new year coming up

new year is coming in abt 2 and a half hours..say 2 hours when i actualli finish this post i guess..tho it wld be a short one as compared to my previous 1000 plus words post..haha..and ya..this time i'm not gonna write this post like the previous 2..ending each para with the same sentence.some things i've alr thot thru them..and now i am a happy man..at least the sadness has kinda faded away..


somethings i'm glad to noe..abt wad mw told me..hopefully it's realli wad she thinks.afterall. if she realli follows her heart it wld be a better choice..at least i noe it wldn't be me..haha..but i guess if u can be together with someone u like..it's always betta than being with someone that likes u but u dun like him/her that much..no matter wad..juz follow ur heart..and i wld be happy this way..


i still haven gone back to get the tings..not taht i dun want it to end.juz that i'm too tired today..thong at sav..LOL..so tired..sav was scary..very..especially at nite..so little lights switched on then the staff room very eerie..got green lights one..then haven put on curtains so can look thru the windows to inside..then it's like those kinda ghost movie..any time wil have some thing pop out onex..haha..but it was fun..eating supper out with 2 other frenz..so fun..and the food tasted nice too..


then we did some fortune telling with the cards..haha..asked stupid qsns..and some serious ones too..but this kinda thing oso can't trust too much..how wld it be possible that she liked me b4..impossible lo..haha..


2006 coming soon..seriously hope that it wld be a happy year..putting the past down behind..or shld i say attempting to do so..i hope that evryone wld have a happy year..especially u..since the gal i care most abt now is still u..even if i told myself not to..i'm still caring abt u..pls..make a rite choice for urself..and stop going arnd misleading other guys..u're not only hurting them but hurting urself too..

over soon

it's gonna be over soon..and i noe it..not only this year but the bad memories i had this year..this year was a bad year..dun feel like tokking abt it..juz that i noe it and i noe it's gonna happen in juz abt 5 hrs time..nuthing special or any miracle is gonna happen i guess..not as if she's gonna tell me that she likes me..haha..not expecting anithing..so i'm not exactly disappointed..the whole thing is gonna be over soon..but..it's not the end..but a beginning..


u told me u realli have not changed..k..i tryta believe u..but from the way u avoided me..i juz can't help to think that u've changed..from telling me evrything..treating me as a soulmate(from wad i tot we were)..till now taht u've started to avoid me..3 wks..izzit all it takes to be from frenz to juz ppl who noes each other's names?..and something i've realised..we nvr took any fotos together at the chalet..mebbe it's kinda good..at least i wun be left with any memories abt u..nuthing for me to look at to remind me abt u..perhaps that small note u passed me will remind me abt u..haha..i have to thank you for exchanging sim card with me the other day..cuz by doing so..all the msges i have saved in muh phone were deleted..and it's all msges sent by u..for that i'm happy..it juz signifies taht this is over already..but..it's not the end..but a beginning..


from when i was 13..i started putting evrything i have into liking a gal..and it applies to u too..but it nvr seems to get thru to u..nvm..seriously..i told u i nvr expected anithing from u..and i meant it..realli..it's juz up to u whether u wanna trust me or not..all i wished for was ur happiness..guess wad..stupid me was playing with poker fortune telling last nite..and when i asked whether u've liked me b4..it actualli said 76-100% true..manz..guess muh fortune telling skills suck..but it actualli told be not to give up on u..and when i asked if i will be happy if i dun give up..it said no..so wad am i to do?i juz can't be there to wish for ur happiness my whole life..i myself need to find my own happiness too..so perhaps..after today..i'll realli gif up..i'm tired of u giving me false hopes already..realli tired..i'm glad that it's gonna be over soon..but sad that we cldn't be like wad we used to be again..to be frenz..but rmm wad i told u b4..zuo4 bu4 liao3 qing2 ren2 zuo4 peng2 you3 ye3 bu2 cuo4..and i mean it..i realli mean it..can we be like b4?to be frenz taht can tok to each other abt almost evrything?even if it is over..i hope we can still be frenz..if it is truely over..so be it..but it's not the end..but a beginning..


mark my words..i realli hope that we can still be frenz..aniwaes..stay happy and hope that u can patch up with ur mom soon..smile always..

over

it's over..i can sense it..evrything is gonna be over when evrything is returned to me..avoiding me and stuff..mebbe she realli meant it..that i'm not gonna remember her when my birthday comes..mebbe..or mebbe it's the other way round..that she's not gonna remember me when my birthday comes..cuz i'll nvr forget a person who breaks muh heart..but wld u ever care?


k..u're not dao-ing me..u're avoiding me..and i can c..i'm not blind..dun tell me u're not cuz it's juz so obvious that u're dao-ing me..but wld u ever care?


i cried at the chalet..stupid me..i was hiding under the blanket and u thot i was slping..haha..wtf..luckily i was hiding under the blanket..and she still came and ask..and i think she tot i was in a bad mood cuz of the beer..but it was becuz i was crying..i told someone to diam..but i dunno who it was..and i did something that i wld never haf done to her in the past..for the firz time i actualli ignored her..didn't feel good abt it..but..i guess she didn't care abt it aniwaes..since wad she hoped for was to keep a distance from me..still remember her asking me.."feeling better le ma?after the slp.."and ya..that "slp" was the part i was crying..so i've decided not to reply her..and juz went back into the chalet..but heckx..wld she even cry..the whole chalet experience sucked..cuz i wasn't happy..the only ever happy part was the part where we went to the beach..at least we talked a little when we were there..juz a little can make me happy..wtf..am i that ezily satisfied but at the same time..ezily disappointed as well?haha..stupid me..but wld u ever care?


and in the morning..i went back to the same self again..the period during sec4 to j1..controlling muh tears..crying without tears..or mebbe there was a little bit of tears here and there..but overall..i tot i controlled rather well..mebbe she was juz sitting in front of me..that's y i controlled it..but i guess aniwan wld oso have sensed taht i wasn't happy..seriously not happy..especially when i left the chalet..after we dropped off the key..they were gathering there for dunno wad stupid reason..and when mong suggested going off..i juz walked off without saying bye to her and the rest..haha..i was juz emotional at that time so i went off..mebbe i did the rite thing..i didn't feel sorry abt not saying bye to her..cuz i know she wun feel bad abt it either..the only thing i felt bad abt was not saying bye to boss..who told me so many things last nite..abt wad i've done wrong..abt me saying to be frenz but doing things that were showing that wad i wanted was not only to be normal frenz..mebbe muh actions were wrong..but my thots were not..thruout the whole process all i wanted was to be a fren..nothing much..but wld u ever care?


i told u b4 that u've changed..and u said no..yes..u have not changed..u're juz as frenly as always..but taht's to others..however ur attitude towards me have turned a 180 degrees round..u do not share anithing with me animore..if u do remember, during the firz few days after we knew each other..u cld still share things with me..asking me wad to do..this and that..at that time u still wld ask me for help..but now..ur attitude towards me have changed..totally..perhaps i was too direct..but i juz wanted to be frenz..mebbe a little more than frenz..but nvr to the extent of bgr..never..but..wld u ever care?


wad boss told me..was that she felt insecure whenever i was arnd her..well..i'm not surprised by wad boss told me..cuz she alr told me b4 that she felt uncomfortable whenever i helped her..whenever i was around her..u all tell me this..but haven u all noticed that the degree of sadness and disappointment i get from u all telling me this is much more higher than the degree of insecurity and uncomfort she gets when i'm arnd her..u try doing that to someone..helping someone do this and that..do alot of things..and after so many that u've done for this someone..this someone juz comes and tell u that he/she feels uncomfortable..that he/she feels insecure..and this someone finds alot of reasons and ways to avoid u when he/she sees u..who's hurt?who's disappointed?this heart breaking disappointment has already surpassed ur insecurity..but wld u ever care?


