabus to finish off b4 i start on anithing..so now, i'm stuck with maths c..f maths, if i'm not wrong..it's after hols..and syllabus still going on..with matrices owning me up-side down..linear spaces..wtf..k..so i'm moving on slowly with maths c topics..not doing any tys yet..cuz muz noe the whole thing b4 can start ma..and guess wad..instead of looking thru muh notes, i'm watching sg idol..and doing some gp aq..argh..I HATE GP..gimme a break..no la..actualli gp is fun..juz that it can get boring when u dun like the topic..


and i'm beginning to miss sec sch life..of all 4 years, i wld say i like sec4 most..and ya..alot happened in that year..happy things, sad things..but i wld say overall it was fun..hanging out at places like "heaven" playing nice games with nice frens..well, perhaps i was juz too busy with things going on in jc..like appealing here and there..so in the end, such frenships kinda died down..only left with occasional dota games at home..haizz..


it's not urself who makes u lose your frenz..it's wadeva that is happening around you..


one thing i noe tho..i dun like being in sa..yes, it's fun when u have frenz with u..but he prob is..u are juz a minority of the school..2 xtremes..super mug or super slack..me, being in the middle, belong no where..i juz wanna mug and slack at my own pace..play as much as i study..


kk..playing..ps2 games seems to be dying down..with my ffx characters all with max stats..like wtf..ff12..after a's then buy..dynasty warriors 5..all characters with lvl4 weapons and shu and wu with full stats for all warriors..so sian le..world cup oso over..play winning eleven oso not that exciting le..haiz..


I WANT MORE GAMES!!!


i swear i'll get all those ff games after a levels..but dunno if can finish playing by ns..hahaha..


i guess i'm gonna love ns..


right now, i'll love to play and study only..anithing more than that?sorry..no more..i realli can't let myself get too committed yea..after a's..i promise..if there still exists this bond..i'll be there..always..;)