too long

too long haven do the things i like to do le.. writing songs, playing bball..i jus wanna get something done over this wkend..cuz i'm feeling real bored..wanna watch movie oso.. but i seriously feel like writing a song. so many words in my mind, so many feelings to pen down..the best way to do this is to write a song ba.

if u say u regret wad u've done 4 yrs ago, i wld gladly forgive and to be together with u again. but i noe very well that that is so farkin impossible, so i shld jus dream on. dreams are sweet yet they are not real. reality sux.

time of the year

regarding the previous post where i mentioned i'm getting used to be haunted by the past. i guess, i simply mean i'm used to being sad at this time of the year. this particular period where i had enormous emotional changes in like 4 years ago. becoming sad, happy, and then plunged all the way into sadness again. i noe i can't turn back the past. i noe it doesn't matter to u anymore. but to me, it still does. i dunno wad i can do, or rather, i shld say no matter wad i do, it wun help to change the situation. i'm stuck. 4 years ago, i was liddat. 4 years later i'm still the same. i still can't seem to shake it off.

Hebe清唱愛來過

愛來過..and hebe rox niah

爱来过

爱来过

我看不开也放不开
因为我曾见过爱情真的盛开
我要等待一直等待
等那一个夜晚从回忆回来

当你拥抱着我那一瞬间
我像飞到空中
而当我缓缓降落
我不再是我
我有了梦我在梦中

爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠辗过
连遗憾也都不争气的珍惜成笑容

爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放它走
我不想解脱
我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我

寂寞喧哗我不害怕
因为我只听得见对你的牵挂
世界很大会容得下
我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰

你有没有过承诺我已忘了
那已不重要了
反正我都会守候在梦中守候
我最唯一最美的梦

爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠辗过
连遗憾也都不争气的珍惜成笑容

爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放它走
我不想解脱
我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我

如果需要动用奇迹来召唤回你
就让泪蒸发下成雪花
和我一起在爱中被融化

this is one of the songs that seriously make me think abt wad happened in the past. a seriously very long time ago thing. things that i didn't cherish..or rather, put too much heart into. i can't turn back the past, so jus lemme stay in my own world for some time b4 i start moving on again..

if can, the version of the song by hebe shld appear below or above..if not jus go youtube find..

single

hmmm..being single ain't that bad at all manz..hope i'm not jus trying to fool myself this time..but i seriously feel better now, after all that i've been thru for the past 3-4 years..seems that there's nothing left to trouble me now, well, at least not other ppl's troubles..dun hafta worry abt others anymore..dun hafta worry abt what she'll think abt the things i do, cuz no one cares anymore..doing things the way i want, spending time the way i want..spending the money on things that i truly want.. and my NEXT big thing, which has not appeared for a long time in my life..*the last big thing was my PSP..and the last last big thing was my mp3 player..well, the next big thing is gonna be a ps3! w8 for price drop then i go buy le..hahas..afterall, govt gave 100 dollars bonus to ns men..WOOTS! one time pay-off only, how good it wld be if it was evry month..ooo..hahas..manz..ps3 faster drop in price siahs..then i can play the games i wanna play le..currently stuck with vp2 and warriors orochi on ps2..both good games, but too lazy to sit down in front of tv to play, so might as well sit in front of com, listen to music and play dota! hahas..perhaps becuz i play too much on bnet that's y i bring over the attitude i use on bnet to that when i play with my frens at lanshop..in bnet, my attitude is, dun gif anyone any chance, cuz if u do, ur team mates will jus scold u, cuz they dunno u..so i jus go arnd killing, dun care whether it's noob or wad..but when i bring that over to lan, it's diff liao..i kill noob then ppl will say why i feed on noob liaoz..hmmm..hard to balance la, but i've been trying..lols..

hiakx..10 more months to ORD..the more u look at it, the longer it seems to get..so might as well juz dun think abt it..jus book in book out and one fine day..ORD LO!!!hahas..but the duties are killing me liao..nxt sun got duty again..can't take offs on monday siah..cuz this monday got duty oso!kaoz..so many duties, ppl think i tio extra..but that's jus the way it is lo..hahas..

altho i said i feel better alr,but still..the past still haunts me occasionally..that is something i still can't put down..but hecks..i've learnt to live with it..hahas..

wahaha

KOPE SONG from ppl..hahas..damn lame, but farni..


大年初一头一天
家家户户过新年
只有我在做DUTY
我在做DUTY
七个隆咚锵咚锵
我在做DUTY
七个隆咚锵咚锵
等待ORD
~~~~
每条大街小巷
NSF的嘴里
见面第一句话
就是DUTY DUTY
恭喜恭喜恭喜你呀
今年你又中DUTY
DUTY一到尽头
真是好的消息
不用再过多久
你就要ORD
恭喜恭喜恭喜你呀
今年就要ORD

save a piece of my heart for myself. that's wad i did. and all of the other pieces that i gave u, u jus threw them away. BAH! i noe what i muz do now le la. hahas. BYE! and to a fren whom i've nvr tokked to for a long time, if she ever reads this. if u can, juz jolly well go break up with HIM la!!! if he breaks ur heart so much, no point la. kaoz. c u evrytime blog abt him i oso bu shuang him le la..hahas..who says u're not hot and who says u're not a head turner la..hahas..