zettai kareshi

Watched zettai kareshi again on channel u. Reached the part where rikko got confessed by the guy. D: always felt sad for knight. Brings me to a point, that no matter how good you think you can do for the girl you love, no matter how much you're willing to do for her, no matter how much you're willing to sacrifice, what matters most is how she feels. If she doesn't feel a thing for you, no matter what you do, nothing will happen. The heart will hurt so much, she will never know. Life will move on for her, she'll enjoy life with her new-found love, and if you don't move on and wallow in self-pity, it would only leave yourself stagnant in life. That's what's happening now, I'm being stagnant, not knowing where to go, letting other things in life fill my life up, not wanting to think in the direction of falling in love. In a way, I let my heart become stagnant, refusing to "feel" again. In fear that any feelings I tried to inject into my heart again would only make it even more pain. In hope that by not feeling, I will not feel the pain.

Well, there're bigger pains out there than my small little heart ache anyway. Seeing whatever that's happening to Japan, my heart's really breaking alot. Feeling very sad for everyone who were directly or indirectly affected by the Earthquake, Tsunami and radiation outbreak. Triple disaster I would say. Every day, watching news, reading articles about Japan, seeing the death toll increasing as the days go by. Really really, feeling very sad for them. At least its heartwarming to see what the Japanese are willing to do for each other. Really makes you think about what would happen if it actually happened in Singapore. My guess would be people running for their own lives, trampling over injured people. Maybe i'm thinking about the negative extreme part, but really, I just think that Singapore's not equipped mentally to deal with such situations. Not to say that we would be faced with disasters like Earthquake/Tsunami/Radiation, but we shouldn't take things for granted. No matter how much peace there is now, it is still maintained by those who are working hard to maintain it. So really, what would we do in the face of such disasters, I really wonder.