EH!?

That was exactly what I shouted out in my heart after watching Gundam 00 movie. Seriously!!! The anime was great and all, but they had to add this shit to pull down the whole series? Instead of giving the fans a much needed fanfare, with amazing gundams and stuff, they came up with a lousy plot, bad gundam designs, and as usual for gundam movies, the inevitable destruction of the gundams at the end of the movie, kinda brought me back to the wingz days where i saw my beloved angel gundam crashing and burning to nothingness.

EH!?

okay, but seriously, i'm not here to talk about gundams. And not about reflections too, as I've had done plenty of that in my previous 2 posts. So what am I here to talk about? I seriously have no idea. What follows might be gibberish, but it is all down to the fact that I can't fall asleep now. And I wonder why. =/

Needing an injection of life again. Yes, certain stuffs have given me hope, but I found myself slacking at home for the past few days, and right now, I just can't wait for school to reopen. So many things to do, so many things to pick up from where I've left them, so many people I want to spend time with, so many modules to take, so many tutorials to do. You might think I'm crazy looking forward to school reopening, but well, if it does not begin, then when will it end? The next 3-4 months will be hectic, but all I wish is to find time to do what I want, to spend time with the person I want to spend time with so much.

All of a sudden, I just wanna go out with you everyday like we did the other day. To me, it seemed the most fun and fulfilling day of the whole december break. So many outings that I had went out for, so many gatherings, yet, one single trip with you felt so much better. At least I didn't feel left out, at least I felt needed, at least I didn't feel a need to contain myself, at least I had all to talk about, at least I had all to listen to, at least...I had you.

Suddenly felt like singing zhi shao hai you ni. hmmmm, maybe all I need is a k session soon. But then again, school is reopening, and I doubt I would be able to squeeze in any time this school term for fun stuffs as such. With the 6 mods, with the RT sessions, everything points to a packed sem 4, but hopefully, you will be there, and hopefully, my life would be so much better with you around me.

至少还有你

Sometimes I ask myself this alot, what would life be like if I've never met you. Perhaps I wouldn't have gone through so much only to realise that I still like you alot? Perhaps I wouldn't have know how it feels like, to have someone there already, yet I didn't notice? Perhaps I wouldn't have known what it means to lose someone only to realise how important she is to me. I wouldn't have been me. We wouldn't have been us. You, will still be you, always smiling to me, always.

Always, it is a strong word. How I've been hurt by this word so much before, but now, I only want to say it to you. I'll "always" be there, so that whenever you get hurt or felt lonely, you can say to me, "At least I still have you."

You're the only one that made me really think that it doesn't matter whether you're there for me, I just want to be here for you. Its not about how much I'm going to get from you, its always, about how much I'm willing to give to you. And i'll give you my all, for you're the only one that needs to know what's going through my mind, I only want you to know. I only want to tell you those 3 words that mean so much to me. If only I could hear those 3 words from you too.

Bah, its getting late, and for all I know, you're probably not gonna read this anyway.

I've said this before, like was it 7 months ago? The key is with you, you already have it in your hands, and its up to you whether you want to open it. I'll be right here waiting for you.