Monday, October 12, 2009

blog some more

decided to blog some more, cuz i just drank coffee! haha, back to my coffee drinking lifestyle. =D have not been drinking alot since after mid-term tests, cuz it has all been playing and stuff. Needta step up the tempo alr, finals are coming. Though knowing me, i'll probably leave everything till last minute, when the ability to absorb reaches abnormal levels. hahaha, but i will slowly get back on track with the stuff that i should have done ba. Computing i'm maintaining at a lvl slightly more than whatever has been taught, maths, i'm still relying on notes while doing tutorial. Physics has by far been just relying on f maths notes, probably the reason behind my physics results. As for EE, dunno, i can grasp the concept, but just need practice ba. Time to chiong!!! =D. week 9 loh!!!

Love needs no reason, that is probably why i wasn't involved in any since like so long ago. hahaha. o wells, saw this funny quote, though sounded meaningless at first, but its actually quite meaningful in some way. 被爱还是爱人, 我选择我爱你. Even though my own fate is in my own hands, sadly, there are things that I cannot control. Things that involve other's ppl fates as well. Sadly, this path is not mine alone, it intersects with other people's paths too, causing diversions, hurdles and stuff to appear everywhere. But I really hope I can reach that destination, a place where I know my heart would find peace at. Its's funny when you look at the word "destination", it simply means, destiny nation. A nation, where ur destiny leads you to, the reason why everyone looks so hard to find their own destination in life. But we all know, what awaits us at this long road, is an eventual death. No one lives forever.

I really hope I could have the courage to bring all these to an end, if not soon, then at most before next sem starts, I have to tell her. It just doesn't feel right to drag these kinda stuff. Yes, I'm happy with the current state, seeing her smile really puts one on me as well. But, how long will this stay? I really dunno. If by telling her would mean an end to our friendship, then I would rather not tell her. But if i let you go, i will never know, what my life would be, holding you close to me. Directly quoted from west life. hahaha. I really dunno, but i really shouldn't be thinking about all these "if" and stuffs. This just ain't right.

Some things are just so obvious for everyone to see, but somehow, it is not so when u're directly involved in it. Maybe its just us not wanting to admit to our feelings. Maybe its just me thinking too much. I know myself too well, I can show my feelings to everyone, obvious to everyone who I really care for. The reason i care, the one i care, no one else, just you.

Some GEM stuff, 3 vertices don't necessarily make a triangle. 3 vertices don't necessarily mean 3 corresponding edges, it can just be 2 vertices joined by a single edge and one lone vertice in the graph. O wells, the wonders of hidden meanings. hahaha

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