reason

Time to wake up. I can't sleep forever, can't stay oblivious to the truth anymore. Its there for me to see. For too long, i've been trying to avoid it, too long, i've been trying to tell myself its nothing, its really nothing, everything will be fine. No luck can save me now, not from this harsh reality that I have to face. Wake up, yuan ing.

Its at times like this, when u realise how much you've been lying to yourself, self-deceit. Trying to believe only things that ppl say, and choosing not to believe whatever that is obvious.

Still, i'll move on. I'll stay the way as i've always been. Never give up until the end, cuz you'll never walk alone.

Something has stayed true from the start till the end, that is, no matter how much i can love her, as long as i dun say anything, it will never matter to her. But it doesn't matter anymore now. No more.

I've been trying to sleep whole afternoon, well, at least I managed to sleep, but ended waking up to the harsh reality that I did not want to face. But I know, I have to face it, I have to accept everything, for this is reality, and the only way to move on, is to accept it.

O wells, heard this song on radio again, called "boyfriend" by 5566, kinda reminds me of those days when I loved to sing. Ok, i still love to sing, but not that much anymore.

O wells, i shall just concentrate on my studies and not think about anything else yea. No matter how much tears flow, nothing's gonna change.