Realisation

Something I realized recently. I've changed, alot. Since what happened on cny eve. No longer do I long to be in a relationship. I'm actually feeling happy with what I have now. Freedom, not having to talk to other girls while feeling being controlled. At least I'm not my room-mate who's controlled by his gf. Every move, every action, every word that comes out of my mouth belongs to me, and no one else. And I'm happy with that. I'm actually happy being single. Not once in the past 23 years did I ever think I would be happy being single. O well, probably didn't have this problem when I was still in primary school, but can't be bothered with remembering since when did I actually feel that I needed someone to be there for me. All this while, my parents were there, my family was there, my friends were there, I failed to see. When all I needed was someone to talk to, when all that I needed was right infront of me, I chose to push them away, looking for that one person, when there were so many people out there who are important to me. So to all the friends I've pushed aside for the past 23 years, I'm sorry. I will treasure everyone in my life from now on. No longer is the one important. Even if I do not find the one, at least the one person that will feel happy from living a life like that would be me. At least, now I can still enjoy talking to people I love talking to. Treasure Friends. Treasure your family.

p.s, hmmm, i shld write something like this on a postcard to send to myself and to remind me of the last 5 words in that paragraph.