Lying

I would be, if I say I'm not bothered. But since I've already said it so clearly, I shall not care about it anymore. I guess it mattered alot, and perhaps it still matters that little bit, after all, its hard to pull out of a friendship when you've chose to trust that person so much. Perhaps, I've gone over the border of friendship a bit, but yeah, it doesn't matter now already. Whatever it is, it only showed me not to put so much trust anymore. People change, there's nothing you can do about it. Adapt and move on. The only one I can blame is myself, its not like she never changed before, so what was I thinking when I thought she wouldn't change anymore, I wonder.

I can't sleep now, various reasons. Despite this pulsing headache, I just couldn't get myself onto the bed. I have no idea what's going on right now, feels exactly like 2 sems back when I just couldn't get to sleep and end up studying the whole night and forcing myself to stay awake when I go to school.

Can't be bothered anymore. I shall not care anymore. Putting so much trust in one person was wrong to begin with. Giving someone so much of my time was probably the biggest mistake in my life. I saw something special in you, perhaps I was wrong, terribly wrong. Maybe i'm just that easy to be taken advantage of. But I'll never know what went wrong, if you don't speak a word.