i realli dun wanna care abt her animore..mebbe i shld juz do wad fran told me to..to be like marv..to not care abt her..why break muh heart becuz of someone that does not even care abt me..i'm juz naive..that's all..but wld u ever care?


weichang and kah hui and liang mong keep on saying taht evrything wld be over when the chalet is over..evrything that has happened at taka..yea..true..evrything wld be over if u have no regrets or if u have never ever put ur heart into this taka..for me..it'll not be over that soon..at least till she returns me evrything that she owes me..it'll not be over that soon..but i noe she's trying to put an end to it..when she told me she hopes taht i wld be there today..yea..today..30th dec to get my things back from her..she's putting an end to it..i noe it..after i got back all the things from her..that wld be the end..and yea..it's only the end of this chapter..but the beginning of another..another sad chapter of my sad story..this is my story..my life..my beginning..my end..i'll not ezily forget abt her..i'll still care for her..but from a distance..so that at the least she wldn't feel insecure..i've done so much..but wld u ever care?


i'm hurting myself evrytime i fall in love with someone..and the reason is i put in all i have..my whole heart into it..that's y evrytime when it's over..muh heart juz breaks..gets crushed..and become more pieces..mebbe it's juz me to put in a hundred percent..seems that it never works when i put in a hundred percent..but i dun wanna stop doing this..wad if one day..the gal i meet is the gal for my lifetime..and i happen not to put in a hundred percent..i mite juz miss it..but..wld u ever care?


one last thing..seriously..i like u..yes..i've tot of wanting to be ur bf..but i noe i can nvr be in that position..u're my type..but i'm not ur type..thankew for telling me that i'll nvr noe whether u're gonna accept me..but from wad happened yest and ur response towards me..i noe that it's all over..that u're nvr gonna accept me..nvr evr..the chance of it happening is at most 1%..mebbe u wld gimme a higher chance of it happening..or mebbe u wld juz tell me it's zero%..i've done alot for u..and i guess that's enuff..evrything i've done..wad u've said..i juz noe that u're not appreciating it..i dun sense ur appreciation..evrytime i tell u that..u'll juz say.."no la..dun think too much la.." or "u're juz too sensitive"..but nvr a time wld u say thankew..yes..u've said thankew for other things..but for me caring abt u..u nvr said thankew..all i wanted was a thankew from u..at least it wld stop muh tears..at least it can bring some teeny weeny bit of happiness into this sad chapter..and mebbe it can bring a rather peaceful ending to this sad chapter..i said i nvr expected any return from u for wad i've done..and u shld noe..i've never asked u for anithing..but this time..juz this one last time..pls at least lemme noe that u're appreciative of wad i've done for u..at least a thankew..to cure me of muh sadness..yes..u can dun do it..i wun mind..a sad ending to a sad chapter..that wldn't be strange..but a twist wld be..but twist seldom happens in my sad story..so nvm..afterall..wld u ever care?


one last thing..and realli..this is the last..be happy..i noe u will..and i seriously hope that u will not be heartbroken over a guy again..like i've told u last time..if u choose that one..i'm fine with it..i'll be happy for u and him..but if u choose the other one..like wad i've told u..i juz dun think it's the right choice..but wadever i say..it's still up to u to make ur own decision..but hopefully u wld choose a path that wld make u happy..at least..dun be like me..to choose paths that have made me sad..but..after all this i've said..wld u ever care?


thankew..for at least adding a tiny weeny bit of happiness into this taka experience..realli thank you..leaf..


*clinkZ*

haiz

i seriously is falling into this shitty hole..f me dammit..i noe it mite be a scam..a con..or wadeva it is..but i'll still falling into this hole..even noeing that it wld hurt me..i'm still walking into it..


i'm being too protective..i noe..defensive..ppl say bad things abt this hole..i'll try my bez to tok back..even if wad i said has no logic in it..i'll still tok back..mebbe i shld juz start climbing out of this hole..and go look for a tree to climb or something..haiz..but can i juz leave the hole dere alone..when wad i wanna c is for the hole to find someone that wld actualli fit into it..someone that wld make this hole satisfied..someone that will fill it up..mebbe it's me..but mebbe it's not..but i juz wanna c someone make this hole satisfied..at least when this hole is satisfied..i mite be happy too and feeling hurt at the same time..haiz..dunno la..

unhappy christmas

*edited post..forgot to put in weichang..hee..sorry..and added some feelings at the front too..

*edited again..added in uncle henry..


seriously..i think i'll nvr get a happy christmas..well..she didn't realli do anithing..i was juz too sensitive i guess..and mebbe not tokking too much..so quite unhappy and sad..haiz..one month passes so fast..nxt yr hafta face new challenges again..juz 5 days more to end of the yr..haiz..


i'm juz not happy today..dunno y..perhaps it's the last day..and boss was asking me y i last nite so happy..and i was like..er..was i?mebbe lo..but seriously today i wasn't happy..i realli cldn't control my eyes animore..the nxt thing i'm gonna be sad abt..the tears are sure to fall le..now it's like..i sad..feel like crying..then my nose will be red..then eyes red..then tears well up at eyes but i'll always have my own way of controllin them..for example smiling at myself..closing my eyes to laugh.trying to make myself happy even tho deep down inside i noe i'm sad..i noe this contradicts my saying that as long as she's happy i'll be happy..but when she's the reason y i'm sad..wld i even be happy?mebbe i'm juz too sensitive that's y i'm making myself sad..but the prob is i dun even c u being happy..how am i supposed to be happy..haiz..sooner or later i'm gonna break down and cry like wad real shit freakin arse..goddammit..


shall recap on the whole taka thing..cuz i still can remember very clearly the firz day and alot of many other things..


firz day..


mong told us to wear formal..so me marv and mong went down in formal clothes..lol..haha..then we went to hr to report..lvl10..firz step in..told to wait..then met jin deng and kah hui..then came angeline..and came kin loon and his fren meng kiat..they were both late..haha..then xiao siang came and brought us down to show us arnd..haha..then met kennon..daniel the supervisor..and suresh..thot they were all juz contractors to set up the square cuz they were wearing tee shirts and jeans that day..haha..firz impression..lol..then still remember kennon telling marv and i to go up to bring down bars and brackets..then we went up to lvl3 storeroom..so messy lahx..haha..then marv and i were told to go up to learn cashiering..then at nite went up with mong to learn cashiering again..then left poor jin deng and kah hui the two of them stay at b2 square help set up..haiz..that's y kah hui nvr got a chance to be cashier..haiz..and ya..still remembered we help mattel throw away their card boards and stuff..when it was not our job at all..still were happily thinking that mebbe we will get some ot pay by staying so late..but in the end oso kenna chased away by suresh..haha..and ya..met many other ppl that day too..like rickson..


haha..then skip to the day i firz saw derrick ba..eh?was that the second day?hahax..think so ba..ya..saw daniel on that day too..he looked like a shy boy..lol..then very scared of this and that onex..haha..then derrick..omigod..firz time i saw him i was like..er?eh?tot that andy at hr told us that he wld not hire ppl under 15 de?ehhh..how come got a 10-12 yrs old boy working here arhx..hahax..


kk..skip skip skip..hmmmmz..ehhh..memory fading liaoz..cuz quite tired now..1 am liaoz..one can of mocha can't last me for too long lo..haha..but i shall continue..cuz i can't slp aniwaes..


k..firz time saw ye ling..was like near the end of nov i think..came down.i tot eh?who's this senior staff?haha..didn't noe she was oso a temp staff..she was quite pro at the cashier too..haha..


