Sunday, July 15, 2007

hai

o dear, i'm so tired now. after all the ndp and stuff that has been going thru this week, i'm already physically and mentally exhausted. some stuff, gone. some things, learnt. some things, i'll treasure even more. well, for that, i'll start all the way from wad happened on book out day. wadeva happened on 11th July, i'll add on later. but firz of all, i muz thank mr yeo, for his patience with us, and sry for we've not learnt to treasure him.

well, perhaps to make this entry not as sad as others i've seen, i shall start on a lighter note.

on fri, after a tiring ndp support and 10km run in the morning, which included carrying bread (2 trucks of them), ice (200 packets) and some yeos drinks and new water (when i say some, it's actually like hmmm 100+? 200+? dun realli noe, lost count). but aniwaes, after that, went to marina square walk walk abit then go west mall le. realli didn't feel like going cuz realli tired le. but since i promised jialin i'm going to lend her the vcd, so cannot pang seh ppl lo. go down there, she not ther yet, so juz walk arnd. saw lotsa stuff, cool, interesting? dunno, but suddenly feel like getting a ps3 cuz of the interesting games i saw. went to pop, saw this real nice book that was about cats. small, but quite thick and included lotsa pictures of cats. the thing that it is in cube form. the most amazing thing, it costs 17.90. alrite, then she came, so i gave, too tired, didn't say anithing, say bye, she goes (but one thing i noticed. jialin, u have quite alot of pimples wor, haha, too stressed?). simple. then i went arnd to library and some other places before going home. was real tired le, but still had one last place muz go b4 going home to slp. so i juz went home, put down bag, slack arnd for a while then gone out le.

alrite, a little bit rewind. on july 11, mr yeo, who was my conductor in sajc chinese orchestra, passed away.

ok, back to the earlier part. went down to lakeside, no one there yet. so bought a coffee and drink, my fav mocha. that was my hmmm, third for the day? alrite, then came ignatius. almost didn't recognise him, guess i pon too much co in j1 le. then i saw chengzhi. hmmm, this part i kinda confused, can't realli rmm who i saw firz. and i think i'm breakin this entry into too much detail, but i shall carry on. then saw sinyi. then came, i think marcus, a senior who i duno realli noe, cuz as i've said, pon too much j1. next came lucinda, and as blur as before, she was having a hard time trying to remember all our names. but that was realli funny and rather cute (side track liaoz). k then alot of other ppl came, like weelong, peyling, aaron, shiyan, bernice, etc. i only wrote down those names that i can remember, or rather i noe. this juz shows how much co i've missed in j1.

then went to the wake. the moment i stepped in, suddenly felt a sense of grief, dunno y. juz felt sad. then as the thing goes on, there was this part where someone sang a song written by mr yeo. the lyrics, dunno y, it's kinda sad, but its oso like someone who has seen thru life. i dunno, but at least that's what i think.

then went home, can't slp, mainly becuz of the coffee, and some other stuff i can't stop thinking about.

firz of all, i realised, which i have realised long ago, but now shall comment on it again. life is really full of sudden things, things can juz happen without u expecting it. wad happened to mr yeo was one of it. hearing kenneth saying that 3 wks ago he was still tokking to mr yeo on the phone, and mr yeo said he's better, but yet, 3 wks later, he's juz gone. it realli saddened me. things can juz happen liddat. no expectations of wad's gonna happen. poof, some things are juz gone like taht. treasure things, i muz, and i've learnt that long ago, but it's seriously hard to practice. cuz, i guess it's men's instinct, to take things for granted.

so i've decided, some things muz be said b4 it's too late, cuz u dunno wad's gonna happen nxt. but i dunno when i shld tell, izzit time yet? i dunno. i hope u can tell me. like wad someone has said, mebbe u're juz pretending, that u do not noe how i feel, but i realli dunno. but i dun wanna wait le. but i oso think that it's not time yet. in a dilema (if that's how u spell it)

ok, guess i'll juz stop here, tho i think still got alot of things haven say yet, but i'm too tired now. but i still can't slp, but i can't think as well!!!too much coffee.

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