idealist vs realist? hah. realist? It is but the weakness of humans who keep saying that life brings nothing good for them, yet they do nothing to make their lives better, let alone making others' lives better. Simply put, selfish people who love only themselves. These are the people who keep saying, to love others, they have to learn to love themselves first, but eventually end up loving no one but themselves. Ok, maybe i'm stereotyping ppl, yeah, but these are just what some people are like.

Then, it comes to the idealist, ppl who believe that there is goodness in ppl's hearts. Foruntuately, or perhaps unfortunately, i belong to this category. Believing that if everyone tries to do their best, be it a little, or alot, eventually, there'll still come a time when everyone is happy with the state they're in. It might not be achievable, but at least its worth trying. Instead of being selfish the whole life, why not just care more about the people around us, not just the people we like, people we love, family, but everyone, who deserves to be loved. For humans deserve it, and the best, its reserved for the ones that deserve it most.

Equilibrium, a state hard to achieve, but what's wrong in trying to work hard for that. There is no right or wrong. It is only whether you are willing to do anything to make everyone's lives better.

At the same time, I've also realised, i've been letting my emotions get affected by people i care for. Perhaps, its time, to stop caring so much for people. To let the care stop at a certain level, to limit what I do for others. Everything needs a limit. Once that limit is broken, everything goes haywire. Out of control. It is time, to care less, to spend my time on other stuff, on things that will bear fruit once i try hard enough. Less play, more work. I just can't wait to get started on school stuff.