what a nice anime, code geass. it's the best anime i've ever watched. the ending was very sad, yet beautiful at the same time. it's like, u saw it coming, u knew he was going to sacrifice himself, but u jus can't help crying. it was really really sad. it's even sadder than when Zack died in ff7 CC. Zack's death was sad cuz of the attachment to the char thru the gameplay. but lelouch's death was a complete different thing. it's a sadness that i can't really describe. well, i guess u wun understand what i'm saying unless u really go and watch it. it's really a very nice anime worth your time watching, worth the 50 episodes from R1 to R2, worth the 3 days of non-stop watching. code geass roX!!!
but seriously, if u wanna really understand this superb storyline, this anime of the yr, u muz look beyond all the stuff about C.C. yes, she's cute and all, but the whole thing is about Lelouch, and what he did for the world. it's jus something great that he has done, sacrificing himself for the world. seriously, all hail Lelouch! *dunnit Geass to do that. hai, if only they understood him in the firz place.
and this anime is so good that it made me wanna look at the world in another way, beyond the hatred, towards the future.
thanks alot!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Sunday, December 07, 2008
happy
i am currently in my happiest mood of the year. guess it's all because of the ORD and stuff going on in life lately. finally outta the 2 years which didn't really impact my life much. as much as i would like to say it's 2 yrs wasted, it's also 2 years of friends made. that's the only thing i took from these 2 years, friends. experiences in life, not alot i would say. grenade throwing, shooting at non-moving targets, all these, boring i would say. even those stuff that i did in unit. quite boring oso ba.
well, and guess wad, liverpool jus won. had to wait till the last 20 mins or so for the game to liven up with a wonderfully placed goal by alonso. benayoun had his superb goal. hmm, when blackburn made it 2-1 kinda worried, but somehow knew a goal from liverpool wld be coming. and what a way to round it off with a GERRARD goal in the 94th min, last second goal. it felt like a GERRARD penalty. so cool, so calm, so steady and all so accurate. he had no problems putting it into the net.
haha, happy that i'm supporting this club which is on top of the BPL table. thx to her who made me realise what a great club this is. thx to liverpool winning that i noe would make her so happy, and thus making me happy as well.
i jus wanna say, love is something i seeked, but at the same time, i'm starting to hate this increasingly polluted world. polluted minds. stupid people, stupid stuff. so CAN U PLEASE STAND ON THE LEFT SIDE OF THE ESCALATOR IF U'RE NOT IN A FUCKIN HURRY TO GET ON TO THAT FUCKIN TRAIN!!!! thank you.
damn it, how i wish i had the geass. blah, geass feels like deathnote, both are powerful in their own ways i guess. haha, anime is slowly creepin into my life again, now that i have all the time in the world to do so.
well, and guess wad, liverpool jus won. had to wait till the last 20 mins or so for the game to liven up with a wonderfully placed goal by alonso. benayoun had his superb goal. hmm, when blackburn made it 2-1 kinda worried, but somehow knew a goal from liverpool wld be coming. and what a way to round it off with a GERRARD goal in the 94th min, last second goal. it felt like a GERRARD penalty. so cool, so calm, so steady and all so accurate. he had no problems putting it into the net.
haha, happy that i'm supporting this club which is on top of the BPL table. thx to her who made me realise what a great club this is. thx to liverpool winning that i noe would make her so happy, and thus making me happy as well.
i jus wanna say, love is something i seeked, but at the same time, i'm starting to hate this increasingly polluted world. polluted minds. stupid people, stupid stuff. so CAN U PLEASE STAND ON THE LEFT SIDE OF THE ESCALATOR IF U'RE NOT IN A FUCKIN HURRY TO GET ON TO THAT FUCKIN TRAIN!!!! thank you.
damn it, how i wish i had the geass. blah, geass feels like deathnote, both are powerful in their own ways i guess. haha, anime is slowly creepin into my life again, now that i have all the time in the world to do so.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
tiring
all these stuff lately is starting to tire me out. random acts of ppl, seem to have negative effects on me nowadays. random stuff that didn't seem to be a prob, jus affected my badly. mentally and physically. some things, i can tolerate, some, i just can't. i'm tired. tired of all these.
if i'm dreaming, wake me up. if this is reality, i wld rather dream. i'm jus tired. mebbe i'll get back the energy again. mebbe.
ORD seems near, but it doesn't mean anything. jus one thing off my shoulder. there's too many things to worry in life, and it's not up to me to decide how things will go for me. i just hope things will turn out good.
u're tiring me out. u're making me sick. u're making me bored. u're making me feel so fuck-up. u're making me use the f words.
all these 'u' are almost all the ppl in this world. and i hate 'u'.
i'm back, i hate the world.
if i'm dreaming, wake me up. if this is reality, i wld rather dream. i'm jus tired. mebbe i'll get back the energy again. mebbe.
ORD seems near, but it doesn't mean anything. jus one thing off my shoulder. there's too many things to worry in life, and it's not up to me to decide how things will go for me. i just hope things will turn out good.
u're tiring me out. u're making me sick. u're making me bored. u're making me feel so fuck-up. u're making me use the f words.
all these 'u' are almost all the ppl in this world. and i hate 'u'.
i'm back, i hate the world.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
PENANG
woots, haven been blogging since i came back from penang, so shall briefly recap on wad happened in penang.
basically, it's jus shop, eat, slp!!!LOLS
well, firz day reach there, go hotel, say check in in afternoon, blah blah blah. so end up go pranglin walk around and caught MAX payne for 9 ringitt, a total rip-off by us i wld say. and b4 that, we went to arcade. one token, 50 ringitt. daytona only needs one TOKEN!!! WTF!!! so cheap, omg, it's like 20cents in SGD la. we oso played the bball machine, hmmm, scores not very good, mebbe it's the ball, or mebbe i too long nvr play le. XP. MAX payne was seriously worth the 9 ringitt, cuz it 's not a really good show. =P. seriously, it's those kinda shows that have great trailers but turns out to be a total disaster. other than mila kunis, the show was kinda not up to my expectations. all those angels in the trailer, zz, turned out to be illusions. the whole build up to lupino, how strong he is, blah blah blah, ended with one shot by a stupid BB *a stupid name btw*. wth, some guy so strong, get killed by one shot by a guy who can't seem to shoot down max payne using a sub machine gun but managed to kill lupino in one shot with a pistol. BAH! realistic but not consistent thruout the movie. max is too strong. and that stupid accent when the dunno who calls max. sounded like MARX payne. WTF!!! damn funny.
well, chck back in at hotel, got our rooms, went for dinner. bought some alcohol and headed back to hotel to catch soccer matches. liverpool VS wigan. AND WAD A SUPERB COMEBACK!!! not forgetting the char kway teow we had while watching. when we were 2-0 down, the carlsberg i was drinking tasted damn bitter. the moment reira equalised, OMG!!! it became as sweet as, erm, sugar cane? hahas. we were shouting like siao in the room!!!
the nxt day, we somehow came up with a new lingo with char kway teow. from the crab meat, to kway teow, to prawn, to hum, to tao gei. LOLS!!!really farni. so end up we started observing char kway teows, if u dun get wad i mean, feel free to ask me on msn. XP. basically the whole day was eat shop again.
final day, oso eat shop at queensbay, penang's vivo, really nice place. and at night when we went back to hotel, about to leave, we saw pierre png, qi yu wu and apple hong at the HOTEL LOBBY!!! oMG! well, we alr saw qi yu wu, bai wei xiu and apple the previous night, but this time we managed to take photos with them. actually only the guys, cuz the stupid manager aunty say apple nvr put make-up so cannot take. -_-. we were like wtf. but the way apple was giggling, omg, real cute. hahas, i became a fan of hers on the spot manz. bai wei xiu was not there, dunno y. so end up taking photos with the guys lo.
well, that's all for penang trip.zz
and i did this barclay epl survey, which qualifies me for a chance to go to my fav team's home ground to watch live epl match, plus free air tickets and hotel and money to spend!!!wtf! if i can win it wld be real good!!! got 2 tics, so hopefully can ask her to go. afterall, the reason why i wanted to go anfield so much was becuz of her. and i can't think about anyone else i can go with. hahas, say so much for wad, later end up nvr win. XP. BUT I WANNA WIN!!! *prays hard*
as much as i think there's no chance of us getting back together, and as much as i think that i wun be in a relationship for a long time to go cuz of how tired i am, i guess i still love her. that's why i wanna ask her to go with me. i dun c it as a chance of us getting back together, but i c it as fulfilling a wish i had in mind, a birthday gift that i had always wanted to give to her, other than the 5566 concert ticket 4 yrs ago which i ended tearing it up. i really jus want to make her happy. afterall, the reason i supported liverpool was partly becuz of her supporting liverpool. when liverpool wins, she'll be happy, and that makes me happy too. i can't give her anything, but i jus wanna let her noe that i love her.
