time of the year

regarding the previous post where i mentioned i'm getting used to be haunted by the past. i guess, i simply mean i'm used to being sad at this time of the year. this particular period where i had enormous emotional changes in like 4 years ago. becoming sad, happy, and then plunged all the way into sadness again. i noe i can't turn back the past. i noe it doesn't matter to u anymore. but to me, it still does. i dunno wad i can do, or rather, i shld say no matter wad i do, it wun help to change the situation. i'm stuck. 4 years ago, i was liddat. 4 years later i'm still the same. i still can't seem to shake it off.