for love, i threw away love

For love, i threw away love. -quote from some book-

lol, slept like a log. =.= stayed up until 3 plus just to fall asleep before the match. DIAO~ then woke up for lunch, tried reading physics a bit, ended up sleeping until dinner. =.= HAHAHA, its easy to fall asleep when u dun drink coffee ba.

Some things are beyond comprehension. Some things, we can understand.

I underestimated my ability to lie to myself. Sometimes, you just need to lie to yourself to be happy. But, whatever you find thru lying will never be true happiness. That, I learnt the hard way.

I really dun like to think about the past. Thinking about the past, just makes me dream of them. And in those dreams, I always seem to find back hope and love. Only to wake up and find that, life is not as good as people say it is. I've lived long enough to know that it is alright to dream, but at the end of the day, if you do not do anything, you'll end up getting nothing. Life is cruel, that, i learnt the hard way.

Its not the recent events that have made me think this way. This has been my way of thinking since sec sch. I, always work towards my goals. Never believed in dreams, cuz they're not worth believing.

And for the last time, stop lying to me. Stop telling me how much my words matter to you, cuz obviously they don't. Yes, I still care for you cuz I treat you as a sister, but that's all to it. I always care for people that have been significant to me in my life, at any stage in my life, unless they've hurt me real badly, or they've done something real bad to make me hate them so bad. Whatever there was in the past, its all in the past already. Yes, we were sweet and all, but not anymore. So, stop lying to me that I still mean alot to you. If my kindness to you continues to make you misunderstand after these 2 years, do not make me do things that I really dun like to do. I know, you'll be reading this, that's why i'm putting it here, for you, TO SEE!

Lies, Deceit. The only thing that is true in this world, is myself.