but when will i have the courage to tell?
basically, it's jus shop, eat, slp!!!LOLS
well, firz day reach there, go hotel, say check in in afternoon, blah blah blah. so end up go pranglin walk around and caught MAX payne for 9 ringitt, a total rip-off by us i wld say. and b4 that, we went to arcade. one token, 50 ringitt. daytona only needs one TOKEN!!! WTF!!! so cheap, omg, it's like 20cents in SGD la. we oso played the bball machine, hmmm, scores not very good, mebbe it's the ball, or mebbe i too long nvr play le. XP. MAX payne was seriously worth the 9 ringitt, cuz it 's not a really good show. =P. seriously, it's those kinda shows that have great trailers but turns out to be a total disaster. other than mila kunis, the show was kinda not up to my expectations. all those angels in the trailer, zz, turned out to be illusions. the whole build up to lupino, how strong he is, blah blah blah, ended with one shot by a stupid BB *a stupid name btw*. wth, some guy so strong, get killed by one shot by a guy who can't seem to shoot down max payne using a sub machine gun but managed to kill lupino in one shot with a pistol. BAH! realistic but not consistent thruout the movie. max is too strong. and that stupid accent when the dunno who calls max. sounded like MARX payne. WTF!!! damn funny.
well, chck back in at hotel, got our rooms, went for dinner. bought some alcohol and headed back to hotel to catch soccer matches. liverpool VS wigan. AND WAD A SUPERB COMEBACK!!! not forgetting the char kway teow we had while watching. when we were 2-0 down, the carlsberg i was drinking tasted damn bitter. the moment reira equalised, OMG!!! it became as sweet as, erm, sugar cane? hahas. we were shouting like siao in the room!!!
the nxt day, we somehow came up with a new lingo with char kway teow. from the crab meat, to kway teow, to prawn, to hum, to tao gei. LOLS!!!really farni. so end up we started observing char kway teows, if u dun get wad i mean, feel free to ask me on msn. XP. basically the whole day was eat shop again.
final day, oso eat shop at queensbay, penang's vivo, really nice place. and at night when we went back to hotel, about to leave, we saw pierre png, qi yu wu and apple hong at the HOTEL LOBBY!!! oMG! well, we alr saw qi yu wu, bai wei xiu and apple the previous night, but this time we managed to take photos with them. actually only the guys, cuz the stupid manager aunty say apple nvr put make-up so cannot take. -_-. we were like wtf. but the way apple was giggling, omg, real cute. hahas, i became a fan of hers on the spot manz. bai wei xiu was not there, dunno y. so end up taking photos with the guys lo.
well, that's all for penang trip.zz
and i did this barclay epl survey, which qualifies me for a chance to go to my fav team's home ground to watch live epl match, plus free air tickets and hotel and money to spend!!!wtf! if i can win it wld be real good!!! got 2 tics, so hopefully can ask her to go. afterall, the reason why i wanted to go anfield so much was becuz of her. and i can't think about anyone else i can go with. hahas, say so much for wad, later end up nvr win. XP. BUT I WANNA WIN!!! *prays hard*
as much as i think there's no chance of us getting back together, and as much as i think that i wun be in a relationship for a long time to go cuz of how tired i am, i guess i still love her. that's why i wanna ask her to go with me. i dun c it as a chance of us getting back together, but i c it as fulfilling a wish i had in mind, a birthday gift that i had always wanted to give to her, other than the 5566 concert ticket 4 yrs ago which i ended tearing it up. i really jus want to make her happy. afterall, the reason i supported liverpool was partly becuz of her supporting liverpool. when liverpool wins, she'll be happy, and that makes me happy too. i can't give her anything, but i jus wanna let her noe that i love her.
but when will i have the courage to tell?
Thursday, October 16, 2008
2nd time
this is the 2nd time i actually felt sad becuz of a manga. both which i did not expect to make me sad from the start. firz was ichigo 100%, which didn't look very appealing at the start but in the end still drawn me in to read it till the end, and somehow made me sad while reading. now it's kurohime, which i jus read cuz i had nothing to do. jus a simple or rather stupid story, but it actually evolved into something that touched my heart. stupid me.
i guess it's jus the fact that the guy in kurohime cld do something so big as to sacrifice himself for love that touched me. to die for love, that is something i can nvr do. not that i'm scared of dying, not that i dun wanna love, but there are jus too many things that wld be left undone, too many ppl that wld not be happy, if i jus die for one person. well, not really that many ppl, perhaps jus my parents. i once tot of doing all i cld for someone i love, but i guess for the me now, i can nvr do it. perhaps my love for her has weakened, but i guess it's jus that i love my parents more now. i dun feel sry for her, and i dun think there's a need to cuz i guess she doesn't really care about my love. but, seriously, there's still a part in me that wishes to love her with all i've got, except for dying for her, which is totally ridiculous. i'm not really sad now, jus some realisations. phew, that was a load off my heart, things that i wnted to say. but who's listening? ha, who cares, no one even tags.
last but not least, to end it off, jay has jus gotten a new song that really describes my feelings. and it's now playing on my blog. it's called, 说好的幸福呢. o, btw i haven gotten the album cuz i forgot to bring the pre-order ticket, so i guess i'll do it tml morning.
说好的幸福呢
词 方文山
曲 jay
编曲 micheal lin
你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
i guess it's jus the fact that the guy in kurohime cld do something so big as to sacrifice himself for love that touched me. to die for love, that is something i can nvr do. not that i'm scared of dying, not that i dun wanna love, but there are jus too many things that wld be left undone, too many ppl that wld not be happy, if i jus die for one person. well, not really that many ppl, perhaps jus my parents. i once tot of doing all i cld for someone i love, but i guess for the me now, i can nvr do it. perhaps my love for her has weakened, but i guess it's jus that i love my parents more now. i dun feel sry for her, and i dun think there's a need to cuz i guess she doesn't really care about my love. but, seriously, there's still a part in me that wishes to love her with all i've got, except for dying for her, which is totally ridiculous. i'm not really sad now, jus some realisations. phew, that was a load off my heart, things that i wnted to say. but who's listening? ha, who cares, no one even tags.
last but not least, to end it off, jay has jus gotten a new song that really describes my feelings. and it's now playing on my blog. it's called, 说好的幸福呢. o, btw i haven gotten the album cuz i forgot to bring the pre-order ticket, so i guess i'll do it tml morning.
说好的幸福呢
词 方文山
曲 jay
编曲 micheal lin
你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
Monday, October 13, 2008
hmmm
hai, bad day though it started out good.
firz thing in the mornin, wake up, still very happy cuz of a very very sweet drm. dreamt of me and her(1) being a married couple. then as i started thinking abt the drm, i started to get troubled by it. why is it her(1) and not her(2)? as if my problems with her(2) was not enuff, her(1) has to pop up in my drms. yea, i completely dun wanna haf anything to do with her(1) le, but can't help feeling troubled by the dream. wad's it meant to be? the more i think the more i feel troubled.
later into the night, i started wandering abt alot of stuff too. mebbe it's becuz of wad my mom said, that reminded me abt wad i promised myself in the past. i told myself to make my mom happy, and had been doing that since a long time ago, although sometimes i make her angry. then i also remembered i told myself i wanna make her(2) happy oso. and i wanted to see her(1) happy. the heavy responsibility of making ppl happy suddenly seemed even more heavier than ever. so heavy, that i started thinking, wtf, y do i wanna make so many ppl happy when ppl can't even gimme the happiness i want. so i decided, i jus wanna make my mom & dad happy, to be responsible for their happiness, and only to wish that her(2) and her (1) can both be happy. the responsibility of trying to make ppl happy is jus too much for me to handle, when i dun truly understand it as well, i guess jus makin my mom & dad happy is enuff. wad can a man who dun really noe wad happiness is give to a woman he likes. i think it's jus too heavy a responsibility for me.
so i wish her(2) and her(1) can be happy, though i hope i can be together with her(2) again, but like wad i said in the last post, it's really too far away. we've drifted apart in the past 4 yrs, i dunno whether we can get back again. whether it's even possible.
and the dream, i'll jus treat it as a sweet drm, and a really sweet one. but it's all a dream.
life is a nightmare, but i hope it's not the same for my parents. i just want them to be happy, and i'll make it happen. pls be happy.