then think it's the second nite that we came to noe each other then became frenz lo..she so frenly..haha..exchange no. with evryone of us on the mrt..lol..still can remember her pinching jin deng on the train..hahaX..oops..not starting a scandal here arhx..haha


kk..now shall tok abt ppl..tryta tok abt evryone ya..


k..mong marv..sorry but i'll hafta skip the 2 of u..cuz known u 2 for quite a long time le..b4 workin taka..so save some space ya..skip u 2 lo..hee


k..alphabetical order..i'll tryta mention all


alan: nice guy siah..firz look noe he nice guy liaoz..he's that kinda guy who'll get the gal he wants..something that mong and i tot of the other day..haha..realli lo..cuz he's a realli realli good guy..the kind who treats ppl very good..and his father is nice too..from woodlands muz go yew tee is very ma fan la..summore is like so late le..but still send me back..realli muz thank him and his father manz..


allie: frenly guy..firz look noes he's a good guy le..he's the one who made me come up with the saying..bad guys get their gals..good guys get bullied..haha..will miss calling him allieooi~..haha..firz impression is good guy..but when u're more familiar with him le..he'll juz shuang shuang give u a punch in the back and scold all those shit like cb lj..haha..yea..he's a malaysian..haha..malaysians are good..haha..


angie: dear senior staff..hmmmz..up till now still can't differentiate whether she's a senior staff or a supervisor..haha..=P..she very good la..haha..can tok alot with us..always tok to us abt alot of things then ask for our opinion..haha..she can scold us some times but we noe that she's not realli angry la..haha..and yea..she roX..cuz she bot us presents..haha..me alan sean and mong..cuz we bot her chocs..haha


angeline: eh..firz day saw her lo..so quiet onex..dunno her quite well la..but firz impression she gave me was the kinda quiet quiet guai1 guai1 type..haha


shit..i'm getting tired..haha..need more mocha..can't rmm the names quite well le..mebbe i shld get out the roster..haha


BOSS (aka zul): another taka good guy..he's one of the best malay frenz i have known..he has this chinese look in him and he says it's becuz he has chinese blood..haha..yea..he handsome siah..and talkative..frenly too..he's a nice guy..haha


chiau siang: did i get the spelling wrong?haha..yea..she's a very good senior staff..treat us very good too..always tell us wad to do and wad not to do to prevent us from getting into trouble..muz thank her for my smooth work in taka liaoz..haha..ty ty..


daniel (aka chicken little): he's a farni guy..like i've said..firz day he come down i see him like shy shy liaoz..but in fact..he's pretty talkative for a guy..haha..glad to noe him..


derrick: haha..10 yr old..always make fun of him..feel so bad..hopefully he can cut down on wad he's been doing so far..mebbe like that he wld live a much better life..


francesca: haha..funny gal here..always tok tok tok..ya..dunno her quite well too..cuz diff shift..but can see she's a nice gal..and can be a nice fren too..glad to noe her..


henry: a nice uncle that works as a security at taka..he realli very nice to us all..always tok to him..haha..so nice and fun to tok to him..will miss him for sure..and hopes he will be safe and sound in the future..good luck and take care ya..uncle henry..


hong yu(aka ah gong): haha..16 yrs old leh..can c la..but sec2 and a china guy!?cannot c..haha..this guy very blur onex..so we call him ah gong..not firz sound but 3rd sound..haha..means blur like a sotong la..lol..then we always make fun of him..like the ice cream onex..haha..


jiayu: quiet gal here..haha..didn't noe she was the youngest there..tot she like only 16 or so..haha..ya..glad to noe her lahx..wen2 jing4 type..haha..


jin deng: haha..firz day he was quite talkative and frenly..but slowly as time went by..perhaps stress from sch work and working at taka..he became less talkative and kinda like keeping evrything to himself..hopefully he can get over with all the stuff that happened in taka and face a lvls happily..taking s papers summore..so juz concentrate on ur school work ya..dunnit to worry abt that tho..i bet he'll..especially when he himself told me to concentrate on my a's too..and not to think abt the stuff that i had been thinking abt since december..


hui xian: duno her well or shld i say i juz noe her name..haha..ya..juz noe that this gal cares alot abt her hair..always flip flip flip her hair onex..haha..


kah hui: haha..always complain this complain that..but nonetheless..he's still a good guy..and a good fren too..slacker too..haha..a's nxt yr le arh..let's work hard..and ya..muz go back c derrick at household fair ya..haha


kennon: yea..good supervisor..but when he gives u that evil smile and laughter..u'll noe he's up to no good..like that time he call out 4 packers..me alan ye ling and wan jun..he look at alan and wan jun then told them to go tidy up the square..then he looked at me and ye ling with that evil smile..omigod..instantly i noe he's up to no good..and ya..like wad i've mentioned in a previous blog post..he told us to go promote elmo and cookie monster..-_-'''..but nonetheless he's still a good supervisor..haha


kin loon (aka shao4 ye2): haha..basically..this guy hor..if u ever work with him at the same counter..as in taking over him la..wish u good luck la..haha..cuz he always missing in action onex..but he's a funny guy too..always tok tok tok..like a 38 liddat..=X..


kuan chiew: haha..funny guy here..lame at the same time..cut down on it arhx..bad for health..this guy muz be hiding his feelings or something..haha..


kyaw kyaw: funny leh..in sa didn't get to noe him..then in taka got to noe him liaoz..haha..this guy here..wah..macho siah..seductive voice..can attract alot of gals arh..haha..got ppl call him flirt..lol..mebbe he realli is..LOL


since i'm at l..i mite as well tok abt him..


liang MONG: haha..thanx to that someone..the 3 of us..marv u and i actualli had a better frenship..frenship lvl up..hahax..hopefully the brotherhood will last till forever ya..lol..like wad liu bei guan yu zhang fei liddat..hahX..taka san1 jie2 yi4..LOL


lina: gonna miss her laughter seriously..last time she can be so angry de lo..but near fair end she suddenly become very happy..mebbe becuz it's ending so she's haapppy..then she laugh laugh laugh all day long..haha..nice senior staff!!!yay!!!haha


long zhen: that time firz time knew her is i kenna 11 then she redemption gal..haha..funny leh she..look at gransazers then laugh laugh laugh liaoz..haha..lol..ppl have negative comments abt her..but i have no comments..i am not in the position to judge her..hahax..shall not judge her by wad ppl say..


marv: mebbe we had some misunderstandings..but i'm glad that it's all over..if u're realli sad..juz tell me..dun tryta hide ur feelings or wad ya..dun tryta act happy or wad..but if u're truly happy..then i'm glad for u lahx..haha..good luck in ur life..


ming wei: this guy is a quiet guy..always quiet quiet onex..but sometimes he'll laugh when we're saying jokes la..haha..still rmm the mistletoe incident..where the customer came to ask abt mistletoe..then wei chang asked the customer:" mee so to?" and weichang went away laughing and mw was obviously laughing secretly..so called tou1 xiao4..hahax..then wei chang came saying.."i tot he was looking for mr toh..haha" and ya..mw is mr toh!!!haha..mr toh, wanna eat mee soto?hahahx..ya..realli fun la..nice to meet this guy..


rickson: nothing much to say..cuz didn't had a chance to seriously get to noe him better..but can c that he's the kinda guy who jiang3 yi4 qi4 onex..haha..


