reality hits

reality hit me hard. Very hard, when I woke up. Last night was great and all, feeling so tired after watching deathnote. But couldn't sleep so went for a run, makes you forget about things even more when you exercise. But all these were just a temporary escape from reality. When you get all energetic when you wake up, those thoughts start flowing back again.

But, I told myself, this is the reality, I have to face it, no matter what. I won't change my stance. I mean it when I say it. If this is to be for the rest of my life, I would just let it stay like this. Its not me who doesn't wish for happiness, just that, if my happiness would mean trying to do bad things, that's just not me. So, I will never tell her, never. For, it wouldn't mean anything, and for now, leaving it like this is the best thing I could do.

I'll wait, but I wun wish for bad things to happen, I'll just let nature take its course. If we were meant to be, we'll be. If we're not meant to be to start with, there's nothing I can do. Stupid when it comes to love? That's just me ba. And I would rather stay as myself.

Ok, time to mug and not think about all these stuff. There's nothing I can do, except to watch how happy you would be.

This song really applies to my feelings now, even though i've posted it like a few days back, now, it really hit me hard, the emo-ness.

我一直以来都守护在你身边
不懂你如何看得见
只好静静靠在一边

你的笑容能让我开心一整天
只要一天没和你见面
我的心情不会好一点

时间已经不多
我还有话很想说
隐藏在我心里不懂如何开口

我们很快就要走
回忆也不算太多
简简单单希望你会懂

不能在一起也没关系
至少你懂我的心 会在想你
那些回忆会永远保持甜蜜

不管未来你会在哪里
我都不会忘记 我爱你
你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比从前开心