firz thing in the mornin, wake up, still very happy cuz of a very very sweet drm. dreamt of me and her(1) being a married couple. then as i started thinking abt the drm, i started to get troubled by it. why is it her(1) and not her(2)? as if my problems with her(2) was not enuff, her(1) has to pop up in my drms. yea, i completely dun wanna haf anything to do with her(1) le, but can't help feeling troubled by the dream. wad's it meant to be? the more i think the more i feel troubled.
later into the night, i started wandering abt alot of stuff too. mebbe it's becuz of wad my mom said, that reminded me abt wad i promised myself in the past. i told myself to make my mom happy, and had been doing that since a long time ago, although sometimes i make her angry. then i also remembered i told myself i wanna make her(2) happy oso. and i wanted to see her(1) happy. the heavy responsibility of making ppl happy suddenly seemed even more heavier than ever. so heavy, that i started thinking, wtf, y do i wanna make so many ppl happy when ppl can't even gimme the happiness i want. so i decided, i jus wanna make my mom & dad happy, to be responsible for their happiness, and only to wish that her(2) and her (1) can both be happy. the responsibility of trying to make ppl happy is jus too much for me to handle, when i dun truly understand it as well, i guess jus makin my mom & dad happy is enuff. wad can a man who dun really noe wad happiness is give to a woman he likes. i think it's jus too heavy a responsibility for me.
so i wish her(2) and her(1) can be happy, though i hope i can be together with her(2) again, but like wad i said in the last post, it's really too far away. we've drifted apart in the past 4 yrs, i dunno whether we can get back again. whether it's even possible.
and the dream, i'll jus treat it as a sweet drm, and a really sweet one. but it's all a dream.
life is a nightmare, but i hope it's not the same for my parents. i just want them to be happy, and i'll make it happen. pls be happy.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
far
so far away,
to the extent that i can't find a way,
out of this life that i face everyday,
having to stand alone without you everyday.
years gone by,
and i ask myself why,
that i let you go 2 years back,
without a chance of getting you back.
i feel like giving up,
cause i know there's no chance
of you cheering me up,
ever again in this life of mine.
you, are just too far away, really, really far away.
to the extent that i can't find a way,
out of this life that i face everyday,
having to stand alone without you everyday.
years gone by,
and i ask myself why,
that i let you go 2 years back,
without a chance of getting you back.
i feel like giving up,
cause i know there's no chance
of you cheering me up,
ever again in this life of mine.
you, are just too far away, really, really far away.
OMG
hahas, can't resist the temptation to listen to the new songs from jay's album that's not out yet. but since i alr pre-ordered it, i guess it's not a problem. XP SUPPORT ORIGINAL!!! hahas, but i've singled out 2 great songs, one is 女儿红, the other is 失落的非主流. these songs might not be the same title in original album, but it's still nice to hear. SO GO AND BUY THE ORIGINAL, IT'S WORTH IT!!! hahahahas
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
magazine
this is the 300th post, wad a coincidence.to me, this day is not that impt at all. not a day worth remembering, not a day worth celebrating, not a day to be happy about. to me, it's jus a day that i was born dead. nvm, i wun go into details. but the point is, i will only remember this day as the day that my mom had to suffer jus to gif birth to me.
20 yrs, i've nver really felt happy on this day. but to me, it doesn't matter.the one i wish was there for me, not there, so it doesn't matter. it doesn't really matter.
i dun care wtf u all do to me, it doesn't matter. tau pok me, wadeva, i dun care.
and thx to those who wished me happy birthday.
but as the hrs jus drag by, and now it's 4am, and my third editin of this post, i jus find it harder to digest. of all ppl, i jus wanted her to wish me happy bday. she's busy, nvm, i dun blame her. i jus tried to make it obvious, stayin awake while she's still online. yea, i can't slp cuz of the mocha. but the main thing why i dun wanna slp is cuz i wanna hear it from her. but it seems that it's jus getting more and more belated. no point waiting? i'll hafta do something abt it ba. it's time to do it yea? i'm not sure abt it, but i guess i can't wait no more. no point. nothing's gonna change if i dun do anything abt it.
and i kinda made this.
Create Fake Magazine Covers with your own picture at MagMyPic.com
Friday, September 26, 2008
稻香
went to watch vicky cristina barcelona. at firz thot the movie was quite boring, at the firz part. but it slowly became farni, esp when maria elena appeared!hahas, she was really good at acting as a psycho wife of juan antonio. and they were really farni. muz look at the movie in an artistic manner la. can't compare it to real life, else wun realli enjoy it. hahas.
and heard jay's new song oso!!! 稻香. superb! they lyrics~hahas. very special song.
对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧
回到最初的美好
不要这黱容易就想放弃
就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机
现在终於飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐
赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了
谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑微微笑
小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧
回到最初的美好☆.
and heard jay's new song oso!!! 稻香. superb! they lyrics~hahas. very special song.
对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧
回到最初的美好
不要这黱容易就想放弃
就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机
现在终於飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐
赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了
谁在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随著稻香河流继续奔跑微微笑
小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧
回到最初的美好☆.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
songs
i really like the blog song i put on my song blog, it really is wad i feel like telling her. have been lookin thru the emails that i wanted send to her over the past few yrs. i guess i really still like her. the feeling has nvr changed. i noe she has changed, but i still like her as she is now. i realli wanna be with her. o, btw, the song on my song blog is called 小丑鱼. really nice song, it jus describes wad i feel for her. together with 没有你, these 2 are the songs that i'll sing to her if haf the chance.
aniwaes, LIVERPOOL WON! hahas, so happy today. mascherano was jus superb. AND KUYT TOO!!!hahas. not forgetting match winner babel and wes brown. XP..
aniwaes, LIVERPOOL WON! hahas, so happy today. mascherano was jus superb. AND KUYT TOO!!!hahas. not forgetting match winner babel and wes brown. XP..
Monday, September 01, 2008
o...k, fine..
hmm, i wonder..why issit so ez for her to c me when i was the one who wanted to c her more..but somehow i tot she was there..wad was i thinking..hmmm, nvm..
COMEX is over!!! but got muh stuff yest alr..so didn't go on last day..the crowd yest was realli too much for me to handle..u can go up yea, but no way u can come down by escalator..only way, stairs..and sony booth was superb..so many ppl!!!hahahas..i go there get ps3 and i was thinking..how come so many ppl standing arnd doin nothing..then after the guy was done with that piece of paper, he asked me to join the queue..then, i realised..those ppl standing arnd doin nothing, it was the queue!!!and it was VERY long! after that got my monitor oso..i approached the sales girl and i realised, she's my neighbour..those kind u c evryday but u dunno who they are, yea..that kind..and i think she recognised me too..but ba! wadeva..got evrything and headed home in cab..YEA! PS3! ASSASSIN'S CREED ROX! SOUL CALIBUR IV TOO!!!
sian..liverpool draw 0-0..haiya..nvm..chelsea oso drew 0-0..and gerrard wasn't arnd while torres was injured early..haiz..
i think we're getting a bit closer again..like last time..i'm vry happy with this..i dunno whether i shld be greedy and want more..or jus let things stay this way..i dun wanna regret for doing things that i shldn't have, but oso not for not doing things i shld have..hai..tell me wad to do..
COMEX is over!!! but got muh stuff yest alr..so didn't go on last day..the crowd yest was realli too much for me to handle..u can go up yea, but no way u can come down by escalator..only way, stairs..and sony booth was superb..so many ppl!!!hahahas..i go there get ps3 and i was thinking..how come so many ppl standing arnd doin nothing..then after the guy was done with that piece of paper, he asked me to join the queue..then, i realised..those ppl standing arnd doin nothing, it was the queue!!!and it was VERY long! after that got my monitor oso..i approached the sales girl and i realised, she's my neighbour..those kind u c evryday but u dunno who they are, yea..that kind..and i think she recognised me too..but ba! wadeva..got evrything and headed home in cab..YEA! PS3! ASSASSIN'S CREED ROX! SOUL CALIBUR IV TOO!!!
sian..liverpool draw 0-0..haiya..nvm..chelsea oso drew 0-0..and gerrard wasn't arnd while torres was injured early..haiz..
i think we're getting a bit closer again..like last time..i'm vry happy with this..i dunno whether i shld be greedy and want more..or jus let things stay this way..i dun wanna regret for doing things that i shldn't have, but oso not for not doing things i shld have..hai..tell me wad to do..