sean: wah..nearly skipped him..hahax..cuz his name not on the namelist onex..then i now quite late alr liaoz..2.33..or shld i say quite early liaoz..hahax..this guy..good at pool lo..frenly oso..and talkative..like a 38..hahax..but nice to be a fren of his la..lol


siti: haha..seriously i tot she was oonly arnd our age..but guess wad..she's in uni liaoz leh..haha..yea..she's a very nice person..and she likes to go arnd poking ppl at their waist..haha..realli farni leh..she's the type taht u can be frens with her very ezily onex..glad to noe her..haha


wai yee: eh..oso dunno her very well..but she very straightforward with her words and she reminds me of a sec sch fren..haha


wan jun: eh..oso dunno this gal very well la..but she very quiet quiet onex..haha


wan teng: haha..didn't noe this gal oso from rv de..surprised when she asked me whether i was from rv4i..haha..and i was thinking..eh?how come this gal noe that i'm from rv4i..lol..haha..she's the kinda guai1 gal la..the type that looks like will go home straight after work de..then all she does at home is study and online occasionally..haha..


wei chang: so sorry i forgot to put u in in the firz post..haha..dunno y but i forgot abt u..haha..kk..so i shall write more abt u..haha..this guy..very frenly..likes to tok cok..and guess wad..he's from co too..lol..surprised abt it..lol..he very pro at cashiering too ya..and he's very good at tokking to gals..haha..can make gals laugh till like siaoz..and i noe y i left u out le..cuz i forgot abt u when i've mentioned u in mingwei's part when i tokked abt the mee soto..hahax..that incident was real farni manz..laugh till i cry lehx...haha


winnie: eh..haha..y the ppl i dunno quite well de all start with w onex..=b..eh..dunno wad to say abt her leh..cuz nvr kenna same shift as her de..hahax


winston: dunno him quite well..juz noe that he live at yew tee..haha..sad guy like me arhx..live at yew tee..always last to get down the mrt..lol..


xiao qing: er..this gal hor..i changed muh impression abt her quite alot of times..firz time saw her..eh..she like the type of guai1 guai1 de gal lo..then dunno is act cute or realli innocent type..the things she do realli very funny..haha..then daniel told me how arrogant she was then i kinda changed muh impression abt her..but when she helped me collect sony tabs from customers..i changed muh impression again..haha.she's a nice gal lahx..realli..haha..thanx for the tabs ya..


xing long: hmmmz..this guy left b4 december..realli funny guy to be with..always joke arnd with us de..haha..hope to c him again ba..


ye ling: haha..last on the list..lol..who tells u to have a name that starts with y..treat it as a finale la k?haha..lol..this gal here..real fun and nice to be with..she can tok alot onex..and guess wad..she's from co yang qin onex..hahax..glad to noe her lahx..still remember taht time we go promote elmo and cookie monster then she go eat elmo's fur..lol..juz kiddiin..act is elmo's hair dropping then kinda dropped into her mouth la..haha..she's a realli nice gal..hopefully she'll be happy forever..haha..and the guy who ends up with him is surely gonna be a lucky man..haha..stay happy ya..if sad u noe who u shld tell arhx..haha..'ll be there to listen to ur complains or unhappy things de..take care and gd luck for ur o's de results..hopefully u can get into jc ba..=D ..if realli need help in getting into a jc juz call me up la ya..will tryta help u get appeal onex..stay happy..=D


kk..that's all i think..if i missed aniwan..then i'm realli sorry..haha..think didn't miss out aniwan ba..haha..kk..


sch opening soon..facing a's in less than one year's time..haiz..ns after that..summore is a's year..time sure pass very fast onex..in the blink of an eye i wld be doing my last paper for a's liaoz..haha..time is runni fast..new yr resolutions.not yet..haha..that shall leave to the new year ya..for the time being..happy boxing day to everyone who's reading this post..haha..


and..will i get a happy new year?hopefully i'll ba..hopefully..

haha..stupid

haha..speculations..that mite juz be the truth..based on the fact that mong and i have the common thinking that wad we are tinking are true..and wad he has done has oso come to prove our speculations rite..it's juz getting obvious..but if he wanna get himself involved in this mess of a freakin shit..let him be ba..juz fall like the rest of us can le..haha..

seriously..i hope u liked it..afterall..it was the only one that i kan4 de2 shang4 for the whole morning de.haha..the only one that i thinks suits u..

haiz..tml last day..how?my last 48 dollars..hiakX..will i miss taka?definitely..haha

happy x'mas?mebbe ba..was i realli happy?mebbe becuz i was kinda sick and tired so kinda sian sian today..play pool oso ai mai ai mai..like heck heck anihow play de..hiakX..and ya..thanx to alan's father for the ride home..else muz take cab so ma fan..haha..

hahax..

happy today..guess y?..i wasn't called uncle today by any customer!!!yay!!!finally got customers saying.."give the balloon to kor kor..he needta scan.."..haha..=D..

lol..that's all la..today nothing much to say..haha..tml christmas eve le..will it be a happy one?let's wait and c..

happy happy..hee

i'm surprised i can be happy over such a small thing..perhaps it was a long time since someone actualli did that to me..so pretty surprised and happy at the same time..hmmmz..1 yr since someone did that lo..

normally..things that reminds me of the past..i'll be pretty sad abt it..but this time..dunno y..this ting which reminded me of the past can actualli make me happy..perhaps muh attitude has changed towards happy and sad things..haha..i'm juz a happy guy today..

omigod!!!wahahaha..mocha changed packaging liaoz..heee..purple color onex..saw it..wah seh..see new packaging then i hot liaoz..haha..can't bear it so juz took one can and drink..omigod..mocha again..guess tonite i'll slp damn late..or shld i say this morning..haha..mocha rox muh world..lol..

and yea..i guess i'm realli happy now ba..cuz choc craze is back..firz sign that showed that the choc craze is back is the mocha..i suddenly like the choc taste in it alot..in the past..i only liked it becuz of the coffee taste..haha..now it's becuz of the choc taste..yea yea yea..happy happy happy..haha..for me..when i eat choc..it juz means that i'm happy..so if u c me accepting a choc someone gives me..yea..i'm happy..u c me rejecting it..u wld noe i'm sad..haha..hopefully this choc craze can carry on for at least a yr ba..evrytime a choc craze come..it wld end in like..erm..2 months..haha..cuz i happy can't be for more than 2 months de..as in nvr more than 2 months..haha..

yay..choc..yay..mocha..yay..haha

haha..pool..

seriously..i suck at pool manz..

alan..those 3 rounds i won u were pure tyconess..sean is good..but alan u can win him lo..means u're better than him..but sean wins me..LOL..like scissors paper stone liddat..LOL..

haiz..5 more workin days..and i'm going back to sch in 2 wks time..haiz..my hols gone in the blink of an eye..lol..haven realli enjoyed it yet..only gone for 1 stayover and 0 chalets..haiz..still rmm last yr got so many stayovers de lo..this yr like..haiz..so sad..lol..

haiz

seriously..i'm telling myself it's my eyes that were makin me see things..i keep on telling myself..that mite not be wad i thot i saw..but this is juz a thinking of muh subconsiousness trying to make myself happy and not to be so troubled..but deep down inside me..i still have muh doubt..whether i shdl trust her words or doubt my eyes..but i still trust her..so i'm doubting my eyes..silly me ya..i noe..i'm silly..blinded..afterall..i'm juz a shadow..

one thing i've learnt..dun judge a person by wad someone said..abt wad i said abt those expresso gals..i guess i shldn't have said all those based on wad daniel told me..today do testing..then realised siao qing not as bad as wad daniel has said ma..she helped me collect tabs for sony redemption lo..so good..but mebbe becuz she has nothing better to do ba..aniwaes she said she oso dun c anithing good in the sony redemption..ya..broke record today..sunday was 10..today was 15..but gave 2 to alan and 2 to kyaw kyaw..so muh sony redemption record rite now is 2 pairs of slippers and one bag..but 2 of the items is get for ppl one not for muhself..haha..hmmmz..muz help mw the astroboy fan liaoz..so ke lian..he now only got 3..think i give him some on wednesday ba..actualli one only la..cuz i now left only with one tab..haha..shld i go for figurine?mebbe lo..c firz ba..12 leh..muz chiong for it..haha..but if my record continues to improve i mite juz get 20 on wednesday..hahax..hopefully ba..

