i seem to be lost. at a loss. even as of now, i do not noe or even not sure wad i'm typing. but i juz feel like putting my feelings down. i haf no idea wad's going on now. seems like ppl are keeping a big secret from me. not ppl inside camp, but rather ppl outside. no matter how much i msg, they juz dun seem to reply. i dun even noe wad i haf done to deserve this kinda daoness. i do not noe. and i wanna noe, cuz i simply care. but i can't, i simply can't (adapted from the simpsons).
i dun even noe wad i'm writin on my note book. lyrics, without any tune in my head. lyrics without a tune is not a song. juz like a body without the soul and heart is not a human. ok, mebbe that's a bad analogy. i dunno. i dunno wad i'm thinking. or rather, it's confusing me. i dunno wad's happening. someone tell me. i dunno, i simply dunno.
is it so hard, to get a return for a 100% effort put in? that's the diff between life and games. in games, especially rpg games, u put in 100% effort, u'll definitely get to see results. but in life, that's not the case. at least not always for me. in fact, not at all. i've nvr seen good results for my 100%. wad's the point. i'm tired already. constantly putting in 100% for evrything. pouring my heart out. i'm juz dying, slowly. my feelings, getting numb. i dun feel like tokkin anymore. i'm juz tired. my soul, it's kinda dry. nothing can heal it anymore. evrything is aching. my arms, my leg, my body, my soul. My heart. heal me. nothing can, i guess.
all i see is lameness. i appreciate the efforts ppl put in to try to make me feel better. but sry, i'm kinda numb to those advice. rather i find it not useful at all, cuz it's all the same. sry to those ppl. but ur advice are always like, "cheer up, things might not be as bad as u think". all these dumb things. no use, no use at all. cuz it nvr realli helped. but i still muz thank those who did try. but no effort can heal me anymore. but kinda farni of me. i actualli asked the one who firz broke my heart for advice. but nvm, i kinda got over her actualli. my heart now is juz full of the one who's juz ignoring me now. i, i, i, i dunno wad to say.
i like you. is it that simply so hard to come out of my mouth. or izzit wrong of me to wait for u. i wanted to wait, till u're free and ez, to think of relationship in a more relaxed way. not when u're stressed up. but now, i dunno wad to say. i realli, i'm lost. i'm realli lost.
i dun even noe wad i'm writin on my note book. lyrics, without any tune in my head. lyrics without a tune is not a song. juz like a body without the soul and heart is not a human. ok, mebbe that's a bad analogy. i dunno. i dunno wad i'm thinking. or rather, it's confusing me. i dunno wad's happening. someone tell me. i dunno, i simply dunno.
is it so hard, to get a return for a 100% effort put in? that's the diff between life and games. in games, especially rpg games, u put in 100% effort, u'll definitely get to see results. but in life, that's not the case. at least not always for me. in fact, not at all. i've nvr seen good results for my 100%. wad's the point. i'm tired already. constantly putting in 100% for evrything. pouring my heart out. i'm juz dying, slowly. my feelings, getting numb. i dun feel like tokkin anymore. i'm juz tired. my soul, it's kinda dry. nothing can heal it anymore. evrything is aching. my arms, my leg, my body, my soul. My heart. heal me. nothing can, i guess.
all i see is lameness. i appreciate the efforts ppl put in to try to make me feel better. but sry, i'm kinda numb to those advice. rather i find it not useful at all, cuz it's all the same. sry to those ppl. but ur advice are always like, "cheer up, things might not be as bad as u think". all these dumb things. no use, no use at all. cuz it nvr realli helped. but i still muz thank those who did try. but no effort can heal me anymore. but kinda farni of me. i actualli asked the one who firz broke my heart for advice. but nvm, i kinda got over her actualli. my heart now is juz full of the one who's juz ignoring me now. i, i, i, i dunno wad to say.
i like you. is it that simply so hard to come out of my mouth. or izzit wrong of me to wait for u. i wanted to wait, till u're free and ez, to think of relationship in a more relaxed way. not when u're stressed up. but now, i dunno wad to say. i realli, i'm lost. i'm realli lost.
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