Monday, August 25, 2008
hatred
ok..firz things firz, i changed my blogskin..why?cuz i dun want my life to be like a movie anymore, cuz it never was..movies always have expected endings, dun they..as for why sephiroth, i guess he's jus one of the characters from ff that i like most..esp his sword..blah!
ok..nxt, 21km..fun run i wld say. came back under 2hrs45mins. controlled my pace so didn't really tire myself out that much, and the thing that kept me running? i guess it was hearing about liverpool's win over boro from soohuey. lols. the fighting spirit that liverpool showed probably kept me running, telling me not to stop no matter how hard it wld be..THANKS LIVERPOOL! and thanks soohuey for livescores!!! LIVERPOOL ROX!!! after the run was lunch at sizzlers..the food was superb! aniwaes, went home..wanted to slp, but saw usa vs esp on tv..so stayed up and watch..as expected, usa won..superb feeling to see them win..somehow, u knew they wld..SO, in the end, i didn't slp at all and continued watchin olympics on tv until closin ceremony!
in the end, it was only a 10 hrs slp. and i woke up without feelin pain at all, guess i realli did control my pace eh?hahas..
now to the title of this post, hatred.
dun ask me why, but i jus hate this world, for its flaws. for the flaws of human beings. it was a beautiful world, until all these stupid ppl did stupid things to make my world plunge into darkness. all becuz of their stupid mistakes.. this world doesn't look as beautiful anymore. stupid humans, destroyin the stupid nature. nothing can stop this anymore. no one can stop this world from the destination it's bound for, that is, destruction. humans are jus destroyin the world they live in. all those crap, i juz can't stand it. hypocrites all around the world. i juz can't stand feeling disgusted by all these flaws. i muz admit, i am a human too, who has flaws. but i chose to tolerate it. jus like i chose to tolerate the flaws of my family and her. these are ppl that i dun hate, cuz they're precious to me. well, i guess i hate myself. afterall, i guess i muz be responsible for some of the things that happened to me in life. but main point is i hate almost evrything. i didn't want to be like this, it's those ppl that made me into this. who cares..
i dunno why, but u're the only one that can make me happy..strange....
ok..nxt, 21km..fun run i wld say. came back under 2hrs45mins. controlled my pace so didn't really tire myself out that much, and the thing that kept me running? i guess it was hearing about liverpool's win over boro from soohuey. lols. the fighting spirit that liverpool showed probably kept me running, telling me not to stop no matter how hard it wld be..THANKS LIVERPOOL! and thanks soohuey for livescores!!! LIVERPOOL ROX!!! after the run was lunch at sizzlers..the food was superb! aniwaes, went home..wanted to slp, but saw usa vs esp on tv..so stayed up and watch..as expected, usa won..superb feeling to see them win..somehow, u knew they wld..SO, in the end, i didn't slp at all and continued watchin olympics on tv until closin ceremony!
in the end, it was only a 10 hrs slp. and i woke up without feelin pain at all, guess i realli did control my pace eh?hahas..
now to the title of this post, hatred.
dun ask me why, but i jus hate this world, for its flaws. for the flaws of human beings. it was a beautiful world, until all these stupid ppl did stupid things to make my world plunge into darkness. all becuz of their stupid mistakes.. this world doesn't look as beautiful anymore. stupid humans, destroyin the stupid nature. nothing can stop this anymore. no one can stop this world from the destination it's bound for, that is, destruction. humans are jus destroyin the world they live in. all those crap, i juz can't stand it. hypocrites all around the world. i juz can't stand feeling disgusted by all these flaws. i muz admit, i am a human too, who has flaws. but i chose to tolerate it. jus like i chose to tolerate the flaws of my family and her. these are ppl that i dun hate, cuz they're precious to me. well, i guess i hate myself. afterall, i guess i muz be responsible for some of the things that happened to me in life. but main point is i hate almost evrything. i didn't want to be like this, it's those ppl that made me into this. who cares..
i dunno why, but u're the only one that can make me happy..strange....
Monday, August 11, 2008
NDP IS OVER!!!
finally, the NDP is over..phew..the sweeps were long and draggy..AND STUPID!!!but nvm..it's all over..the waitin for sweeps, the waitin for going back to camp, the waitin for going back home..all over..
well, as soon as i got home, i settled down and slept thru the afternoon..at night watched some games, like community shield and china vs usa..then went back to slp at arnd 1..and wtf, i woke up at 1.30 this afternoon!poof!bball gone..but nvm..slack at home..zz
ya..last week went to get stuff for myself, spending the remainder of my pay for the month of july and guess wad, i still have more than half left..woots!my pay didn't increase but my spending ability went down..nvm..hahas..so got myself a liverpool bag..together with a liv shoe bag at only 72 bucks! wtf..hahas..i ask the guy no discount meh?cuz he said the bag was 72..nxt thing i noe, he took out a shoe bag and said free gift..dude, that was cool!the shoe bag i saw at another shop was 25 bucks man..woots!hahas..
i noe nus is still like 1 yr away but have been thinkin of which clubs to join..mebbe shld juz join a slackin club, but dunno la..go in then c how..tho i've been thinkin alot abt co..those days when i enjoyed myself by playin those drums..those concerts. blah! hahas..but too hectic and sometimes borin ba..dunno..go in then c how..
WTF is that stupid girl singin on tv siah!lols..she sux..hahas..BLAH! so random..
well, as soon as i got home, i settled down and slept thru the afternoon..at night watched some games, like community shield and china vs usa..then went back to slp at arnd 1..and wtf, i woke up at 1.30 this afternoon!poof!bball gone..but nvm..slack at home..zz
ya..last week went to get stuff for myself, spending the remainder of my pay for the month of july and guess wad, i still have more than half left..woots!my pay didn't increase but my spending ability went down..nvm..hahas..so got myself a liverpool bag..together with a liv shoe bag at only 72 bucks! wtf..hahas..i ask the guy no discount meh?cuz he said the bag was 72..nxt thing i noe, he took out a shoe bag and said free gift..dude, that was cool!the shoe bag i saw at another shop was 25 bucks man..woots!hahas..
i noe nus is still like 1 yr away but have been thinkin of which clubs to join..mebbe shld juz join a slackin club, but dunno la..go in then c how..tho i've been thinkin alot abt co..those days when i enjoyed myself by playin those drums..those concerts. blah! hahas..but too hectic and sometimes borin ba..dunno..go in then c how..
WTF is that stupid girl singin on tv siah!lols..she sux..hahas..BLAH! so random..
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
SPAIN WON!
yes..late entry!but still very happy about the win!hahahas..and guess wad, spain won and at the same time, i won quite alot for the tournament..if i'm not wrong shld be totalling up to about 2 times my monthly ns allowance..XP
last game was the killer..that one goal making all the difference to my winnings..and by killer, i mean i killed singapore pools..XD..
and the best thing is, torres scored the all-important GOAL!!!and look at the following:
The UEFA select squad in full is:
Goalkeepers: Gianluigi Buffon (Italy), Iker Casillas (Spain), Edwin van der Sar (Netherlands).
Defenders: Bosingwa (Portugal), Philipp Lahm (Germany), Carlos Marchena (Spain), Pepe (Portugal), Carles Puyol (Spain), Yuri Zhirkov (Russia).
Midfielders: Hamit Altıntop (Turkey), Luka Modric (Croatia), Marcos Senna (Spain), Xavi Hernández (Spain), Konstantin Zyryanov (Russia), Michael Ballack (Germany), Cesc Fàbregas (Spain), Andrés Iniesta (Spain), Lukas Podolski (Germany), Wesley Sneijder (Netherlands).
Forwards: Andrei Arshavin (Russia), Roman Pavlyuchenko (Russia), Fernando Torres (Spain), David Villa (Spain).
which is almost a spain team la..hahas..though i was pretty surprised sergio ramos wasn't included cuz he seriously played a vry good tournament..perhaps he chiong too much as a defender, but he's a side back ma..lols..and xabi alonso shld be also included..though he didn't play much, but he was very important when he came on as a sub..lols..
last game was the killer..that one goal making all the difference to my winnings..and by killer, i mean i killed singapore pools..XD..
and the best thing is, torres scored the all-important GOAL!!!and look at the following:
The UEFA select squad in full is:
Goalkeepers: Gianluigi Buffon (Italy), Iker Casillas (Spain), Edwin van der Sar (Netherlands).
Defenders: Bosingwa (Portugal), Philipp Lahm (Germany), Carlos Marchena (Spain), Pepe (Portugal), Carles Puyol (Spain), Yuri Zhirkov (Russia).
Midfielders: Hamit Altıntop (Turkey), Luka Modric (Croatia), Marcos Senna (Spain), Xavi Hernández (Spain), Konstantin Zyryanov (Russia), Michael Ballack (Germany), Cesc Fàbregas (Spain), Andrés Iniesta (Spain), Lukas Podolski (Germany), Wesley Sneijder (Netherlands).