stupid customer

f la..seriously..this stupid customer bought 2 freakin 129.90 dogs..that can move ya..i c cute then i went to help test..haha..then put 3 c size batts inside..k..i put in le..eh?can move leh..haha..so cute..then i put on the table..did some tricks on it..like telling it to pick up bone..etc..then it stopped moving..think batt not strong enuff..then i told that freakin ultraman-head derrick to go get some c size batts from sony..cuz the customer was quite impatient becuz of the dog not moving..then when derrick came back and i told him to open it up..he said customer haven pay yet..i told him nvm..and didn't bother to explain it to him..ya..mebbe i was at fault too..BUT..u dun expect me to explain to him infront of the customer rite?to tell derrick that the customer is impatient already..and the fastest thing we can do is to get the sony batts..so we opened it up..then the customer said nvm..and said wad he wld be responsible for it..that he's going to pay for it since he's gonna need the batts aniwae..o..k lo..then we fixed the batts in..the dog moved..but we dunno the command for it to stand up..cuz even the manual didn't mention abt how to tell the dog to stand up..then the customer started guai-lan-ing..kaoz..how we noe la..we are not the manufacturers..we are juz part-timers trying to get our pathetic pay over the hols..u expect us to noe evrything in the world..kaoz la..and he was saying.."i dun wanna spend so much money on a dog that can't move.."..eh..that's ur prob la..u got money u can buy dog..kaoz..not my prob rite?it's ur own choice..ur money not my money..how u spend it is not up to me rite..if u dun like it..at most exchange it for some freakin item that u like la..kpkb..nvm.then daniel came tell me that mornin shift can go le..and i was too tired to be bothered with this freakin shit but cute dog..so i went away..leaving evrything to derrick..cuz evrything seems settled by then..abt the batts la..and whether he wants the dogs was up to him laioz..

and then..daniel came telling me abt derrick saying that i told him to kope the batt..kaoz..mebbe i shld juz explain to him tml ba..but i did not kope la..diaoX..i was juz trying to make the customer happy with his product..then daniel told me that derrick said that the customer wants taka to pay for the batt..eh..derrick shld have heard the customer saying that he's gonna pay for it de lo..that's y i juz left it to derrick they all to settle..and now u come complainnig to daniel abt this..wtf..u shld tell the customer ma..not me..diaoX..

heckx la..if taka realli wanna blame aniwan..blame me lo..k?happy?kaoz la..firz day kenna testing alr liddat liaoz..hope this is not that typical ba..haiz..

story to tell

i'm here to tell u all a story..a story about a freakin promoter..by the name of F _ _ _ _ _ _..

here it goes..

once upon a time..there leaves a promoter..who works in a japanese company called takashimaya..and he's the promoter of remote control car..yepx..one fine day..when i was happily doing cashiering at 71021..happily trying to get my gross sales over 15k..there came a promoter..yea..that promoter..who was packing his own remote control car space..ya..beside my counter..there is this place where they put the batteries for sale..ya..the promoter went there..with a handful of rubbish which i thot he was going to throw at the rubbish bin..but instead..he juz chucked it into the already messy battery side..WTF.. (i'm gonna do a combo vulgarity..pardon me..but i'm realli angry..but it wld be in short form la..haha..at least wunbe that vulgar..).. f u cblj knnbccb tmd f ur momma s ur papa's d..kaoz la..pls la..it's not a place for u to dump ur rubbish u arsehole..k la..thot only for one time de..then didn't bother to shout at him..chicken little saw it too..ya..he was angry too..we were angry..den chicken little went to redemption while i stayed at counter..happily trying to get my gross sales over 15k..yepx..after some time..he came with some stuff that does not belong to remote control cars sections..guess wad..ya..u're right..he dumped it at the batteries dere again..once again..F U!!!..i'm too tired to do combo liaoz..kpkb la..but he did that when i was bz handling customers..lucky u manz..else i wld have lashed it out at u..watch out manz..i c u doing that again i'll beat u up into pulp..kaoz la..pls lo..at nite and mornin we pack till like siaoz..customers leave there nvm la..u're a promoter leh..kpkb la..u're a freakin staff..at least leave it at the basket la..not in front of the counter..u're not a customer..darn u..u dun pack..that's y u can do this..imagine u're the one supposed to pack the counter and someone does this infront of u..tell u wad..if u realli do taht again..u watch out ya..kpkb stoopid promoter..kaoz lah..only care abt his own area..arsehole..

ya..other than that today was a better day la..altho didn't break 15k..but at least got 13k lo..haha..yea..today fine day lahx.haha

so-so day

ha..a so-so day i wld say..nothing much happened..was supposed to go out but in the end oso didn't go out..haha..

played bball..long time nv played with muh frenz le..thot i wld lose my touch..and the rim seemed bigger than b4..think someone changed it..and the net sux..no chop sound when i shoot..totally sux..whoever changed it..f manz..the previous rim was good enuff..i liked the double rim and the white net..not the stupid single rim and red net..mebbe it'll take a long time b4 i can get accustomed to it ba..ya..despite for the one month of no-playing bball..i'm still as tyco as ever..who asks me to be "tyco-king"..hahax..damn lucky..shall describe the match..

k..when 3 of us were happily shooting balls..2 ppl at the other half of the court came over..and asked the usual qsn.."want play together?"..k..i said..ya..3 v 2..it was supposed to be..but that willie lagging arnd..and i was lagging arnd too..the 2 dun seem to have enuff skill for me to be serious..and i'm serious abt it..it's juz one big fat guy and one shooting average guy..not much of a trouble..since we have yi chao arnd..so i juz lagged..that was wad i thot i cld do..so the match started..they scored the firz shot..wow..mebbe becuz i was lagging arnd..letting the smaller guy pass by me..and in the ball went..i clapped..sarcastically..realli sarcastically..k..then after that..i lagged arnd and managed to score one..hahax..i'm good ya..laggy still can score..then i started on a scorin spree..shooting in from free throw line..then the 2 got pretty feddup i think..with me lagging arnd and still being able to score..so they said.."let's play 11"..and there it went..ya..i got the firz shot in..a nice chop with a sucky chop sound..i dun even call it a chop sound..chop is such a..argh..dunno howta describe..but REALLI NICE SOUND..hahax..but with that sucky net..the chop sound juz wasn't there..haiz..then i started lagging.."kiang!!!" the ball went..for a rebound..obviously we can't snatch a rebound from a big fat guy..ya..he was tall..haha..so they got the ball till they scored a 4-1..kinda got serious a bit..haha..then yichao got the ball.yay..revenge..started off like a point guard..passing to other team mates while i stayed outside..and the 2 were running abt trying to get the ball..willie was juz an intermediate step for us to pass the ball to each other..so it was kinda like a 2v2..with willie scoring occasionally and most balls in by me..yichao got most of the rebounds..ya..the score went to 4-6..with us 6..ya..then once again the situation changed..mebbe the guy prayed in the mornin..he juz got so many 3-pointers in..haha..and it went to 8-6..by rite shld be 8-7 but the guy counted wrongly..so nvm..6 then 6 lo..

then they led us at 10-6..wah!!!pressure..luckily we got the ball and my tyconess stepped in..doing my spinnings as usual..trying to fake that stupid guy..who seriously got faked..i told him..eh..i going to right..and he believed..then i passed by him on his left..stupid guy..went pass him..then came the big fat tall guy..omigod..he has towering height..haha..but nvm..i juz scored from under his arm..haha..spin to the board..qie4 ban3 jing4..YAY..haha..then we got to 10-10..and ya that guy did pray..cuz he won us with a 3pointer shot..f la..if i had jumped higher..haha..but too tired liaoz..so let them win lo..hahax..

