Words

What they mean? Do people just use words as something to get what they want? And once they get it, they just forget about everything they've said before? Probably, at least that's what I'm experiencing now. I no longer know what's the truth and what's not. I no longer trust you. Every single word that comes out from your mouth, I just take it in and suspect everything u're saying. Everything, I no longer have faith in you anymore. Simply put, you meant everything, but u mean nothing now cuz to me, it simply comes across as you not treasuring whatever I was giving you, you, not appreciating whatever that I was doing for you. All those thank yous you've said before, was it just a thing you say when people do things for you, but you dun really mean it?

I have no idea. Was clearing up my cupboard, saw stuff that reminded me of things you've said before. But yeah, lies, and I realised how much you've lied to me before. Perhaps not to the extent of lying, maybe just you not meaning what you said. Things coming out from your mouth and I was the only one taking every word you said seriously. Just in case you never knew, you really mean a lot to me, but no, whatever you meant to me, perhaps, deep down inside me, my feelings will never change, but i'm just gonna bury all that. It will never mean anything to you again. If things are gonna stay this way, then so be it. I've already said all I could have said, I've already done all I could have done. The rest is up to you, whether you wanna salvage this, or just leave it dying like that.

I guess, I was just a fool for trusting you, when you were just using me as a tool.