Forwards: Andrei Arshavin (Russia), Roman Pavlyuchenko (Russia), Fernando Torres (Spain), David Villa (Spain).
which is almost a spain team la..hahas..though i was pretty surprised sergio ramos wasn't included cuz he seriously played a vry good tournament..perhaps he chiong too much as a defender, but he's a side back ma..lols..and xabi alonso shld be also included..though he didn't play much, but he was very important when he came on as a sub..lols..
Saturday, June 21, 2008
hmmm
ha, i saw her fren at lot 1 this afternoon when i was jus walking aimlessly there in my no.4..when i saw her fren, the only thing that i tot of was..hmmm..mebbe she's here oso..AND!!!knn!!!MY BRO IS SLPING ON MY BED RIGHT NOW!!!ok..nvm..he rolled on onto the floor alr..lol..aniwaes..continuing..the moment the possiblity of her being there oso realli stunned me..i realli dunno wad to say to her if i really saw her..cuz seriously, we haf not talked to each other ever since we broke up..and the last time i saw her was..i think j1, when i wld occasionally see her on the mrt..but we nvr realli talked..except sayin hi..but yea, hell was i surprised to see her fren there..even though a part of me was realli nervous as to wad i wld do i, the other part was hoping to see her..haiz..i guess that's all..match starting..so that's it..and if u're reading this..pls go read my previous post..
Monday, June 16, 2008
what if
now the question comes back again..was stunned when this fren of mine whom i nvr tokked to for a long time asked me these qsns..
what if, u can live any second/minute/hour/day/week/month/yr of ur life again, countless times, as long as u want it?
or ur whole life?
well, i was basically stunned..i knew the answers, but i didn't tell her..since she oso dunno alot of things abt my life, so i guess there was no point answering her..
well, so i answering it here..lols..so here it goes..i'll start from second..
the second..hmmm..i guess it's the moment i looked at her in the eyes, it's the kind of moment when u can sense the love u haf for each other..but that was rather long ago..hmmm..still can rmm even after 4 yrs ba..
well, for the minute..it's the minute, when she agreed to be together with me..though it was only for a month, i noe i was happy..that minute, i guess, was the best minute in my life..
the hour, of cuz it's the hour when i confessed to her and she took like an hour to reply..we knew the answer already..jus that she was stuck at her grandma's hse..and somehow the internet connection sux and in the end had to settle it thru sms..and that, was really sweet..can see how nervous she was although it was jus a msg..the moment when she msged and said..wad u think leh?the moment i confessed to her, was rather funny actually..cuz we alr knew wad was in each other's minds..but i guess we rushed it abit too fast..end up, we rushed into the relationship without really knowing that much abt each other..without me sure abt the feelings i have for her..only to realise in the end when we were about to break up, that i love her, more than i loved the first..it was then that i realised..i dun love the firz anymore, the only one i loved during that period of time, was just her, and my mom, dad, and siblings..but she jus had to misunderstand me b4 i cld actually tell her how much i love her..all was too late..hmmm..guess i wandered a bit too far from the "hour"
well, movin on, the day..of cuz it's 6thMarch2004..the only date in my life other than my bday, her bday, my family members' bday that wld matter so much to me in my life that up to this date i still can't forget abt it..that i even wrote a song abt it.. can go www.fallenreasonsongs.blogspot.com if u wanna look at the lyrics..lols..that day, when the hour, the minute is all in the same day..i jus wanna live it all over again..
the month..hmmm..i'll be greedy abit and make it 2 months..and it'll start from 7thFeb to 7thApr2004..why?firz of all..it includes the day, hour, minute and second..secondly, 7thFeb..when i firz knew she existed..yes, i've seen her alot of times..but didn't really took notice of her..that day..i knew how fun a person she was..alot of things happened that night..became her papa..lols..msged her alot..lols..jus happy..cuz that time..my relationship with the firz was already going down the hill..i shld haf known, but i chose to ignore it..until 14thFeb when evrything i thot wld happen really did happen..basically all bad stuff..all was going fine except for the fact that i didn't c my firz the whole day, didn't talk to her the whole day..and it was valentine's day..at 11pm that night, when i tot i cld slp..an email came from her..i was happy, afterall, didn't talk the whole day..and guess wad, it wasn't realli an email that cld make me happy..it made me cry..and the firz person i told, was my second..within that 7 days..i told her so much that evrything that happened between me and my firz for the past 3 yrs..she knew it all..and she was there to talk to me..and thruout the month, all the way until that day..it was basically picking myself up, healing my wounds by talking to her..then i realised she can make me happy and that the feelings were mutual, not jus one sided..so i told her on that day..that one month of dating that followed..very few things happened but was still happy..until she broke up ba..
well, for the yr, there was nvr a single yr that i was happy thruout..so i guess i'll jus make it 2004, cuz basically..it was the yr alot of happy things happened..but oso the saddest things in my life oso happened this yr..but was meaningful for me..and that yr..after the breakup, it was jus endless regrets and sadness..
as for the lifetime..i wld rather not live it again..but if i can change one thing, i will nvr let u leave me..nvr, ever..cuz after 4 yrs..i still love u..
i'm not emo, jus that the qsns made me think alot..and made me decide to write all this down on the blog..
what if, u can live any second/minute/hour/day/week/month/yr of ur life again, countless times, as long as u want it?
or ur whole life?
well, i was basically stunned..i knew the answers, but i didn't tell her..since she oso dunno alot of things abt my life, so i guess there was no point answering her..
well, so i answering it here..lols..so here it goes..i'll start from second..
the second..hmmm..i guess it's the moment i looked at her in the eyes, it's the kind of moment when u can sense the love u haf for each other..but that was rather long ago..hmmm..still can rmm even after 4 yrs ba..
well, for the minute..it's the minute, when she agreed to be together with me..though it was only for a month, i noe i was happy..that minute, i guess, was the best minute in my life..
the hour, of cuz it's the hour when i confessed to her and she took like an hour to reply..we knew the answer already..jus that she was stuck at her grandma's hse..and somehow the internet connection sux and in the end had to settle it thru sms..and that, was really sweet..can see how nervous she was although it was jus a msg..the moment when she msged and said..wad u think leh?the moment i confessed to her, was rather funny actually..cuz we alr knew wad was in each other's minds..but i guess we rushed it abit too fast..end up, we rushed into the relationship without really knowing that much abt each other..without me sure abt the feelings i have for her..only to realise in the end when we were about to break up, that i love her, more than i loved the first..it was then that i realised..i dun love the firz anymore, the only one i loved during that period of time, was just her, and my mom, dad, and siblings..but she jus had to misunderstand me b4 i cld actually tell her how much i love her..all was too late..hmmm..guess i wandered a bit too far from the "hour"
well, movin on, the day..of cuz it's 6thMarch2004..the only date in my life other than my bday, her bday, my family members' bday that wld matter so much to me in my life that up to this date i still can't forget abt it..that i even wrote a song abt it.. can go www.fallenreasonsongs.blogspot.com if u wanna look at the lyrics..lols..that day, when the hour, the minute is all in the same day..i jus wanna live it all over again..
the month..hmmm..i'll be greedy abit and make it 2 months..and it'll start from 7thFeb to 7thApr2004..why?firz of all..it includes the day, hour, minute and second..secondly, 7thFeb..when i firz knew she existed..yes, i've seen her alot of times..but didn't really took notice of her..that day..i knew how fun a person she was..alot of things happened that night..became her papa..lols..msged her alot..lols..jus happy..cuz that time..my relationship with the firz was already going down the hill..i shld haf known, but i chose to ignore it..until 14thFeb when evrything i thot wld happen really did happen..basically all bad stuff..all was going fine except for the fact that i didn't c my firz the whole day, didn't talk to her the whole day..and it was valentine's day..at 11pm that night, when i tot i cld slp..an email came from her..i was happy, afterall, didn't talk the whole day..and guess wad, it wasn't realli an email that cld make me happy..it made me cry..and the firz person i told, was my second..within that 7 days..i told her so much that evrything that happened between me and my firz for the past 3 yrs..she knew it all..and she was there to talk to me..and thruout the month, all the way until that day..it was basically picking myself up, healing my wounds by talking to her..then i realised she can make me happy and that the feelings were mutual, not jus one sided..so i told her on that day..that one month of dating that followed..very few things happened but was still happy..until she broke up ba..
well, for the yr, there was nvr a single yr that i was happy thruout..so i guess i'll jus make it 2004, cuz basically..it was the yr alot of happy things happened..but oso the saddest things in my life oso happened this yr..but was meaningful for me..and that yr..after the breakup, it was jus endless regrets and sadness..
as for the lifetime..i wld rather not live it again..but if i can change one thing, i will nvr let u leave me..nvr, ever..cuz after 4 yrs..i still love u..
i'm not emo, jus that the qsns made me think alot..and made me decide to write all this down on the blog..