ha..tml workin..hopefully tml wld be a better day ba..hopefully nothing much happens tonite..if anithing happens..hopefully it's a happy one..let's hope..haha

ha

f to customers once again..dun gimme ap pls customers..i've alr tried my bez to smile liaoz..which is not the real me..and some still gimme ap..wtf..throw card on the table..k..fine..wadeva..ask this ask that..cblj..where got sell this and that?omigod..i'm only workin at taka square as a temp staff..u can't expect me to noe evrything in taka rite?i even have a hard time handling my own probs..how wld i have time to entertain u..cblj again..

other than that..today was a fairly good day..and ya..happy bdae to sean..shld be going down to taka tml to give him his bdae present ba..if i can actualli find one to buy for him..lol..

hurt again?

hurt again..it juz happens evryday..i wanna care for u..but how can i when u dun even gimme a chance to..mebbe i shld juz f off..

ya..true that i cannot cure u if u're realli sick..cuz i'm not a doctor..but i'll do wadeva i can to help u..even if it means going to the end of the world to get u the thing that is needed to cure u..i juz want u to be happy..not to be sad..not to be stressed..not to be bad mood..i realli dun want this to happen evryday..wait for u to be online then when u online..u juz tell me u bad mood..then ell me to leave u alone..tell me not to tok to u..but it juz hurts me..but if this will make u happy..i'll juz f off..

k la

ha..k la..it's alrite la..wasn't realli angry with wad happened..but if got shldn't keep evrything to urself ma..got probs muz tell me ma..then i wldn't be that troubled by it..if u were in a bad mood..it's alrite ba..wad can i say?haha..can i not forgive u??but in the firz place how wld i bear to be angry..hahax..juz be happy can le la..even if it's not becuz of me..as long as u're happy..i wld be happy..the happiness wld always win over the little tinge of sadness in me..

haiz

my heart is getting weaker as each day goes by..so my doubts were true..no matter how much i do for her..she's juz being scared by wad i'm doing..wadeva i do for her is juz meaningless i guess..being helpful is wrong..but who's hurt most?it's me..u try doing that..helping someone but that someone is giving u the feeling of no appreciation at all..who's hurt?huh?no one but urself..ya..i said i wanted no return at all..but i didn't expect it to be absolutely no return at all..to the extent of not even a thankew for wad i've done..for that i'm hurt..seriously..wondering how many to the powers of two muz my heart break b4 it'll start to get mended..for now..it's already 1024 pieces of heart..haiz..will they further break down to 2048?haiz..let's w8 and c..or will they start mending soon..let's hope so..but for now..i juz wish for ur happiness..even if it brings sadness to me..but c-ing u happy will at least bring some light into the darkness i'm living in..afterall..i'm juz a shadow..

trendy??

it's a trend..ppl who work at taka will come down on their off days..LOL..firz it was ah gong3..who came down..LOL..then saw mong..acting dao as ever..mebbe he's showing his ap side..LOL..hmmmz..mebbe i shld go down tml oso?since it's a trend..LOL

haiz..not realli happy today..dunno howta say..i seriously think i'm givin too much but receiving too little at the same time..and mebbe receiving nothing at all..but who cares..not as if u'll ever care..wad i do for u..u dun even appreciate..sorry..does it realli cure?does it come from deep down inside u?i wonder..but u can't blame me for doubting ppl..once bitten twice shy..especially when i'm bitten more than once..u can't actualli expect me to still trust ppl wholeheartedly..i trust u to make myself happy..cuz if i dun..i'll be sad..yes..i can sense truth in ur words..but rumours are juz makin me think too much..seriously..i can't stand rumours..rumours hurt..rumours can deal massive destruction..been thru it..so i noe..but i juz dun feel like myself when i stand down dere and do nothing at all..perhaps i'm alr used to helping u?i dunno..haiz..

seriously hope i can have a fine christmas..hopefully a happy one..at least dun let it be a sad one..haiz..

happy day..i guess

today is a happy day..HAHA..guess why??cuz boss is BACK!!!WOOHOO~altho back as only a promoter for sheng tai..still happy taht he's back la..hopefully we all can have dinner or lunch with him one of these days again..haha..and i number 2 guard so loyal to him today lo..he ask me go buy peach tea then i go buy for him..HAHA..in the end treated him to it..then helped him throw away cardboards to the dumping area outside event office..LOL..c?so loyal lorx..HAaHa..

k..i told myself mebbe i shld not be so good to her..but in the end, i'm still good to her..realli dunno wad else to do..c her..then i will tell myself to be good to her liaoz..falling too deep?yea..climbing back up?not yet..cuz i still can't find a rope ladder to start climbing..shall continue to fall down..ya..ai4 qing2 xuan2 ya2..HAHA..song by jay..lyrics by vivian xu..haha..or izzit hsu..wadeva..jay juz rox can liaoz..haha..it's becoming an automatic thing..i'll automatically be good to her..hahax..siah latx..but nvm la..she happy can liaoz..

stuck at 13??

HA..now i noe y thirteen is a number i always put behind my nick..especially when i use lancer to sign up for accounts..

13..

not becuz it's the age where i firz made my neopets account..still can remember the nick was recca_13_2001..haha..if i like 13 becuz of this..den y not 2001 too..LOL..

13..

not becuz it's an unlucky number to evryone..and in order to be extraordinary..i liked it..NAH..that's not it..

13..

it's the age when i juz stepped into secondary school..rvhs..when i turned 13..i was still a young boy..innocent..no troubles at all..even studies wasn't a tough thing for me..at that time..haiz..miss 13..

now u noe y i like 13..cuz i wanna be stuck at that age..stuck at 13..stuck as an innocent young man..without any troubles..be it love..family or even frenz..at least at that time..it was still ez for me to maintain frenships..cuz that time..we dun have that much problems yet..frenz means frenz..nothing else..

13..

i miss..

13..

i want..

haiz..if only i can get stuck on the age of thirteen..ya..haiz..

aniwae..today..dunno if i shld be happy or sad..

are u happy??are u sad??no..i'm happy..NO..i'm SAD..no.i'm happy..f u..i tell u i'm sad..dammit la..HAPPY MEANS HAPPY..so stfu..i am happy..realli..no lies..tho i did cry without tears..but i'm still happy..i think..haiz..wadeva..

i've got this feeling that my tears are gonna drop out one of these days cuz i realised my eyes are not that good at controlling the tears as last time liaoz..it's juz a matter of time b4 i c my tears tinkling down my cheeks again..1 and a half year since the tears trickled down my cheeks..wadeva..

do true man cry or hide their feelings..i post this qsn to a man who is fit enuff to be called a true man..

i noe why i like zi4 wo3 cui1 mian2 so much..i juz realised songs i like usually depict my feelings..and zi4 wo3 cui1 mian2 is a sad song..trying to hypnotise oneself so that he wun feel the sadness..and i'm kinda like doing this..haha..juz another sad songs..and y i love sad songs?cuz most of the time..i'm sad..HAHA..lol..so when u c me singing sad songs..i'm sad..ya..u c me singing children song or taka song..i'm most of the time happy..or juz trying to hide my feelings..haha

i'm juz a person who has mixed up emotions..low eq?mebbe..can't handle my emotions?mebbe..haiz..

am i'm being too good..to u?..or is that wad i shld realli do..to treat u good..given the fact taht i like u..wadeva..guess it's juz me to treat the one that i like good..

lol..juz when i wrote this..i saw my horoscope on frenster..and this is wad it said..