Friday, June 13, 2008
why
Why - Ayaka
Lyrics
hitomi no oku ga boyake te mie nai
kokoro no soko no kimochi wa aru no ?
sekai no subete wo te ni shi ta toshite mo
sore ga anata no shiawase na no ?
Why kodoku na sora wo miageru no ?
Why waratte mise te yo
kotoba ni suru no ga heta na
anata no seikaku wakaru kara
tooi mukashi ni nani ga atta no ?
shisen wo sorasu anata no hitomi ni
hitori de samishii yoru ni dakishime rareru
sonna atataka sa shitteru ?
Why doushite katachi ni kodawaru no ?
Why kokoro wo hirai teo
okina nimotsu wo seotta
anata wo ukeire rareru chikara
aru wa shinji te mi te ?
Ohh..Yeaahh
jiyuu na hito wa bukiyou de ?
jiyuu na hito wa fuan de ?
Why kodoku na sora wo miageru no ?
Why waratte mise te yo
kotoba ni suru no ga heta na
anata no seikaku wakaru kara
shinji te mi te
Translations
Your inner eye has clouded over so much that it’s impossible for you to see.
Does any emotion still reside within the depths of your heart?
Having the entire world at your fingertips,
Is that what you consider happiness?
Why? Why do look up into the lonely heavens?
Why? Can’t you laugh a little?
I understand this character of yours –
This disposition that is incapable of putting anything into words.
What was it that came to be in your sequestered past?
These eyes of yours, they refuse to meet the world.
All alone with only the lonely night to cradle you,
Is this the warmth that you have come to know?
Why? Why are you so concerned with the way you look?
Why? Can you not open up your heart a little?
You’ve been taxed by this heavy burden for so long,
It’s time that you learn to accept yourself.
Have more faith in yourself...
It is those who are free that are stumbling...
It is those who are free that are insecure...
Why? Why do you look up at the lonely sky?
Why? Can you not laugh, even slightly?
I can appreciate
This reticent character of yours.
You only have to try to believe...
Why...?
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crisis core theme song~ superb! basically it trys to look at zack thru this song..how he wishes for freedom..the loneliness of being a soldier..alot of stuff..nice song la..hahahas..
yest night got pretty drunk, although didn't drink a lot..somemore it was at home so pretty good..hahas..was watching ger vs cro on comp at that time..then on msn..basically was doing alot of stupid stuff with my personal msg..then this morning see..hmmm, might be really true..and i jus kept talking with her..oso dunno y..why?hahas..wadeva la..after 4 yrs le, wad can i do, wad can i say..
Lyrics
hitomi no oku ga boyake te mie nai
kokoro no soko no kimochi wa aru no ?
sekai no subete wo te ni shi ta toshite mo
sore ga anata no shiawase na no ?
Why kodoku na sora wo miageru no ?
Why waratte mise te yo
kotoba ni suru no ga heta na
anata no seikaku wakaru kara
tooi mukashi ni nani ga atta no ?
shisen wo sorasu anata no hitomi ni
hitori de samishii yoru ni dakishime rareru
sonna atataka sa shitteru ?
Why doushite katachi ni kodawaru no ?
Why kokoro wo hirai teo
okina nimotsu wo seotta
anata wo ukeire rareru chikara
aru wa shinji te mi te ?
Ohh..Yeaahh
jiyuu na hito wa bukiyou de ?
jiyuu na hito wa fuan de ?
Why kodoku na sora wo miageru no ?
Why waratte mise te yo
kotoba ni suru no ga heta na
anata no seikaku wakaru kara
shinji te mi te
Translations
Your inner eye has clouded over so much that it’s impossible for you to see.
Does any emotion still reside within the depths of your heart?
Having the entire world at your fingertips,
Is that what you consider happiness?
Why? Why do look up into the lonely heavens?
Why? Can’t you laugh a little?
I understand this character of yours –
This disposition that is incapable of putting anything into words.
What was it that came to be in your sequestered past?
These eyes of yours, they refuse to meet the world.
All alone with only the lonely night to cradle you,
Is this the warmth that you have come to know?
Why? Why are you so concerned with the way you look?
Why? Can you not open up your heart a little?
You’ve been taxed by this heavy burden for so long,
It’s time that you learn to accept yourself.
Have more faith in yourself...
It is those who are free that are stumbling...
It is those who are free that are insecure...
Why? Why do you look up at the lonely sky?
Why? Can you not laugh, even slightly?
I can appreciate
This reticent character of yours.
You only have to try to believe...
Why...?
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crisis core theme song~ superb! basically it trys to look at zack thru this song..how he wishes for freedom..the loneliness of being a soldier..alot of stuff..nice song la..hahahas..
yest night got pretty drunk, although didn't drink a lot..somemore it was at home so pretty good..hahas..was watching ger vs cro on comp at that time..then on msn..basically was doing alot of stupid stuff with my personal msg..then this morning see..hmmm, might be really true..and i jus kept talking with her..oso dunno y..why?hahas..wadeva la..after 4 yrs le, wad can i do, wad can i say..
Monday, June 02, 2008
BLOOD & katana
the main point is..katana..blood is wad comes after! lols!
nah..not bloodthirsty..but mebbe!
hahas..no la..swords are nice ma..seriously..the art of making a katana..pretty interesting..from finding the best metal, to folding it the firz time all the way until it's final fold..the control of the flame, the technique of folding. jap katana jus simply rocks..pretty much better than english swords..now u noe why sephiroth's katana is so strong..XP
hahas..high morale but dunno why..lols!
mebbe a little too high..
yea, kinda dying down liaoz..the main reason why i blogging cuz it's very boring..haiz..
ok..but now i see felicia chin on the tv! XD.. honour and passion..lols
haiya..i jus can't forget..but i guess it's time for me to move on..i'm trying hard already..seriously..4 yrs le..it might seem to anyone that i'm not even trying, but the fact that these 4 yrs i try my best to avoid u, to not talk to u..that's a gd sign that i'm trying very hard le..haiz..wad am i talking abt..
hmmm, wldn't it be nice if this world is void of guns..jus kill using KATANA la!!!XD
jus kiddin..but i becoming a 110% sephiroth fan le..XD
change of song
changed the song..hahas..this song..few lyrics..but nice..well, one of those sad songs again..
those who dislike jay chou, i only got one thing to say..u dun understand music..cuz he's one of few who's very talented in taiwan..
and farking boring..haiz..我为什么还爱妳
nah..not bloodthirsty..but mebbe!
hahas..no la..swords are nice ma..seriously..the art of making a katana..pretty interesting..from finding the best metal, to folding it the firz time all the way until it's final fold..the control of the flame, the technique of folding. jap katana jus simply rocks..pretty much better than english swords..now u noe why sephiroth's katana is so strong..XP
hahas..high morale but dunno why..lols!
mebbe a little too high..
yea, kinda dying down liaoz..the main reason why i blogging cuz it's very boring..haiz..
ok..but now i see felicia chin on the tv! XD.. honour and passion..lols
haiya..i jus can't forget..but i guess it's time for me to move on..i'm trying hard already..seriously..4 yrs le..it might seem to anyone that i'm not even trying, but the fact that these 4 yrs i try my best to avoid u, to not talk to u..that's a gd sign that i'm trying very hard le..haiz..wad am i talking abt..
hmmm, wldn't it be nice if this world is void of guns..jus kill using KATANA la!!!XD
jus kiddin..but i becoming a 110% sephiroth fan le..XD
change of song
changed the song..hahas..this song..few lyrics..but nice..well, one of those sad songs again..
those who dislike jay chou, i only got one thing to say..u dun understand music..cuz he's one of few who's very talented in taiwan..
and farking boring..haiz..我为什么还爱妳
Friday, May 16, 2008
E-TEP IS OVER!!!