Relationships need compromise. Are you giving too much -- or taking too much?

haha..nice qsn..am i realli giving too much and not taking anithing at all..wadeva..this is a qsn for me to ponder upon i guess..

f off to u..

i'm disappointed by my fren..stupid actions..stupid thinking..and now he's trying to run away from his stupid problem..STUPIDITY..that is the only word to describe him rite now..plain stupid..i wld say..that's two words..

tell u wad..if u are realli sad..juz say..dun act happy..if u keep on acting happy like this..i'll juz get more angry with u..angry with ur stupidity..

and ya.. i take back my words..perhaps my brothers are not realli ppl who are zhuan1 yi1..or mebbe juz one of them is not..stupidity..flirt..playboy..i wld say..so f off for the time being..or i'll get angry again..

o..k..freakin gransazers again..F LA!!!..stupid..

ya..and kin loon had another story again today..saying wad..once upon a time..there was this customer..who was trying to open up an item he saw in the square..but was having troubles with it..then a promoter came by and say "sua ku"..and they started quarelling..and ya..these two came to my counter and the customer actualli asked me to find a supervisor..and ya..summoned lina..haha..then was asked whether we heard any shouting..but didn't hear..mebbe becuz of too many customers la..can't be botherd with the shouting..but kin loon heard it..but lina didn't hear kin loon say that he heard..haha..and ya..so that's how the whole story goes la..

comments abt the story..it was obviously not the customer's fault..becuz from wad i see..that promoter himself got some prob up dere onex..according to daniel yao..he saw the promoter telling customers not to buy the toy..when he's supposed to promote it..ya..so it's the promoter's prob i wld say..

ya..happy that u actualli shared ur probs with me ya..all i wanna be is juz frenz rite now..so if u're happy..juz tell me..sad oso tell me..i'll be ur listening ears..ur uncle agony..there to help u with ur problems and solve them for u..like jing1 tian2 yi1..HAHA

sad or happy

a qsn i ask myself evryday..are u sad or happy today?i realli dunno..am i really happy or juz appearing to be happy..i'm sad not becuz of taka things but becuz of other things..sad abt my life..but wadeva..shan't tok abt it..tokking abt it is like a double edge sword..it mite hurt myself even more or mebbe make me happier..

ya..stupid..thio 72011 today la..not that i wanted it..redemption la..kaoz..foto taking..redemption of free gifts..testing..cashier..so ma fan..and stupid gransazers..ya..real stupid..i still think sesame street is better..at least it's more educational..HAHA..not like gransazers..come out dance dance then go back liaoz..then come out again for foto taking..LAMOE..and the stupid mc will tell the kids to shout "S, A, Z, E, R!!! GRANSAZERS!!!"..wtf..and i counted it..it's approximately 11 times..mite have lost count cuz halfway was interrupted by customer..stupid customer..almost quarreled with one today becuz of foto..pls madam..ur child is not inside u can't take the foto..i can't make an exception for u..if i do..evryone will juz follow suite and it'll juz mess up the whole thing..and stop saying it's ridiculous..we are merely following the rules..so F OFF..

ya..mornin only got me and kennon noe howta do return la..then ya..i like to do return cuz redemption counter is super boring..and that long zhen gal..farni gal la..laugh laugh laugh..keep on laughing at gransazer..laughing at the pose the children make when they took pics with gransazers..STOOPID..ya..it's farni..but dunnit to laugh until liddat onex la..and keep on singing songs..like to sing go campus superstar like derrick la..haha..not scolding u la..juz commenting..but think wun c this gal animore liaoz..cuz i'm not gonna get redemption animore..haha..muz learn from weichang..use quit to threaten xiao siang they all..lol..and ya..mornin only one supervisor..kennon..haha..think he getting better at return ba..lol..but he did a lot of cash refund to customer today..and if accounts realli call down i wld say it's him la..not realli my prob..ha..and ya..think ye ling noe howta do return liaoz la..so dunnit always trouble me liaoz lo..LOL..

argh..tired..got slight headache..mebbe kenna that taka illness again..jialatx..i was the one who started it and now it's back to me..LOL..retribution arh..hahahaha..to all taka staff and evryone else..take care arhx..esp u..

sad or happy

am i sad or happy..i dunno..i c her happy i happy..i c her sad i sad..but becuz she's happy all day long..so i guess i'm happy for today..and ya..saw her tiger teeth again..realli very cute..hahax..so wad if i like her..ya..i like her character..i like her tiger teeth..but so?the chance of it happening is only 1% at most..i guess..but so?i'll still like her..this is wad like is all about..until the day i can't stand her character animore..mebbe i'll not like her..but i said mebbe..cuz altho like is not foreva..i think it's alr more than juz like now alr..even if it is one-way traffic..i'll still stay by her side..Quote of the day: "happiness is not when u have possession of something, happiness is when u c the one u love happy. that is happiness." by yuan ing..

and ya..i muz say..gransazers is stupid.."What colour is the fire tribe?" and the kids go shouting.. "RED!!!"..omigod..it juz reminds me of "What colour is elmo?" and the kids go shouting.."RED!!!"..so i guess elmo belongs to fire tribe too?and cookie monster belongs to water tribe?wadeva..dun watch gransazers aniwae..it's juz a stupid show..

and ya..that lozenge u told me to try hor..u call that a lozenge arh..lozenge so swt onex meh..u eat le later ur throat become even more jialatx la..haha..eh..aniwae..sick muz eat medicine la..dun eat medicine will be hard for u to recover..get well soon..u need panadol or cough syrup juz tell me..i'll bring a whole firz aid box if u want..haha..so get well soon..take care arhx..sorry arh..being so naggy here..but juz caring for u ma..take care get wellx..

happiest day so far?

i guess today is the happiest day so far since working at taka..sorted out quite alot of things..some troubles gone..but not all yet..but still happy la..

izzit a test?no it isn't..

haha..the one i previously liked is online now..am i affected by it?afterall..it is after like 2 mths since i've seen her online..so seeing her might affect me alot..hmmmz..no la..realli no feelings for her alr..the kind of feeling i get when i c her online last time is no longer there..and yea..i've forgotten abt her..and i guess that's good.and ya..this juz shows how serious i am with u..i'm juz liking u and only u..and since the day i started liking u..it has only been u that i like..i'll not hurt ur feelings or wad..so believe in me ba..i'm realli serious abt it..

i nv doubt ur words..no matter how doubtful the things u said are to ppl..i still believe in wad u said to me..trust is the word..promise i shall..

and i was right to trust u..becuz u're juz too good to be bad to others..i guess..

i mite not be tokking abt u..so dun think too much..haha..if u think u're the u i'm tokking abt..lol..confusing..wadeva..dotx..

my nick quite funny arhx..at firz was saw hai yuan's then i suggested some changes..then i used it..haha..it's in chinese la..but the translated thing is..

i can't be sure that i think about u every minute..but i think about u 3600 times every hour..

haha..mebbe i shld change it to..

i can't be sure that i think about u every day..but i think about u..(calculating..)..31536000 times per year..