OMG!!! what is e-tep manz..it' OVER!!! and i mean it!!!hahas..ORD LO!!!
ok..actual fact, still got 7 more pay days to go..but seriously..on the last day of e-tep, it realli felt as if evrything is over..it felt as if evrything we've done for in the past yr has finally paid off, earning us a recon 1..at least for pc force, ps force not confirmed ba..hahas..BUT RECON 1!!!OMG!!!hahas..happy!ORD LOH!
then today had platoon cohesion, to celebrate the fact that e-tep is over! watched vegas..though wanted to watch harrold and kumar instead..but vegas was funny..funny thruout the whole show..except for the part where it ended off..kinda touching, when he expressed his feelings to her..argh, whatever..hahas..it's jus a comedy ba..and it's jus a movie..
deep down inside, i hope evrything wld be perfect, but i know it ain't gonna be..this is life, live it, live on..with u deep down inside my heart, i hope u wun forget the times we had, cuz i noe i wldn't..
alot more things to say..but shall not say too much today..hahas..so bye before i say too much..XP
ok..actual fact, still got 7 more pay days to go..but seriously..on the last day of e-tep, it realli felt as if evrything is over..it felt as if evrything we've done for in the past yr has finally paid off, earning us a recon 1..at least for pc force, ps force not confirmed ba..hahas..BUT RECON 1!!!OMG!!!hahas..happy!ORD LOH!
then today had platoon cohesion, to celebrate the fact that e-tep is over! watched vegas..though wanted to watch harrold and kumar instead..but vegas was funny..funny thruout the whole show..except for the part where it ended off..kinda touching, when he expressed his feelings to her..argh, whatever..hahas..it's jus a comedy ba..and it's jus a movie..
deep down inside, i hope evrything wld be perfect, but i know it ain't gonna be..this is life, live it, live on..with u deep down inside my heart, i hope u wun forget the times we had, cuz i noe i wldn't..
alot more things to say..but shall not say too much today..hahas..so bye before i say too much..XP
Sunday, April 20, 2008
WAH!
SUPER TIRING DAY!!!hahas..
mornin book out..go home, put bag, went out to party world at orchard!hahas..superb!hahas..had some great singing..but didn't manage to sing the songs i wanted to sing altho sang alot..hahas..i wanna sing bai se feng che like how jay did it in his concert..lols..R&B rox..ur feelings can actually change the way u sing the song..and if it comes out how u want it to be..actually feels kinda good..hahas..
then ended at 2pm..stupid boss say take bus..then knn..reach home at 1530 then still needta rush down to the east side, ie. marine parade cc for sweep..zzz..took cab..reached eunos on time..then cab down to cc again..-_-..so diao..sweep was ok..nothin much to say..jus that the dog very big, cute and OBEDIENT!!!lols..
hai..4 yrs le niah..dunno wad to say..dunno wad to do, i'm still lost. i'm still here. still waiting, for no answers..sing a song, let it describe these 4 yrs..i only got one song to sing to u..or mebbe a few..for example jie kou..but most importantly, there's only one song that 'll hint to u that all the while the person i'm talking abt is u..and that song is shuo ai ni..only u'll noe..i guess..or perhaps u've juz forgotten..but i noe i wldn't..hai..
AND LIVERPOOL WON AGAIN!!!AND CURRENTLY AT 67 MINS, MAN UTD IS LOSING TO BLACKBURN!!!LOLS..but think they'll still win..who noes..but i'm going to SLP!!!hahahahahas..crouch and pennant rox for the match aniwaes..lols
mornin book out..go home, put bag, went out to party world at orchard!hahas..superb!hahas..had some great singing..but didn't manage to sing the songs i wanted to sing altho sang alot..hahas..i wanna sing bai se feng che like how jay did it in his concert..lols..R&B rox..ur feelings can actually change the way u sing the song..and if it comes out how u want it to be..actually feels kinda good..hahas..
then ended at 2pm..stupid boss say take bus..then knn..reach home at 1530 then still needta rush down to the east side, ie. marine parade cc for sweep..zzz..took cab..reached eunos on time..then cab down to cc again..-_-..so diao..sweep was ok..nothin much to say..jus that the dog very big, cute and OBEDIENT!!!lols..
hai..4 yrs le niah..dunno wad to say..dunno wad to do, i'm still lost. i'm still here. still waiting, for no answers..sing a song, let it describe these 4 yrs..i only got one song to sing to u..or mebbe a few..for example jie kou..but most importantly, there's only one song that 'll hint to u that all the while the person i'm talking abt is u..and that song is shuo ai ni..only u'll noe..i guess..or perhaps u've juz forgotten..but i noe i wldn't..hai..
AND LIVERPOOL WON AGAIN!!!AND CURRENTLY AT 67 MINS, MAN UTD IS LOSING TO BLACKBURN!!!LOLS..but think they'll still win..who noes..but i'm going to SLP!!!hahahahahas..crouch and pennant rox for the match aniwaes..lols
Friday, April 11, 2008
Liverpool 4 vs Arsenal 2 Quarter-Final UEFA Champions League
OMG!!!LIVERPOOL ROX!!!hahahas..AND I WANNA GO TO ANFIELD!!!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Anfield
dun ask me wad happened..i oso dunno..mebbe it's after seeing the article in football weekly abt that guy going to anfield to watch liv vs reading..imagine seeing gerrard and torres pairing up LIVE at anfield..omg..suddenly juz feel like going to anfield..with a special someone..she wun noe de..mebbe she will..i oso dunno..i'm jus tired..tired of evrything..
Saturday, March 22, 2008
these eyes are too weak to see the truth, but the truth is, these things that we call eyes are the only things that we can use to see.
your heart can only pump blood, it does not feel a thing. it's ur skin that feels.
and ya, ur nose can smell, there's no doubt about that.
ears, ya, they can hear.
all these senses, leading up to nothing individually, but when u put them together, u get alot of things. they can all join up to become emotions we feel.
tokking randomly, sucky day..
your heart can only pump blood, it does not feel a thing. it's ur skin that feels.
and ya, ur nose can smell, there's no doubt about that.
ears, ya, they can hear.
all these senses, leading up to nothing individually, but when u put them together, u get alot of things. they can all join up to become emotions we feel.
tokking randomly, sucky day..
Thursday, March 20, 2008
HEBE!!!
hahas..i'm starting to like hebe alot liao..after her outstanding performance in dou niu..and her outstanding singing skills in dou niu where she 清唱爱来过..and pls lo..i didn't like her becuz i think she's good looking lo..yes she is, but there's more to it..=D..she can SING!!!hahas..and her personality doesn't seem that bad ba..hahas..偶像!!!jus like zhuo wen xuan!!!hahas..they are both so nice~lols
i siao liao..but i dun gif a fuck..feeling like a fuck shit..in camp cannot slp in own room le..ccb..all becuz of empty bunk ceiling collapse then whole floor gotta shift..FUCK UP!
ok..that was the only part of this entry that i'm going to use that F*** word..hahas..haiya..sian la..dunno y..but jus feeling very sian..
i siao liao..but i dun gif a fuck..feeling like a fuck shit..in camp cannot slp in own room le..ccb..all becuz of empty bunk ceiling collapse then whole floor gotta shift..FUCK UP!
ok..that was the only part of this entry that i'm going to use that F*** word..hahas..haiya..sian la..dunno y..but jus feeling very sian..
Saturday, March 08, 2008
时间停留
时间停留
我记得我们分手那天就在四月十二
但已经过了四年我还是在想念着你
我把时间调回四年前三月六日那天
只因为那天是我这生最快乐的一天
this is jus part of the chorus of the song i've been workin on..can't realli think abt anithing except for that now..but hai..aniwaes..i seriously dunno wad to do le..lost state again..but nvm..can live with it..used to it le la..haha
我记得我们分手那天就在四月十二
但已经过了四年我还是在想念着你
我把时间调回四年前三月六日那天
只因为那天是我这生最快乐的一天
this is jus part of the chorus of the song i've been workin on..can't realli think abt anithing except for that now..but hai..aniwaes..i seriously dunno wad to do le..lost state again..but nvm..can live with it..used to it le la..haha
Sunday, March 02, 2008
COME
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Friday, February 29, 2008
too long
too long haven do the things i like to do le.. writing songs, playing bball..i jus wanna get something done over this wkend..cuz i'm feeling real bored..wanna watch movie oso.. but i seriously feel like writing a song. so many words in my mind, so many feelings to pen down..the best way to do this is to write a song ba.
if u say u regret wad u've done 4 yrs ago, i wld gladly forgive and to be together with u again. but i noe very well that that is so farkin impossible, so i shld jus dream on. dreams are sweet yet they are not real. reality sux.
if u say u regret wad u've done 4 yrs ago, i wld gladly forgive and to be together with u again. but i noe very well that that is so farkin impossible, so i shld jus dream on. dreams are sweet yet they are not real. reality sux.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
time of the year
regarding the previous post where i mentioned i'm getting used to be haunted by the past. i guess, i simply mean i'm used to being sad at this time of the year. this particular period where i had enormous emotional changes in like 4 years ago. becoming sad, happy, and then plunged all the way into sadness again. i noe i can't turn back the past. i noe it doesn't matter to u anymore. but to me, it still does. i dunno wad i can do, or rather, i shld say no matter wad i do, it wun help to change the situation. i'm stuck. 4 years ago, i was liddat. 4 years later i'm still the same. i still can't seem to shake it off.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
爱来过
爱来过
我看不开也放不开
因为我曾见过爱情真的盛开
我要等待一直等待
等那一个夜晚从回忆回来
当你拥抱着我那一瞬间
我像飞到空中
而当我缓缓降落
我不再是我
我有了梦我在梦中
爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠辗过
连遗憾也都不争气的珍惜成笑容
爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放它走
我不想解脱
我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我
寂寞喧哗我不害怕
因为我只听得见对你的牵挂
世界很大会容得下
我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰
你有没有过承诺我已忘了
那已不重要了
反正我都会守候在梦中守候
我最唯一最美的梦
爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠辗过
连遗憾也都不争气的珍惜成笑容
爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放它走
我不想解脱
我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我
如果需要动用奇迹来召唤回你
就让泪蒸发下成雪花
和我一起在爱中被融化
this is one of the songs that seriously make me think abt wad happened in the past. a seriously very long time ago thing. things that i didn't cherish..or rather, put too much heart into. i can't turn back the past, so jus lemme stay in my own world for some time b4 i start moving on again..
if can, the version of the song by hebe shld appear below or above..if not jus go youtube find..
我看不开也放不开
因为我曾见过爱情真的盛开
我要等待一直等待
等那一个夜晚从回忆回来
当你拥抱着我那一瞬间
我像飞到空中
而当我缓缓降落
我不再是我
我有了梦我在梦中
爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠辗过
连遗憾也都不争气的珍惜成笑容
爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放它走
我不想解脱
我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我
寂寞喧哗我不害怕
因为我只听得见对你的牵挂
世界很大会容得下
我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰
你有没有过承诺我已忘了
那已不重要了
反正我都会守候在梦中守候
我最唯一最美的梦
爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠辗过
连遗憾也都不争气的珍惜成笑容
爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放它走
我不想解脱
我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我
如果需要动用奇迹来召唤回你
就让泪蒸发下成雪花
和我一起在爱中被融化
this is one of the songs that seriously make me think abt wad happened in the past. a seriously very long time ago thing. things that i didn't cherish..or rather, put too much heart into. i can't turn back the past, so jus lemme stay in my own world for some time b4 i start moving on again..
if can, the version of the song by hebe shld appear below or above..if not jus go youtube find..
Sunday, February 17, 2008
single
hmmm..being single ain't that bad at all manz..hope i'm not jus trying to fool myself this time..but i seriously feel better now, after all that i've been thru for the past 3-4 years..seems that there's nothing left to trouble me now, well, at least not other ppl's troubles..dun hafta worry abt others anymore..dun hafta worry abt what she'll think abt the things i do, cuz no one cares anymore..doing things the way i want, spending time the way i want..spending the money on things that i truly want.. and my NEXT big thing, which has not appeared for a long time in my life..*the last big thing was my PSP..and the last last big thing was my mp3 player..well, the next big thing is gonna be a ps3! w8 for price drop then i go buy le..hahas..afterall, govt gave 100 dollars bonus to ns men..WOOTS! one time pay-off only, how good it wld be if it was evry month..ooo..hahas..manz..ps3 faster drop in price siahs..then i can play the games i wanna play le..currently stuck with vp2 and warriors orochi on ps2..both good games, but too lazy to sit down in front of tv to play, so might as well sit in front of com, listen to music and play dota! hahas..perhaps becuz i play too much on bnet that's y i bring over the attitude i use on bnet to that when i play with my frens at lanshop..in bnet, my attitude is, dun gif anyone any chance, cuz if u do, ur team mates will jus scold u, cuz they dunno u..so i jus go arnd killing, dun care whether it's noob or wad..but when i bring that over to lan, it's diff liao..i kill noob then ppl will say why i feed on noob liaoz..hmmm..hard to balance la, but i've been trying..lols..
hiakx..10 more months to ORD..the more u look at it, the longer it seems to get..so might as well juz dun think abt it..jus book in book out and one fine day..ORD LO!!!hahas..but the duties are killing me liao..nxt sun got duty again..can't take offs on monday siah..cuz this monday got duty oso!kaoz..so many duties, ppl think i tio extra..but that's jus the way it is lo..hahas..
altho i said i feel better alr,but still..the past still haunts me occasionally..that is something i still can't put down..but hecks..i've learnt to live with it..hahas..
hiakx..10 more months to ORD..the more u look at it, the longer it seems to get..so might as well juz dun think abt it..jus book in book out and one fine day..ORD LO!!!hahas..but the duties are killing me liao..nxt sun got duty again..can't take offs on monday siah..cuz this monday got duty oso!kaoz..so many duties, ppl think i tio extra..but that's jus the way it is lo..hahas..
altho i said i feel better alr,but still..the past still haunts me occasionally..that is something i still can't put down..but hecks..i've learnt to live with it..hahas..
Saturday, February 09, 2008
wahaha
KOPE SONG from ppl..hahas..damn lame, but farni..
大年初一头一天
家家户户过新年
只有我在做DUTY
我在做DUTY
七个隆咚锵咚锵
我在做DUTY
七个隆咚锵咚锵
等待ORD
~~~~
每条大街小巷
NSF的嘴里
见面第一句话
就是DUTY DUTY
恭喜恭喜恭喜你呀
今年你又中DUTY
DUTY一到尽头
真是好的消息
不用再过多久
你就要ORD
恭喜恭喜恭喜你呀
今年就要ORD
save a piece of my heart for myself. that's wad i did. and all of the other pieces that i gave u, u jus threw them away. BAH! i noe what i muz do now le la. hahas. BYE! and to a fren whom i've nvr tokked to for a long time, if she ever reads this. if u can, juz jolly well go break up with HIM la!!! if he breaks ur heart so much, no point la. kaoz. c u evrytime blog abt him i oso bu shuang him le la..hahas..who says u're not hot and who says u're not a head turner la..hahas..
大年初一头一天
家家户户过新年
只有我在做DUTY
我在做DUTY
七个隆咚锵咚锵
我在做DUTY
七个隆咚锵咚锵
等待ORD
~~~~
每条大街小巷
NSF的嘴里
见面第一句话
就是DUTY DUTY
恭喜恭喜恭喜你呀
今年你又中DUTY
DUTY一到尽头
真是好的消息
不用再过多久
你就要ORD
恭喜恭喜恭喜你呀
今年就要ORD
save a piece of my heart for myself. that's wad i did. and all of the other pieces that i gave u, u jus threw them away. BAH! i noe what i muz do now le la. hahas. BYE! and to a fren whom i've nvr tokked to for a long time, if she ever reads this. if u can, juz jolly well go break up with HIM la!!! if he breaks ur heart so much, no point la. kaoz. c u evrytime blog abt him i oso bu shuang him le la..hahas..who says u're not hot and who says u're not a head turner la..hahas..
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
chance
i was nvr given a chance to do it for u. and i guess, i'm not gonna do it for anyone anymore. my heart is still and my mind is clear. i noe wad is good for me. good bye. my love for u doesn't end. but it ended with u.
Sunday, January 06, 2008
cool
cool leh, listening to the song on my blog and on window media player at the same time. sounds good..lols..lamoe..oo..i'm back to myself..all those 2 dots coming back..lols..
i'm stil lost la..
i'm stil lost la..
zz
zz. call me mr-no-luck-with-love. argh, wadeva la. let it be, juz let it stay this way. i guess i'll be happier with myself. bye to u. let's juz be frenz. zz.
inevitable
i noe this is inevitible. but wad can i do? i guess i'll juz hafta revert to my old self. but b4 that, i guess i shld juz try for the last time. to tell her that i love her. no matter whether it's gonna work or not, at least i noe i tried. at least
我想我只能做你的背影.
tt's all. i realli dunno wad to do le. i'm lost. if wad she said was real, then this muz be it. but i muz noe, whether it's the truth. hai. thx ah, at this kinda time, u tell me all these. make me wonder even more whether i shld say. rly demoralised la. kaoz. mebbe i shld haf done more things earlier. mebbe it's too late. no one is wrong, juz the timing.
liewz. rly very pain AH! dammit.
我想我只能做你的背影.
tt's all. i realli dunno wad to do le. i'm lost. if wad she said was real, then this muz be it. but i muz noe, whether it's the truth. hai. thx ah, at this kinda time, u tell me all these. make me wonder even more whether i shld say. rly demoralised la. kaoz. mebbe i shld haf done more things earlier. mebbe it's too late. no one is wrong, juz the timing.
liewz. rly very pain AH! dammit.
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