LOL..juz trying to be lame with the second one..but i think the firz one wld be enuff..and that is wad i truly feel..

problem solved

problem solved? yea

brothers?yea..

frenz?i've got some..

take actions?not yet..

let's wait and c..

decision made

decision made..

i've decided not to do anithing abt her juz yet..juz remain frenz for the time being wld be juz fine..juz dun wanna bother myself with this kinda stuff when i can't even handle frenships..only when i can handle frenships wld i go for it..

torch

the torch shines for peter..not his fren..

so wad now?

if it's juz a simple game i will juz give up so that i wld not be bringing an end to my so-called frenship with a "fren"..but this time round..it's not juz a normal game..it's a special one i wld say..it has been a long time since i've liked to play a game of my type..a happy game..say..one to 2 yrs?..haiz..the last one was my second game which i succeeded in bidding over..so i'm pretty serious abt it this time..tho it mite cause me to lose a "fren"..i realli dunno..brotherhood?firz time someone calling me a brother..wadeva..is this true brotherhood?zuo xiong di..jing sheng you..but..are we realli xiong di..or izzit juz becuz we play with each other often that's y we juz stereotype each other as xiong di..wadeva..and ya..so i'm pretty serious abt this game i'm trying to bid..wld i ever get to have a game that i like again??

today is a so-so day..morning k la..afternoon pissed..becuz of customers..pissing me off with silly requests..like..can i have the christmas carrier?wadeva..and of cuz..oso pissed off with some other things..but dun feel like tokking abt it..

let's hope tml wld be a better day ba..but tml is sunday..and there might be alot of things happening tml..so mite not turn out to be a good day..haiz..

missing boss..if he was here mebbe things wld not be so jialatx cuz he can brighten up the atmosphere..LOL..wadeva..

crying without tears again?mebbe..but is that realli crying or izzit juz a feeling of sadness..haiz

are u a fren

k..after wad happened juz now..i can be even more sure of what i have stated the other day..i have no true frenz..and not even buddies..yes..i mite have said something or 've done something that pissed u off..but wad is that..u nv tell me..i dun even noe whether it's directly or indirectly..and u dun even gimme a chance to explain myself..but i guess there is no point in doing so..cuz in the firz place..u're already thinking that i'm absolutely wrong..wld true frenz do that?ya..mebbe they'll jump straight to conclusions..stating that u're wrong..but never not stating a reason why as he/she is pissed off with u or think that u're absolutely wrong..and to the extent that even a sorry is no cure..yes..sorry mite be no cure..but a true fren wldn't keep it to himself..wldn't say sorry no cure and not give a reason as to y sorry is no cure..and juz keep on saying "NO" and shit stuff..and i wld like to say..u're not the only one in the whole world who is pissed off..it's not like wad u think..it's not happening only to u..have u ever thot that it mite be happening to others juz that becuz that other person thinks that u're a fren so he dun wanna trouble a fren or wad..evryone has his/her woes..not only u..u tell me go reflect..yes..i've reflected..that's y till now i'm still not aslp..but reflection is over boy..and my conclusion is i've nv done anithing today that wld have cause any harm to our frenship..or mebbe it's not even a frenship..can i call that a frenship?

yes..i've said in a previous post that i can do anithing..even to the extent of betraying a fren..but u think i wld actualli do that???betraying a fren?even though i doubt our frenship..i still call u a fren in front of u..i treat u as what i think one wld treat a fren..but i dunno if these ppl i call "frens" will treat me like i treat them..that's y i doubt frenship..is it the way i treat ppl as frenz that is wrong or wad..mebbe i'll nv noe..

all i can say is sorry and nothing but sorry..even though i still can't think of wad i've done wrong..but i still wanna say sorry..cuz i dun wish to lose wad i think..is a "frenship"..or is it juz acquaintances that i am calling them frenz..i realli dunno..

and to the one i've talked to abt this frenship stuff and family stuff juz abt an hour ago and who thinks that i'm thinking too much..i can tell u now that i'm not thinking too much..cuz my frenships are doubtful..mebbe u can tell me wad truly are frens..

my day was okay..but juz becuz of ur bad day..u've made my day bad too..but i've no comments abt it or anithing..if it's realli becuz of something i've done that made ur day bad..then i guess it's only rite for my day to be bad too..am i rite? "fren"?or "acquaintances"?

u can't blame me for doubting frenship and say it's my fault that i'm doubting frenships..but it was so-called "frenz" who made me doubt frenships..once bitten twice shy..perhaps the "trust-no-one" me is back..but at least this time i guess i still can trust my family for once..and perhaps the one who have talked to me abt frenship stuff and family stuff..at least i had sensed some truthfullness and trustworthiness in his/her words..mebbe that is wad frenz are?to be able to let u sense truthfullness in her words..

but i juz can't understand y the one i've thot to be my "fren" juz can't believe in me..but wadeva..if u dun believe in me..juz let it be..if u still wanna call me a "fren" so be it..i'm fine with it..but i doubt we cld still be "frens" like we were..cuz u alr have doubts in me..

and to the one i've tokked to abt frenship and family stuff..ya..i think my vocab used in wad i've told u juz now mite be a little bit wrong..cuz i tokked abt not having buddies or true frenz..mebbe i shld juz tell u some other day ba..

once again..sorry again..but i realli can't think of wad wrong i've done..

a truth

good guys are bullied..
bad guys gets their gals..

working on lyrics for a song to show how sad guys are..

support the ff7 remake

hopefully square wld remake ff7..like i've said in a previous post on ff7 ac..if they cld remake ff7 as a ps3 version..it wld be bez..and better if they can link the firz story to ff7 ac..let's hope that we can see ff7 on ps3 in the future..bez game i've ever played..ff rox..ff7 rox most..so pls click on the link in my links..for the online petition..cuz ff7 is realli is a good game and we muz support it..even if u nv played it or watched the movie b4..u still shld support it cuz i'm sure more will be delighted abt the remade version of ff7 if it truly comes out..

and ya..today is a damn stupid day..slacked till cannot slack animore..haha..go up to hr to carry table..but wait wait wait for so long..then wait for lift to come up oso very long..so wasted like half an hour juz to carry tables and chairs..and ya.went to accounts to return the visa mc and amex slips..lol..can't believe they actualli forgot to put these things into their slip bags..but seems that only if we're there wld there be no problems..haha..but mebbe the senior staff weren't there yest nite?dun realli noe..haha..but wadeva..i'll get my 48 dollars per day aniwae..lol

do i stand a chance?

shld i juz tell her that i'm willing to subsidise her?or shld i wait and observe the situation..wadeva..i've got a feeling i'm gonna flop this time round again..tho i'm more serious than other times..i'm still not confident..i've nv felt so serious b4..willing to do anithing juz to be together with her..even if it means to betray my frenz..i guess my seriousness is scary..but i guess i will not resort to betraying my frenz juz to be together with her..zhong4 se4 qing1 you3???dun realli care now..i flop in my life..loner..no true frenz..juz now lonely lonely walk home..thinking abt alot of stuff..realised that ppl who i call buddies or frenz are not truly ppl i noe..i do not noe them well..mebbe i dun make myself active when we hang out together..that's y there's a lack of communication..i'm juz telling myself to take it one step as a time..slowly..if this is wad i'm born to be..as a loner..i'll juz live with it..p.sch to now..have i realli had a true fren?i guess not..but one thing i noe..is that i put all i have into liking someone..perhaps that's y i ignore my frenz..and perhaps that's y i'm getting more hurt and hurt in the heart each time i like someone..but it's juz me..plain me as to put my whole heart into a relationship..

and i didn't eat my dinner all thanx to someone..but nvm..and ya..i wasted 8 dollars on chicken little..dotx..the other 8 dollars leh..i dunno la..it's not up to me to decide whether it's wasted..haha..

great time spent together with boss..but as i've said earlier on..this is not a true frenship..do i realli treat them as frenz..mebbe?i dunno..but how do i explain the fact that i actualli asked them to without me to buy the tic firz while i wait..if i treat them as frenz..wld i do that?i dunno..

if frenz are like this..k lo..i have frenz..but true frenz who understand how i feel..nah..perhaps becuz i nv express my true self infront of frenz..perhaps becuz i only show my true self infront of the gal that i like..perhaps i was nv given a chance to express myself in front of my frenz..too many qsns that puzzle me in my life..haiz..

but rite now..i guess i shall juz put all my mind on the prob i'm facing now till after holidays..

and..pls..dun gimme false hopes..i can't stand false hopes animore..